Isolation

FIGJAM · Post by **FIGJAM** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:21 am

Grai, check your PM!

theCryptofishist · Post by **theCryptofishist** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 10:45 am

grai? You have 50 days of food in your flat?

graidawg · Post by **graidawg** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 11:14 am

the amount i eat yea 50 days off food at a push. Booze is another matter.

yea 420 I really cant wait to get over there a just be home. but i guess you already knew that

Trishntek · Post by **Trishntek** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:00 pm

It is easy to do nothing. Having relationships requires effort. Mom still has this embroidered graphic hanging on her kitchen wall that she made over 40 years ago. It says,

"The best way to have a friend is to be one."

We get tied up in contrived drama manufactured by some among our tight little group. But we have all seen each other naked and doing sensual things to each other,,,, so our humanity is fully exposed. We pretty much let each other know exactly what we think and how we feel about anything and everything. It's very therapeutic.

Power exchange is a means of interpersonal activities of robust impact, shocking, carressing, probing, depriving all senses, stimulating all senses, controlling, yielding, demanding, serving. In the process, we learn more about ourselves and grow with the knowledge of how it really feels to hit someone. To be flogged by someone. Did you know that a whip feels like a lit match licking you? To inflict pain is a humbling experience with great responsibility. To trust or be trusted during the act of bondage,,, totally giving your body to someone else,,,, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it,,,, except the safe word of course.

I say all this to point out a few of the many benefits that can come from being a friend. Having friends is a blessing,,,, treasure them,,,, because the only thing that lasts beyond our years is what we invest in others.

Post by **Elderberry** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:27 pm

Unless of course, you can afford to build big buildings and then name them after yourself.

FIGJAM · Post by **FIGJAM** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:28 pm

And your safe word should not be "More"!

Trishntek · Post by **Trishntek** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:34 pm

FIGJAM wrote:And your safe word should not be "More"!

Were just watching The Big C ?

Sail Man · Post by **Sail Man** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:40 pm

So, you can't delete posts?

Sail Man · Post by **Sail Man** » Mon Jul 11, 2011 9:42 pm

theCryptofishist wrote:grai? You have 50 days of food in your flat?

Some of us have much longer

And not talking wankers

Foxfur · Post by **Foxfur** » Tue Jul 12, 2011 1:09 am

Sail Man wrote:So, you can't delete posts?

Now THAT would be handy.
Can't even imagine if I drank what the hell I'd be posting then...
(Shudders)
Whatever. Entertainment never comes cheap any which way.

graidawg · Post by **graidawg** » Tue Jul 12, 2011 2:00 am

Trishntek wrote:It is easy to do nothing. Having relationships requires effort. Mom still has this embroidered graphic hanging on her kitchen wall that she made over 40 years ago. It says,

"The best way to have a friend is to be one."

We get tied up in contrived drama manufactured by some among our tight little group. But we have all seen each other naked and doing sensual things to each other,,,, so our humanity is fully exposed. We pretty much let each other know exactly what we think and how we feel about anything and everything. It's very therapeutic.

Power exchange is a means of interpersonal activities of robust impact, shocking, carressing, probing, depriving all senses, stimulating all senses, controlling, yielding, demanding, serving. In the process, we learn more about ourselves and grow with the knowledge of how it really feels to hit someone. To be flogged by someone. Did you know that a whip feels like a lit match licking you? To inflict pain is a humbling experience with great responsibility. To trust or be trusted during the act of bondage,,, totally giving your body to someone else,,,, and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it,,,, except the safe word of course.

I say all this to point out a few of the many benefits that can come from being a friend. Having friends is a blessing,,,, treasure them,,,, because the only thing that lasts beyond our years is what we invest in others.

The flogging aspect of your relationship is one thing i am just not comfortable with, i nkow this because i have been there I even own a flogger (i made it myself). No matter to me if someone like pain, or being flogged whipped or whatever i dont like doing it. or receivng it. However i do understand what you are saying
Friendship requires effort, something i havent been afraid of in many years, though it does require a return.
I asked afriend a few years ago why she never called me (we had known each other for 30 years) she said why should I? another friend jokes about calling me but hasnt for about 20 years in fact the only way he has contacted is since he joined facebook.
thers another reason why i dont have many friends, if after a reasonable amount of thime they have never called or contacted me i simply stop bothering to contact them. (20 years is a reasonable amount of time isnt it?)

