Thank you all for the helpful advice, and interesting thoughts. It's great to get a lot of different perspectives on this, and I agree alt12 that this might be an amplification of other issues I deal with in my default life. You all have definitely left me with a lot to ponder! Thank you!! <3

I'm on here asking for support and advice. I have bipolar disorder, and I am on medication for it. Because of my condition I have never done drugs and I drink very rarely. Usually I own my sobriety, and am fine with it, but I struggle with it at BM. Last year was my first year, and while it was an a...