Fuck!

[Sail Man]

Can I still be OregonRed if I live in California?

Oh. Fuck. Yes.

[Fufa]

My cousin's boyfriend is a fucking idiot.

He threw gasoline on a campfire, and now 80% of his face and neck is covered in second degree burns.

At least his eyes are fine; I think he was wearing sunglasses.

Fuck.

[Sail Man]

Fuck. My Mom just called me, she is in the hospital with her brother. His wife is dying. Soon. All of her organs are shutting down and they are watching the inevitable happen. They are just waiting. She is a wreck. This is too soon after her loss.......

[Ugly Dougly]

Fuck, Saily, why do I even come here? ((((Everybody))))

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

I finally broke up with the cutie I've been hanging with. She's more "torn up" than I am, hope it wakes her up.
My widower emotions are too fragile to deal with anyone but the most loving and loyal partner.

[lucky420]

Ugly Dougly
Fuck, Saily, why do I even come here? ((((Everybody))))

my sentiments to sometimes.
Fufa- how utterly horrible.

(((Sail Man & his family)))

UD, I'm really glad that you realize that you deserve more than she could give. I think your precious and you will find that special person.

[ygmir]

see....I see it differently.
I come here, because I know, I have friends here, and if they're here, they may well need my support....and so, in a warped sense, I like coming here, in that maybe I can fucking help a fucking friend.......or at least let 'em know I care.

fucking love you all.........

[lucky420]

fuck

[Elorrum]

Oh, the Fuck Thread. It's given me so fucking much lately, and anything I can give back, I am happy for the chance. OR the standard fuck ton of fucks is coming in handy and at least in California, we say Oregon correctly, mainly. Dougly, heartbreak is a pain that can't be reasoned with. I'm glad for you that you made a choice. Shaky character shows in acts of deception. Sailman, hugs for your family, and your mother. Squirrelhead, check out the Damnit Bill thread... I like it for my lesser degree stuff, but here is good too. Bathing a bunch of dogs can get pretty fucked in it's way I agree. Fufa, sorry for the burns. Stupid acts, stupid choices, fuck. Roger on the nature of the end, MDF, thanks. Ygmir, fucking thanks for all you do. ((((((Fishy, 420, TK))))) Simon, silly dancing is the truest form of dancing... when we are in joy, and just don't fucking care how it looks.
FUCK! and hugs to all of you.

[maryanimal]

Fuck Fufa...he's a lucky man...

Saily, I'm so fucking sorry...fuck...

[SquirrelHead]

Fuck Fufa, I hope he heals up quick.

Sail Man, my thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

[Fufa]

((((Sailman))))



Fucked up shit happens to so many people, it's nice to have a place to say it. To let off steam, or find comfort, or just say something you need to share.


His hands are burned too, but I don't know how bad. It looks like everything will be okay, we just need to wait and see how bad it will scar. I have my fingers crossed it will be minimal. He is a very good looking man, and just turned 25 a few days before this happened.

[theCryptofishist]

Fcuk! The Ticket wanted sub forum is in desparate need of snark... Or bitchslapping. Or something. Oh your whole being "needs" to go. Your whole being will work harder with a bowl of rice a day...
grrrrrrr.

[Elderberry]

Fuck. Condolences, sympathy and hugs for all.

I think I agree more with Ugly on this thread, then I read Ygmir's post and feel bad for feeling the way I do about it.

Personally, I hate bad news, and don't want to empower it with an acknowledgement (especially publicly). Maybe that's why I rarely, if ever, share it.

[tamarakay]

Fuck. Well, good news, bad news. Investigation is over, and I was cleared. However, since I had the stress breakdown I am on short term disability. I qualify for leave share, which will help keep my salary up to 100% while out on std, BUT, they have to exhaust all available leave first. Which means I won't have any leave left to take for burningman. So, the only way it looks like i will get to go is if I find a new job that won't mind me taking off for a couple weeks right after they hire me, or I just go leave without pay and assure a good firing, or I win the lottery. Ken wants to hang onto the tickets till the last possible moment in case something works out.

So, well, Fuck. Lawyer said if they had actually fired me I'd have a hell of a wrongful termination case. But as it stands right now, it's just a really crappy place to work.

So far no word on any consequences for my boss. She remains my boss.

[lucky420]

fuck (((tk)))

[Box Burner]

Fuck TK, they owe you. Since they are the cause of stress breakdown. Probably not fucking much you can do, but check with your lawyer. Ass for your fucked up boss; document everything that shithead does. Talk to your co-workers about whatever happens in emails, casually ( so as not to make them edgy), and forward copies to yourself to be stored off site. She is likely to be gunning for you so be prepared.

