Fuck!

[bullD]

bull - i keep meaning to ask you....are you one of the three in yer avatar?

(fuck)

yepper, my brother on the left, my buddy from Utah in the middle (only one wife), and yours truly on the right.

from the "Be Yourself Day" thread:

a couple of photos (hopefully the link works) of last years burn, an 02' burn photo and some photos of a project I completed recently.

http://photos.yahoo.com/d2waters

Sleep...

[Rian Jackson]

Will you psychologically paddle me too Rian? Please.

no, darling. virtually. i'm not feeling that cruel today.

[Rian Jackson]

bull - i keep meaning to ask you....are you one of the three in yer avatar?

(fuck)

yepper, my brother on the left, my buddy from Utah in the middle (only one wife), and yours truly on the right.

from the "Be Yourself Day" thread:

a couple of photos (hopefully the link works) of last years burn, an 02' burn photo and some photos of a project I completed recently.

http://photos.yahoo.com/d2waters

Sleep...

thanks! i was wondering, too.

[Rob the Wop]

fuck! the fact that I am always everyone's happygolucky spunky little worker, the one who's never in a bad mood.

it means that, when I actually AM down, customers either insist on asking "what's wrong... no, you can talk about it, no really, tell me about it... no honestly, i want you to talk about it" or avoid me like the fuck!ing plague. Like i'm no good--of no use--to anyone unless I'm this bubbly girlie who's always smiling and happy and fuck!ing energetic.

FucK! sometime's there just ain't no cheering to be done, you fuck!ing consumer fuck!s. Just leave my fuck!ing store, wander on down to fucking nordstrom's, and buy yourself a little something nice, for making such a fuck!ing effort to fix me.

I'm sorry, I didn't hear a word you said, I was staring...

Well, you know the rest.

[bullD]

maybe i'm way fuck!ing off here, but it reminds me of what a lot of us go through - people love us until they realise we're human and that we get depressed, too. then we're no fun.... it's as if the charming factor becomes a curse as soon as you don't feel quite so enigmatic.

I also may be way off here but, isn't this also a curse that plauges relationships?

just a fucking thought...

[bullD]

fuck! the fact that I am always everyone's happygolucky spunky little worker, the one who's never in a bad mood.

it means that, when I actually AM down, customers either insist on asking "what's wrong... no, you can talk about it, no really, tell me about it... no honestly, i want you to talk about it" or avoid me like the fuck!ing plague. Like i'm no good--of no use--to anyone unless I'm this bubbly girlie who's always smiling and happy and fuck!ing energetic.

FucK! sometime's there just ain't no cheering to be done, you fuck!ing consumer fuck!s. Just leave my fuck!ing store, wander on down to fucking nordstrom's, and buy yourself a little something nice, for making such a fuck!ing effort to fix me.

I'm sorry, I didn't hear a word you said, I was staring...

Well, you know the rest.

[Rian Jackson]

you have a point, bullD. i guess we always included that in it, too.

it was mostly discussed in our house... i lived with a lot of talented, passionate, beautiful women. oh, and the boys, too. who are also all of the above, except maybe not so passionate. but then i wasn't an SO for them, so i couldn't tell you.

never mind, i'm getting way off topic here.

[tisha2]

i was having the same fucking thought....

nice pix. glad to hear yer not the one groping himself. althought i'm sure yer bro is a sweet, sensitive guy...

[bullD]

i was having the same fucking thought....

nice pix. glad to hear yer not the one groping himself. althought i'm sure yer bro is a sweet, sensitive guy...

[bullD]

you have a point, bullD. i guess we always included that in it, too.

it was mostly discussed in our house... i lived with a lot of talented, passionate, beautiful women. oh, and the boys, too. who are also all of the above, except maybe not so passionate. but then i wasn't an SO for them, so i couldn't tell you.

never mind, i'm getting way off topic here.

hmmmmm

[DVD Burner]

where is the Fuck in all of this?

And what up wit all the smilies?

How come you get away wit all the smilies.

SHIT!

I mean FUCK!.

[bullD]

because my smilies are genuine and not some feeble attempt at being a smart ass.



Sheesh, did I really just say that. What is this fucking world coming tooooooooo........

[bullD]

[GuinivereElise]

Rian: that's exactly fuck!ing it. It feels like I'm of no use to people if I'm not the one who's supplying the energy and wit and happiness and did I mention energy?

