Fuck!

[Patsh]

Fuck
Oregon country fair and The Soak ( portland regional burn ) and the Hells Canyon MC rally is all being held on the same weekend this year. Must chose one.

Looks like you'll need a coupl'a clones, tatonka!

[sadie]

fuckfuckfuck!!! I went outside with the dog about an hour ago and was overwhelmed with the smell of natural gas! I went next door, they smelled it too...then the guy across the street came out to see if he was the only one that smelled gas!! All of us made the call to get the crews out here faster.. There are about six power company trucks outside, and a backhoe on the way. Looks like they pinpointed the leak in my next door neighbor's front yard. Scary stuff...

[tatonka]

Fuck
Oregon country fair and The Soak ( portland regional burn ) and the Hells Canyon MC rally is all being held on the same weekend this year. Must chose one.

Looks like you'll need a coupl'a clones, tatonka!

I had a twin brother , but he died when we were born I always thought we could have had a lot of fun if things turned out different

[^Rhino!]

Fuck, haven't heard from Sadie today. Hope that gas leak was fixed. Shout out, if you would if you're safe!

[sadie]

Fuck, haven't heard from Sadie today. Hope that gas leak was fixed. Shout out, if you would if you're safe!

Oh, fuck!! Hi Rhino!! I'm here..I'm safe. Thankfully nothing blew up last night. The gas company pinpointed the leak in my next door neighbor's front yard and have made the repairs. I slept lighter than usual though...

Thanks for asking!

[^Rhino!]

Sweet! You're OK.

Carry on!

[lucky420]

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my dog is such a fuckin bad ass she broke my bedroom window protecting me from the evil mass murdering mailman...fuck

and here she is in her ninja turtle suit

[VultureChow]

Fuck.

Lillian, one of our accountants and the one I worked with the most had a heart attack and passed away suddenly on Saturday. I walked in this morning to the accounting department all sitting around looking upset. At least I didn't say jokingly "Who died?"

Her daughter lived with her and is only 25. Father's not in the picture.

We have life insurance for all employees, so she has immediate financial assistance there, but I couldn't imagine being left all alone at that age.

[ygmir]

fuckin sorry VC.

[^Rhino!]

fuckin sorry VC.

I'm very sorry, too, VC. Give the girl hope, that's all she's got right now as she sorts things out.

[VultureChow]

Thanks guys. It's weird, but oddly illuminating to see how people are reacting. The young cocky jackass started to cry. CFO is getting cynical. I'm terrified of the funeral. We don't do open caskets in the Jewish tradition, so I've never seen the body of someone I know well.

[AntiM]

Hugs, VC. I never go look in the coffin. Nope. They had my mother's open casket under an air vent in the ceiling, the hankie in her hand would flutter. Looked like she was moving. I arranged dad's funeral, no viewing. Fuck no.

Just hang back, explain you are too overcome if anyone makes a remark.

[geospyder]

(((((VC)))))

[theCryptofishist]

There was that thing that was going around a while ago about supporting friends through any sort of crises; calling, leaving messages, not asking for call backs; bringing food; doing things with... I forget the rest, but it was pretty okay.
6 months of numb is to be expected. I know she's not your friend and you're not close, but I think a modified set of rules, for the more distant connection.

That six months of numb may mean that you don't get "proper thanks" for what you do, but you're not doing it for the thanks.

Or fucking don't. I don't run your fucking life. I trust your judgement.

[tatonka]

Thanks guys. It's weird, but oddly illuminating to see how people are reacting. The young cocky jackass started to cry. CFO is getting cynical. I'm terrified of the funeral. We don't do open caskets in the Jewish tradition, so I've never seen the body of someone I know well.

when I was 6 and my sis 5 , we went to our great grandfathers funeral and the german tradition was to kiss him goodbye. I kissed him on the forehead and thought he was salty. My sis freaked out if I remember right.

[^Rhino!]

I've been to a few open casket viewings at the funeral home. To me, it's really hard. I'm not going to put anyone through that.

I'll be cremated, and if anyone wants to see the ashes, fine. But I'll be long gone. Don't mourn my passing when it happens. Celebrate your own lives and what you're doing to make things better for other people. And keep doing them.

Make a difference. Generate hope and love. And be the best you can be. I'll be dead, so I won't care if you forget me.

Fuck. I sound like some sort of silly asshat holier than thou douchebag.

Just keep burning, OK?

[Joeln]

My fucking boss asked me to work overtime this week.
He asked really nice.
Since he is the best fucking boss I've ever had it's really hard to say no.
So that's what I'm doing awake at fucking 5AM.