TomServo · Post by **TomServo** » Fri Jul 15, 2011 9:36 pm

Ever start a journey, with the highest of hopes? Only to have everything taken away within 2 hours? I don't blame the police.....except for the first one, who had me at gunpoint.....for not damaging bricks. To bad the asshole in question never learned anything in Vietnam. My cousin died for his brothers. Lay off the pot hippie!

Fucking scumbag

Trishntek · Post by **Trishntek** » Fri Jul 15, 2011 10:42 pm

TomServo · Post by **TomServo** » Sat Jul 16, 2011 3:00 pm

Trishntek wrote:WTF?

I'm near the end of my rope. Still stranded in Alturas, and geting more bitter, each passing day. I came up here to start over, and realized assholes are everywhere....my bad.

Rarely, am I this hate filled......but this time I got screwed by a pothead fuck.....and normally, Id keep it off eplaya. But, like I said, I'm near the end of my rope....Better to bitch about him, than kick his ass...you agree?

graidawg · Post by **graidawg** » Sat Jul 16, 2011 3:22 pm

TomServo wrote:
Trishntek wrote:WTF?
I'm near the end of my rope. Still stranded in Alturas, and geting more bitter, each passing day. I came up here to start over, and realized assholes are everywhere....my bad.

Rarely, am I this hate filled......but this time I got screwed by a pothead fuck.....and normally, Id keep it off eplaya. But, like I said, I'm near the end of my rope....Better to bitch about him, than kick his ass...you agree?

Ts I dont know what can be done to help you here, I don't know the american system. surely there is something can be done to get your stuff back?

TomServo · Post by **TomServo** » Sat Jul 16, 2011 3:35 pm

Nothing can be done right now. I just have to wait till my sentence. Luckily, Ihave family trying to retrieve my stuff. I'm mostly concerned about my rat Eddies ashes. I hate the legal system, but feel I need to sue. If I lose Ed's ashes, its all out war.

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 7:50 pm

I need to apologize if I seem like a downer lately. I'm finding myself in a dpression that's taking the life out of me. I keep asking myself why I was put on this earth. It's a question that tears at me everyday. I'm 55 years old and can't seem to figure out my lot in life. I've sabotaged all my relationships, except my first marriage. I ran from it and never looked back.

I've told many people that life doesn't suck, just the bad things tat can happen suck. I get excited when I think about going to the burn, then I think what's the use in going. I'll just be a downer there. In the past 3 years I've had a lot of emotional turmoil in my life and it's all coming to a head. I'm filing for a divorce this week, and it feels like a death to me. Les and I talked about it and thought it would be best. He has a beautiful new gf and he's happy. and that makes me happy for him. But to me it's just another failure in my life.

I cry way too much lately. And I drag myself out of the house to work, although I love my job. I just feel like I let everyone down all the time. Again I feel useless, hopeless and unloved. I hate thinking that I may be alone for the rest of my life. I don't think about suicide because that's not me. I want to live! But sometimes life is hard and I'm at a loss as to what I can do when this happens to me. I don't have any friends where I live because I've been burned and I don't let people in to easily after that. But the thing is, my arms are always open, waiting to bring people into my life who'll except me for me, people who actually want to be around me and do it because they like me, because they want to be near me and me to them.

I feel isolated here. Self imposed? Could be. When I get depressed like this, I just don't want to be around people. Who in the hell wants to be around someone who's depressed? I don't want pitty, just understanding. I don't mind depressed people. If I can help in anyway, even if it's just listening, I'm there!

Well, apologies all around. Just call me Downer Donna. I'll be out of this, when I find the answers. Pretty soon. My heartfelt love to everyone.

ygmir · Post by **ygmir** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 8:01 pm

(((((((((MA)))))))))))))))))
hang in there, soon, you'll be amongst friends.

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 8:23 pm

ygmir wrote:(((((((((MA)))))))))))))))))
hang in there, soon, you'll be amongst friends.

((((((((((((ygmir))))))))))))))

Thank you. I'm hanging the best I can! And I still am excited about the burn.

Dr. Pyro · Post by **Dr. Pyro** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 8:40 pm

Maryanimal, or Downer Donna, whichever you choose. Hay, you are going to hang with the Barbiebarians, your life just got so much better. Just leave the baggage at home, get your back loufahed from some dusty burner that might somehow fascinate you, and live to fight another day. My God lady, YOU'RE GOING TO BURNING MAN! I mean, if that won't fix what ails you, then dear sweet lass, nothing will.