[stuart]

people love us until they realise we're human and that we get depressed, too. then we're no fun....

it is when I realize that the charming ones are human that I begin to love them. Otherwise they are just clowns. The opposite is also true. I find professional drama queens to be dreadfully boring. It's the same condition really. Folks who think all the world is their stage. Tiresome.

If you have a healthy balance and people can't rock with it then you need to rock with better folk.

[Rian Jackson]

i think that's where you have to be choosy about what and who you pour energy into. it's always hard to tell at first. but those that only want your energy are vampires. it's not to say that people can't be drawn to you for that reason and then find there's more that they love, but the ones who aren't interested in dealing with the full scope of your persona aren't worth your time.

just remember that there are many people out there who love you even when you aren't fun, and for whom 'fun' isn't the main/only draw.

and for those who just want to feed off of you - fuck em.

[stuart]

It feels like I'm of no use to people if I'm not the one who's ...

Rian will totally kick me in the ass for this but...

is it truly like that all the time or is that how you feel? Are your social interactions not satisfying if you are not driving the fun bus?

[bullD]

just remember that there are many people out there who love you even when you aren't fun, and for whom 'fun' isn't the main/only draw.

and for those who just want to feed off of you - fuck em.

WORD!!!

[Rian Jackson]

It feels like I'm of no use to people if I'm not the one who's ...

Rian will totally kick me in the ass for this but...

is it truly like that all the time or is that how you feel? Are your social interactions not satisfying if you are not driving the fun bus?

i'm not gonna ass kick ya. your hard questions aren't always right, but normally worthwhile and thought-provoking.

plus, guinie can kick your own if she's insulted.

[Lydia Love]

if it's of any interest I still loathe the little fucking things and have to resist the urge to mentally recalculate a person's I.Q. to be 10 points lower every time they use one.

i mean, obviously... some of y'all would be drooling over a macaroni collage in one of this nation's finer institutions instead of at a keyboard... (and that's just one day of posting) so I can no longer attribute their use to lack of actual intelligence.

so i grit my teeth and repeat the mantra "some of my best friends use smilies. some of my best friends use smilies."

[GuinivereElise]

no, Stuart... some of my most worthwhile social interactions are the ones that are hard and painful and depressing... because it's at these times that it's a give-and-take. Right now, for instance: the shit i'm dealing with is good, in a way. It's deep and meaningful and hurtful and human and leading forward, always forward. it's teaching me new things about myself and helping me learn about others. it SUCKS, but it's good, too.



It's the vampires that I hate.


(and, if I'm gonna kick your ass, it's gonna be over something alot more inflammatory than that... say, a cheuvanistic generalization or something)

[samtzu]

Yeah, fuck vampires of every stripe... Corporate, emotional, psychic, interactional, online, governmental, artistic... blah, blah, blah.... I rank them right down there with bullies... mutha fuka's....

[bullD]

fuck, so does this mean I can't invite you ladies to "Spikes Vampire Bar" for a drink

[Rian Jackson]

fuck, so does this mean I can't invite you ladies to "Spikes Vampire Bar" for a drink

fine, so long as i can suck on someone's neck, too.

[bullD]

fuck, so does this mean I can't invite you ladies to "Spikes Vampire Bar" for a drink

fine, so long as i can suck on someone's neck, too.

I thinks that is the idea,,, yeahhhhh!!!

[bullD]

My new mantra borrowed from Lydia Love:


"some of my best friends use smilies. some of my best friends use smilies"

thanks, sweetheart.

[Rian Jackson]

fuck, so does this mean I can't invite you ladies to "Spikes Vampire Bar" for a drink

fine, so long as i can suck on someone's neck, too.

I thinks that is the idea,,, yeahhhhh!!!

are you volunteering? must i wear the witchy dominatrix gear?

[bullD]

fine, so long as i can suck on someone's neck, too.

I thinks that is the idea,,, yeahhhhh!!!

are you volunteering? must i wear the witchy dominatrix gear?

yes! finally, the therapy I'm needing...

[theCryptofishist]

I odn't use smilies on this board because they are so declasse and i can be as snooty as anyone. But I do sort of like them in their original form--an attempt to humanize an unwieldy and techinical process to make it more expressive in emotional terms. Besides, I have that dry deadpan way of joking, and a following emoticon can make a difference between get a laugh and getting someone's back up.

[Kristines]

I odn't use smilies on this board because they are so declasse and i can be as snooty as anyone.

Oh, Fishy:


It's fun to be declasse. Anyone have a Bud?

Kristine