((VC)) be kind to yourself too. You are in my thoughts.

[essohseekay]

Some days you have realizations that you just don't want to fucking have.

My partner & I have been together for many years and, I have recently come to the realization that I am not fucking in love with him anymore. What's worse, I don't think I want to be in the relationship if I can't love him like he fucking deserves. Unfortunately, it's not as easy as just leaving. I am currently unemployed and we recently moved a great distance from my family, so I have no resources to get out. No friends near-by to turn to. When I contacted my family for help, I was told that they would not help me, as I'm not in any physical danger and they really like him and think I should be able to work this out.

I thought I could just fucking stay in the relationship. Just because I'm not in love with him, doesn't mean that I don't fucking love him at all. So, I could enjoy being with him because he is my friend. But all I can think is that I'm just making it all fucking worse by not telling him the truth so he can get me out of his fucking life and find somebody who deserves somebody as fucking amazing as he is. I just don't want to be the asshole anymore. I want him to have somebody who is happy to listen to him and wants the same things he wants. And I'm realizing more and more, that person isn't me. I hate myself, and every day that I fucking stay and pretend that things are okay, I hate myself a little bit fucking more.

[ygmir]

fuckin tough one..........

[^Rhino!]

fuckin tough one..........

Not that hard if you check the date joined and the moniker. "essohseekay" ess= S oh=O see=C kay=K

Either it's for real or we're getting the wool pulled over our collective vision. But only for a moment. You can't tell, so you put yourself in their shoes. If it's for real, they don't want their significant other to find out. If it's not, it's just another sock puppet. Since I'm not wise enough to make that call, I'll leave it to the mods.

[ygmir]

fuckin tough one..........

Not that hard if you check the date joined and the moniker. "essohseekay" ess= S oh=O see=C kay=K

Either it's for real or we're getting the wool pulled over our collective vision. But only for a moment. You can't tell, so you put yourself in their shoes. If it's for real, they don't want their significant other to find out. If it's not, it's just another sock puppet. Since I'm not wise enough to make that call, I'll leave it to the mods.

good catch!
yeah, one of my many fucking flaws, is if I think someone is hurting or in pain, I take them at face value and feel bad....I should be more aware.

[lucky420]

April motherfuckin fools!

And no this is not me....

[Joeln]

Fuck yeah! It was well written, my heart strings were being played like a fiddle.
But somehow I thought I'd leave this one to others...

[Canoe]

... I've never seen the body of someone I know well.

One thing I found to keep in mind: it's not them, just their body. Remember them.

[ygmir]

just fucking found out I lost a friend to ALS. took 6 fuckin years.......at least the end was peaceful..
fuck...

[msj2u]

just fucking found out I lost a friend to ALS. took 6 fuckin years.......at least the end was peaceful..
fuck...

F**** it ygmir, I'm so sorry!!

Huggs
MSJ

[essohseekay]

fuckin tough one..........

Not that hard if you check the date joined and the moniker. "essohseekay" ess= S oh=O see=C kay=K

Either it's for real or we're getting the wool pulled over our collective vision. But only for a moment. You can't tell, so you put yourself in their shoes. If it's for real, they don't want their significant other to find out. If it's not, it's just another sock puppet. Since I'm not wise enough to make that call, I'll leave it to the mods.

I'm real and, you are correct, I don't want my significant other to find out. At least not until I know what to say and how the fuck to say it.

[essohseekay]

I feel it's important for me to add that I was not thinking about the fucking date yesterday. I was thinking that I am in crisis and I don't know what to fucking do or where to turn. I was thinking that maybe some of you could offer me perspective that I feel like I'm fucking missing.

[BeeWeeDee]

I'm getting very fucking tired of this winter shit still happening in April.

[ygmir]

I feel it's important for me to add that I was not thinking about the fucking date yesterday. I was thinking that I am in crisis and I don't know what to fucking do or where to turn. I was thinking that maybe some of you could offer me perspective that I feel like I'm fucking missing.

well, then fuckin yay you reached out! but, be fucking careful if you are looking for advice here. Mostly, this is a spot to just let someone know you care, and to reach out for some support.
Seems to me, Elliot had a fucking "ask Elliot" thread, for advice, maybe Eric ?, too?


ON that fucking note, got a call this morning, yet another old friend died, though not unexpected, he was quite old.
but, a damn good guy, a tough old Marine, who landed on Iwo Jima, and was part of the battle for mt. Surubachi.
Never, ever gave up, or backed down.