Keep your chin up, you're amongst friends.

Trishntek · Post by **Trishntek** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 8:45 pm

Troubling times come and go,,,, most of the time, I can make most anyone blush and challenge anybody's sense of morality. But there are other times when,

,,, I'm silent and angry,,,, allowing bitterness to thrive and show people I dearly love my worst disposition. I wonder why that happens and realize it is pure self indulgence.

Walls go up and people who care express concern while I just wanna tell 'em to "FUCK OFF!" Usually around mid spring and mid fall I get into these funky attitudes that just make me want to truly isolate myself from everything and everyone.

It passes and life goes on in spite of my anger. What do I get out of all the hard work? A serious talk with myself about what the hell my mind is doing to my body. When I look across the room at the Love of my life and have witnessed first-hand the attack on her femininity, her vigor and vitality,,,, covering mirrors so she doesn't have to see herself,,,, the misery she has endured for over 18 months, my stupid pettiness pales in comparison.

She smiles and is so happy to see me when I come home from work. She stands and greets me with a hug NO MATTER WHAT. I can tell when she "acts happy" but she strives to overcome,,,, while I don't try to overcome my little pity party. Shame on me,,,,

((((((MA)))))) this will pass,,,, focus toward the goals you've set for yourself. We all just need to stop getting stuck in the mud by following Trish's sage advice,,,,

"GIVE YOUR FUCKING HEAD A SHAKE!"

theCryptofishist · Post by **theCryptofishist** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 9:18 pm

1--Divorcing a spouse is not much less stressful than being widowed.
2--Margaret Mead was divorced 3 times. She considered these marraiges to be successful. I forgot how she defined this, but it wasn't "till death do us part."
3--Depression is a monster. On this board we say "fuck cancer!" a lot. Well, fuck depression! too. It's a monster and it steals you away and leaves an impostor in your place. It eats through what and who you love. Monster, monster, monster.
4--You're entitled to your feelings, even the ones that aren't as attractive and happy. I think that going through dark times is the seasoning that makes people interesting.

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 9:30 pm

I always feel better when I come in here to all the support I receive. I am truely blessed. my cup doth runneth over.

FIGJAM · Post by **FIGJAM** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 9:38 pm

Clean up that MOOP and learn to drink faster!

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 9:52 pm

FIGJAM wrote:Clean up that MOOP and learn to drink faster!

LOLOLOL hehehehehe ok!

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 10:30 pm

Dr. Pyro wrote:Maryanimal, or Downer Donna, whichever you choose. Hay, you are going to hang with the Barbiebarians, your life just got so much better. Just leave the baggage at home, get your back loufahed from some dusty burner that might somehow fascinate you, and live to fight another day. My God lady, YOU'RE GOING TO BURNING MAN! I mean, if that won't fix what ails you, then dear sweet lass, nothing will.

Keep your chin up, you're amongst friends.

Chin is slowly going up Doc! btw, I have a tutu with your name on it!

Minxy · Post by **Minxy** » Mon Jul 18, 2011 11:19 pm

maryanimal wrote: Chin is slowly going up Doc! btw, I have a tutu with your name on it!

+1

Make it lavender.

graidawg · Post by **graidawg** » Tue Jul 19, 2011 1:59 am

MaryAnimal, first ((((hugs))) to be made real when we meet.
I have the same feelings a lot of the time I'm slowly learning though, you have many good things in life don't think about the bad things or how the good things can become bad things. Just appreciate them and remember them. You have real friends here so you may be isolated at home but you aren't alone. there a lot of people here for you as they have been for me, you are part of a select group now, not everybody is an eplayan of note

TomServo · Post by **TomServo** » Tue Jul 19, 2011 7:29 am

MA, I'm soo happy your going to Burning Man! I know how hard you've planned all year, and you will find new friends! Just watch your back. Some seemingly friendly burners, are anything but. Happy Burn!
http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=w5NU6ZfSSlk

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Tue Jul 19, 2011 11:26 am

Minxy wrote:
maryanimal wrote: Chin is slowly going up Doc! btw, I have a tutu with your name on it!
+1

Make it lavender.

Lavender! Done! I think he'll look great in a lavender tutu! Good idea

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