[catinthefunnyhat]

HI TK-

As a n00b here, I don't know what best to say, but I've been sort of following your story, and... well... fuck.

First and foremost, I'm so fucking happy you were cleared; I think that's a major turning-point. Congratulations to you -- and congratulations on being able to keep your head enough to make your case clearly. Being right in the first place was only part of what got you here.

Second, I agree with Ken that you should hold on to your tickets for a while... it's still 4-1/2 months away, and a lot more things could go in your favour between now and then. I kind of feel like your work owes you some extra leave/holiday time, although who knows if they'd ever see it that way. But maybe they will, or maybe there'll be a new job -- one that starts in late September, say, or one that wants you so bad they'll agree to a condition like "I need these two weeks off in August/September" (hey... it happened exactly like that to a friend of mine a couple of years ago...). It would be beyond exasperating to give away the ticket and then get the time off!

I feel like after all you've been through this year, a trip Home is just what the doctor ordered. I know the universe doesn't grant us things just because we need and/or deserve them, but don't be giving up hope yet!

Also, I'm so in love with your How to Dye With Dignity camp plan... it's already on my list of places to visit/volunteer if I get to go (fuck... that list is getting really fucking long. All you ePlayans have so many good ideas...).

Sigh... this is turning into of one of CatintheFuckingHat's random, long-winded ramble-rants (TM), but I just wanted to say congrats on the first victory and to encourage you to keep fighting the good fucking fight. I'll be drinking a celebratory Gin and Soda in your honour tonight.

[OregonRed]

TK, I am happy you came through your ordeal and were exonerated of any wrong doing. Whatever direction the Universe is pushing you in will become clear. Keep fucking documenting and stay aware.

And for deity's sake, hang on to your fucking tickets for a bit longer! The Universe is a funny thing...

[Elorrum]

I agree with Ken. Hang on to the tickets. First things first. Take care of yourself. I mean fucking take care of yourself.

[Lassen Forge]

I'll (fucking) third that... usually when you go out on STD or Comp, once you return they reinstate your leave balances. Has to do with workers comp law. If you worked for us I'd donate you the credits (right b4 you go back 2 work) so you could get the week off... Of course, if I worked where you did and had your boss, I'd probably qualify for an all-expense paid vacation at the GrayBar inn...

[OregonRed]

Missing my boy today. LA is way fucking better than this shit.

I need a fucking hug.

[catinthefunnyhat]

((OR)) It sucks being lonely for someone.

[Lassen Forge]

Aw <<<{{{((( Red )))}}}>>>

I know one is supposed to say some happy sappy thing like "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", but fuck that shit... Absence SUCKS when you're in love!

[ygmir]

(((((((((OR)))))))))))))))))

[theCryptofishist]

Fuck, TK.

[trilobyte]

Fucking sorry to hear it, Red. Been through periods of long fucking distance lamentation before, I don't recommend it. You need to get on down to LA as soon as you can Despite LA's stereotypes, it's a great place… and they do have one hell of a burner community to connect with.

And hooray/damn, TK… fucking great news to be cleared of wrongdoing, but fucking shitty news about the leave and std. If you can, hang onto those tickets while you move forward and hopefully something will be able to work out. Thinking positive thoughts in hopes it all works out.

[OregonRed]

Thank you all. This is way more fucking difficult than I remember it being. I look at his spot in the bed and, despite the fact that the cats are trying desperately to take it over, it just looks empty. And I can't bring myself to sleep in "his" spot.

I know that I am lucky to have even found this kind of love in my life, and I feel fucking bad complaining about any aspect of it, but this hurts. A lot.

[unjonharley]

Fuck,

Been in the wilderness for a few.. Come back and this thread is all fucked up..
No BM ticket in sight for this year.. Putting my money where my mouth is.. 8,000 dollar dental work.. That's gonna fucking hurt..

Sorry to hear about you (((guys)) bum fucks..

[maryanimal]

(((((OR))))) Take one of his shirts and put it over a pillow and sleep with it at night. It may help you feel closer to him. How lucky you are to have such a love for/from someone. Get to LA asap girly!

oh yeah...fuck.

[Sail Man]

Fuck. Thank you all for your kind words. My Aunt passed away approx 1 hr after they pulled the plug on the vent last Wed. night. She was my Mom's brothers wife. Mom said her goodbye, and left after they pulled the plug. She is still dealing with her own loss not 3 months ago with her husband and house and was not able to handle watching her SIL die. I do not blame her one bit I went back up north to be with family.

Fuck. I really do not need another reason for a temple burn this year.