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Post by Monkeypoo » Fri Sep 11, 2009 12:32 pm

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I feel like a fucking Push-Me-Pull-You today. *sigh*
I'm one person. One. I don't have a fucking clone.

Thank God or else this would be a scary fucking world for
my family and friends. Even the thought scares ME!!

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Post by Lukky » Sat Sep 12, 2009 3:57 pm

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Post by AntiM » Tue Sep 15, 2009 7:11 pm

Fuck, my dad has some kind of cancer, but he wasn't big on details... discovered through kidney and bone checks... again, not much fucking info. The SIL will go to the doctor with him on Friday to get the real scoop. I just can't do it. I know dad, he won't hang around if he will be in serious pain or if he can't have his cats.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. I fucking give up. I don't want to care about anyone anymore. They just die. Fuck cancer, fuck death. Fuck.

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Post by Risky » Tue Sep 15, 2009 7:13 pm

oh, AntiM, I'm sorry.

edited to add: FUCK Cancer!

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Post by OnceTheDustClears » Tue Sep 15, 2009 7:15 pm

So sorry AntiM.
I don't really know you but I feel that I sort of do.
My Dad died of cancer a few years back
and my Mom died in June of this year.
We are never ready for this.
FUCK FUCK FUCK!
And love and hugs from afar to you now.

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Post by Simon of the Playa » Tue Sep 15, 2009 7:21 pm

fuck....anti-m, i empathize...

my father is dying from cancer of the esophagus.


it is a major reason i have had to take a good hard look at my life, and how we all intertwine to make a tapestry known as family.


i wish i had fucking known this earlier.


fuck. now i'm going to have to use some of the napkins i just stole from wendy's so my friends don't see me crying.


my friends here on e-playa won't make fun of me when i do that, but most of you live on the west coast, where the stiff upper lip isn't beaten into you.
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Post by littleflower » Tue Sep 15, 2009 7:42 pm

fuck .... fuck ....

hugs ....

fucking cancer.

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Post by AntiM » Tue Sep 15, 2009 7:57 pm

Fucking thanks ...

Roll call: not counting my grandfathers and uncles and cousins who we lost to cancer:

Wayne H. Castle III, brother, colon cancer, 2001
Larry Castle, brother, multiple myeloma, 2008
Teri Johnson, friend, pancreatic cancer, 2009 (while I was at the burn)

Kim Hay, SIL, ovarian cancer, in treatment. Stage four, not good news.

Wayne H. Castle Jr., father, diagnostic stages.

and me, colon carcinoid and breast cancer, 2004. Currently a five year survivor.

And others, you know who you are.

Fuck, I hate fucking cancer.

All good wishes to those of you who are undergoing any sort of illness or hardship or loss of a family member. Hugs, Simon and OTDC.

I lost mom in 2005 to heart disease. Well, at least it wasn't fucking cancer.

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Post by theCryptofishist » Tue Sep 15, 2009 8:19 pm

*a big fucking hug for AntiM*
((((((((((AntiM))))))))))

so fucking wrong. I'm so fucking sorry.
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Post by OnceTheDustClears » Tue Sep 15, 2009 8:34 pm

It fucking sucks.
It just does.
And then we move on.

Sigh.

Fuck.

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Post by ygmir » Tue Sep 15, 2009 9:01 pm

I'm fuckin sorry to hear this, AntiM........fuckin real sorry.......

Simon, don't fuckin worry, cry on.......I'll even hold you if you need.......

I'm sniveling.......fuckin stuff..........

and, in my business, I hear it all the fuckin time, the stories...you never get used to it........
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Post by OnceTheDustClears » Tue Sep 15, 2009 9:07 pm

What is your business ygmir?

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Post by pinemom » Wed Sep 16, 2009 9:19 am

Master head stone carver.


FUCK CANCER!!!!!!!
Names pinemom, but my friends call me "Piney".

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Post by ygmir » Wed Sep 16, 2009 9:20 am

yup, PM has a great memory.......
stonecutter, carver, engraver..........

fuck cancer
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Post by mojo » Wed Sep 16, 2009 10:52 am

Fucking cancer - I guess it must be a function of my age but there are SO many around me that are fighting or just being diagnosed. I feel like I'm that one among many in front of a firing squad that just hasn't been hit yet.

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Post by fciron » Wed Sep 16, 2009 11:15 am

Fuckin-a, Anti-M, you just can't get a rest. Big hug.

