Life.

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Wed Feb 15, 2006 7:54 am

in a chicken's world, it may be considered a foible to associate with someone who makes you different

skygod · Post by **skygod** » Wed Feb 15, 2006 10:30 am

Hi DP
All I have to offer you is my honesty.
"The secret of happiness is to find out what you like to do and do as much of it as you can"- George Bernard Shaw
Do as much dope as you want. You will either die, or you wont. I didnt die, and now I dont want anymore dope. A lot of my friends died before they got enough.
I work in a state mental hospital now, working with retarded adults and children. Every day these poor miserable creatures teach me to feel priveleged to have all my fingers and toes and most of my brain.
And Im happy.
You will be happy too.

PrincessCharming · Post by **PrincessCharming** » Fri Feb 17, 2006 1:45 pm

I agree with Ravenluv.. I doubt anyone truly happy would be judging and pissing on others. Superiority complexes are usually covering up the feeling of not being good enough. DP- I doubt that heroin is making you happy.. it's probably more about making yourself miserable. I'd ask yourself whether or not it's filling a hole in your life somewhere, or if there's some pain or awareness you're trying to kill that you need to feel and deal with to get through, or if it fits with some crappy self-image you have of yourself.. Are you seeing an addictions counsellor? If you have been moved and affected by those you met in the shelter, don't try and forget it.. that's your aliveness and awareness kicking in and coming back to life. Let it mean something to you. Let yourself understand what got them there.. maybe something similar to what got you there? Maybe you can let this experience change or move you a little, so you don't go back to bitching about not getting a 30 minute shower and/or feeling so dissatisfied with what you have that you are motivated to use again, and then get to make yourself feel like shit again for it. I don't know if you're working man, but I believe it's a human need to be able to contribute something to the world. You definitely contribute a lot here on eplaya.. but maybe you could think about what you can do in your own community to make a difference for people.. you're obviously really intelligent and sensitive. Thanks and good luck..

ravenluv · Post by **ravenluv** » Sun Feb 19, 2006 1:27 am

shortly after i returned from 'the journey' this year i ran into a couple of hardcore partiers i knew of. i'd long felt uneasy around them because they represented a kind of letting go that i couldn't comprehend. upon seeing them in light of where i'd so recently been i understood that they were simply on a different journey. they made no pretensions about who they were, nor did they complain. they new what they'd lost and what they'd gained.

maybe i just saw them on a good day (for them and me) - a live and let live kind of day. maybe they were real jerks at other times, just like me.

destruction that is not creative is often very disappointing. not getting what you want is disappointing. life is full of disappointments. death and the decay of age might be disappointing too.

who knows why some can deal with disappointment and others can't? some guys kill themselves or others if love leaves them. others gather their friends and have a party, perhaps even a bonfire on a beach, in search of a love they know is still there.

i hope you haven't read this far thinking i was trying to make a point. you'll be disappointed if you did.

Health and Decay : The Prognosis

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:36 am

group consciousness has momentum

as a whole, humanity is careening headlong in duality

this duality is expressing through an infinite amount of facets

half the spectrum is creative...half the spectrum is destruction...

rare do you find expressions with a touch of purity...

i'm here to find them...

i have reason to believe i can purify them further...

Sensei · Post by **Sensei** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:48 am

the fire elf wrote:...i have reason to believe i can purify them further...

(With all apologies to Andrew Lloyd Webber)

Jesus, I am overjoyed to meet you face to face.
You've been getting quite a name all around the place.
Healing cripples, raising from the dead.
And now I understand you're God,
At least, that's what you've said.
So, you are the Christ, you're the great Jesus Christ.
Prove to me that you're divine; change my water into wine.
That's all you need do, then I'll know it's all true.
Come on, King of the Jews.
Jesus, you just won't believe the hit you've made around here.
You are all we talk about, the wonder of the year.
Oh what a pity if it's all a lie.
Still, I'm sure that you can rock the cynics if you tried.
So, you are the Christ, you're the great Jesus Christ.
Prove to me that you're no fool; walk across my swimming pool.
If you do that for me, then I'll let you go free.
Come on, King of the Jews.
I only ask what I'd ask any superstar.
What is it that you have got that puts you where you are.
I am waiting, yes I'm a captive fan.
I'm dying to be shown that you are not just any man.
So, if you are the Christ, yes the great Jesus Christ
Feed my household with this bread.
You can do it on your head.
Or has something gone wrong. Jesus, why do you take so long?
Oh come on, King of the Jews.
Hey! Aren't you scared of me Christ?
Mr. Wonderful Christ?
You're a joke. You're not the Lord.
You are nothing but a fraud.
Take him away.
He's got nothing to say!
Get out you King of the,
Get out King of the,
Oh get out you King of the Jews!
Get out of here!
Get out of here you,
Get out of my life.

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:55 am

multiple choice:

~miracles
(drawing crowds slow you down)

~blessings
(they never have to know)

~curses
(careful who you make curse)

DontPanic · Post by **DontPanic** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 8:13 am

wow...this little thread of mine really blew up i wasnt tryin to cause a massive debate...NOR was i looking for sympathy...at least not for me...if your..also this was not a 'poor me' thread as so many of my postings are...if your gonna feel bad for anyone feel bad for those less fortunate than yourselves...i was just tryin to draw some attention to the part of society that any of us rarly get to see on a personnal level...the overrinding message was that no matter how bad your life may seem...someone has got it worse than you...
thanks to those who had supportive words...
and everyone tryin to start shit...kiss my ass...i could care less what your interpretation of my words are...

mojo · Post by **mojo** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 10:17 am

DP! I was getting worried about you. (Yeah, maternal instinct and all that.) How are things? What's up? Are you back in a program? My thoughts and prayers have been with you.

joel the ornery · Post by **joel the ornery** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 10:27 am

life is like a shit sandwich...

the more bread you have, the less shit you eat.

Cabanasprings · Post by **Cabanasprings** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 12:26 pm

Can I get that on Sourdough with Mayo and Pickle Relish.

Oh - and make it to go - Thanks

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