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- regynalonglank
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There was time in my life, some number of fuzzy years back that someone who’d I’d trusted with my entire self ripped my heart out of my chest. And she didn’t do it in a quick fashion, rather in a way that I can only describe as two trees grown together, grains intertwined after many years that were now being slowly torn apart. These days I’m honestly having trouble remembering parts of that period of life, but I took from it lessons that I know and remember like I know my own self. And one of those was this:
I don’t have to be treated anyway I don’t want to be treated. If someone doesn’t respect me, their mistreatment of me is not the issue, me allowing them to mistreat me is since that’s the only one I have any control over.
I hope you’re feeling less beat down today, my friend. I feel for you more than you probably realize.
I don’t have to be treated anyway I don’t want to be treated. If someone doesn’t respect me, their mistreatment of me is not the issue, me allowing them to mistreat me is since that’s the only one I have any control over.
Wants and needs are often two different things, Sockster. Things will get better... you've got to trust me on this one and just let them.I wish I had mine
I hope you’re feeling less beat down today, my friend. I feel for you more than you probably realize.
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gigglesnort
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I remember a valentine's a handful of years back, with the schizo ex. He had been wanting a guitar for hte longest time, his having been broken for sometime. I loved to listen to him play and sing, especially to the children at bedtime; he could be so gentle and sweet.
So I saved my money, of which I had little, and I bided my time, of which little was ever unaccounted for by him, and I managed to buy him a guitar for valentine's day unbeknownst.
Upon presenting it to him, however, he became enraged. He just knew that I knew that what he really wanted for valentine's day was something slutty for me to wear that night, and he knew that I got the fucking guitar instead just to fuck with his head. It went on for hours, with every name in the book being thrown at me, every insult he could muster, a look of hateful disgust burning from his eyes.
I understand, as well, and feel for you, my friend. And all that LeChat said: I cannot blame him, as I'm the one that allowed myself to be in that position. And making decisions about what I want and do not want for myself is hte very best tonic for the heartache.
So I saved my money, of which I had little, and I bided my time, of which little was ever unaccounted for by him, and I managed to buy him a guitar for valentine's day unbeknownst.
Upon presenting it to him, however, he became enraged. He just knew that I knew that what he really wanted for valentine's day was something slutty for me to wear that night, and he knew that I got the fucking guitar instead just to fuck with his head. It went on for hours, with every name in the book being thrown at me, every insult he could muster, a look of hateful disgust burning from his eyes.
I understand, as well, and feel for you, my friend. And all that LeChat said: I cannot blame him, as I'm the one that allowed myself to be in that position. And making decisions about what I want and do not want for myself is hte very best tonic for the heartache.
I just saw this thread .
Just a shout out , hugs, kisses, and all that other mushy stuff to
GE - we have yet to * really* meet , look forward to it .
Rian - i've know you for a short time , and from day 1 you've been totally cool to me .
Lydia - http://eplaya.burningman.org/viewtopic. ... 99&start=0
Reba - I adore this woman . Reba is just real , not afraid to wear her heart on her sleeve . Open and honest, and makes the best damn beer in the Northwest
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I'm blessed to know these fine ladies .
Just a shout out , hugs, kisses, and all that other mushy stuff to
GE - we have yet to * really* meet , look forward to it .
Rian - i've know you for a short time , and from day 1 you've been totally cool to me .
Lydia - http://eplaya.burningman.org/viewtopic. ... 99&start=0
Reba - I adore this woman . Reba is just real , not afraid to wear her heart on her sleeve . Open and honest, and makes the best damn beer in the Northwest
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I'm blessed to know these fine ladies .
Everyone has the opportunity for greatness, not fame, but greatness, for greatness only requires service--Martin Luther King Jr
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Ouch, giggles... yeah, it's a tough realization to come to and it doesn't make those hurtful things sting any less at the moment they happen, nor does it excuse the other party's bad behavior. But it does make those wounds heal up a lot better.gigglesnort wrote:I cannot blame him, as I'm the one that allowed myself to be in that position.
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Doesn't matter. I was mostly just looking for an excuse to give you a right smart bop. The sentence cannot be commuted or pardoned, either. Sorry.
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