Hey Simon, I know your feelings about hugs, so just, um, Hey.
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Post by AKAparttime » Wed Sep 16, 2009 11:22 am

FUCK ! I lost my lam this year.

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Post by ygmir » Wed Sep 16, 2009 1:08 pm

AKAparttime wrote:FUCK ! I lost my lam this year.
ewe did?

fuck.
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Post by Artemis » Wed Sep 16, 2009 2:30 pm

Fuck this cancer shit. Sorry to hear that your dad's facing this, AntiM.

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Post by OnceTheDustClears » Wed Sep 16, 2009 4:21 pm

We need to find a fucking cure.

Really fucking soon.

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Post by pinemom » Thu Sep 17, 2009 9:41 am

Ditto FUCK!
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Post by ibdave » Thu Sep 17, 2009 6:25 pm

FUCK




Just because.... :? :? :?
I was Born OK the 1st Time....

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Post by littleflower » Thu Sep 17, 2009 6:38 pm

you can fucking say that again.

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Post by Monkeypoo » Thu Sep 17, 2009 6:53 pm

Hugs to AntiM.

Fucking fuck fucking cancer.

I got some really bad fucking news today.

Back story: Someone in my very immediate family has diabetes 2, had half his foot taken off 2 years ago, got a yucky infection in it, went into hospital 2 weeks ago. We stressed for a week prior cuz he/we thought they would take the other half of foot. He had surgery and THANK YOU GOD they didn't take his foot. He's still not well 8 days after surgery. He has been having problems with nausea for past 2 months, can't eat, has nausea and other stuff. Today he had a CT scan and they have found a low density mass in his colon.

Nobody in our family knows right now except for me and his mom. We're very worried. We'll know more tomorrow when the doctor comes.

Fuck cancer.


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Post by AntiM » Thu Sep 17, 2009 8:32 pm

Hugs, Monkeypoo. On the brightside, colon cancer is one of the most treatable cancers. Every healing wish for him.


Edited to add "Fuck cancer"

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Post by Monkeypoo » Thu Sep 17, 2009 8:59 pm

Thanks AntiM. I have been sending prayers your way lots too, hon.

Fuck cancer.





Addendum to my most recent post: I have a very strange feeling inside, and it's strong and comforting in a weird way. I am feeling very positive for some reason, so I am taking it as a good sign. Before, when close loved ones got cancer, I was positive for the most part, yet fear consumed me inside. This is different this time. There is no fear. I am feeling great hope and faith that this time it will be different. He will be a survivor. What you said, AntiM? My neighbor just said the same thing to me outside 5 minutes ago. Things are different than what they were 30 years ago and 9 years ago. So, it's time to put on my cheer-leading outfit again and get out my pompoms, and help keep everyone positive and hopeful. Cuz that's what I do best when things like this happen in our family. I sometimes think that's why the Love of The Universe put me on this Earth.

Fuck you, cancer!! You're not going to win this time!!

*Smiles strongly, waves pompoms, jumps in air, does the splits, lands on butt*

Looks like I need to work on my cheer-leader routines a bit. I'm a bit rusty. LOL
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Post by AntiM » Thu Sep 17, 2009 9:43 pm

Good for you! yay yay!

I did get a shred of good news today, I am officially a five fucking year survivor. Of TWO kinds of cancer, no less.

But I'm trying not to give in to guilt about it ...

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Post by goathead » Thu Sep 17, 2009 11:10 pm

Fuck
Haven't visited the Fuck thread for a while.
AntiM went through this many years ago with my family.
It sucks, my heart goes out to you.

Got a phone call this evening from my Mom, her husband had a heart attack today. He is stable and in the hospital in Reno. And here I fucking sit, with my own heart issues. Needless to say she ripped me a bit.

Fuck, I wish I was home.
This sucks.

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Post by Deb Prothero » Thu Sep 17, 2009 11:20 pm

Fucking cancer. Sorry to hear of another diagnosis, Anti M.

I'm wondering if all this cancer and heart disease has something to do with the food we're eating. It's high time we found a cure for cancer but it would be even better if we found the causes. Just what is it causing all this disease around us.

Goathead, it must be fuckin' hard to have to be away at work at times like this. Hope you get a chance to get into Reno 'fore long.
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FUCK

Post by NoelCal » Thu Sep 17, 2009 11:22 pm

It is a very versitile word... Fuck yeah!!!!

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