Fuck!

[Savannah]

FUCK!
My dad passed away today. I have no fucking idea what I'm going to do.

I'm so sorry about your Dad.

[ygmir]

who was it that said "FUCK CANCER"?..........well, I say it now.
My dear pal, sweet Clyde, has cancer of the spleen and others stuff, they don't give him days or weeks at best.........I spent all last night petting him, knowing something was wrong since he could not move. When I took him to the vet this morning, he perked up and they thought maybe he got poisoned......but did an xray and called to report large and numerous tumors.........
but, he's feeling pretty good at the moment, which makes it double tough, in that that want to euthanize him tomorrow, and yet if he seems happy, I don't know I can do that. He's here, laying at me feet, and I'm rubbing his back with my foot,.....and he looks up at me.........and I cry........and cry..........WTF, really?
I can't'just say "ok, doc, give him the juice, not if he seems alert and ok.......and yet they say inevitably he will again be in pain and paralyzed like last night.........and I have to leave for TTITD Saturday, I was able to delay tomorrows departure..........and no one really to take care of him.......fuck me......damn.......Clyde is about the sweetest dog ever.

and yet, caffiene slinger has lost a father, and how can my paltry misery compare.........I'm so sorry for your loss............fuck........I dunno, just rather curl up in a ball.

*heads for bar*

[Bin Noddin]

Hugs, Yggy and caffeineslinger.

[Dr. Pyro]

((Clyde)) Great dog. Joelle to this day is chagrined that she swung into him by accident. Yggy, my thoughts are with you. Great dog indeed.

[sadie]

Oh Yggy...(((Yggy))) (((Clyde))) So sorry.

And (((Caffeineslinger))) I'm so sorry for you loss.

[theCryptofishist]

It's a very tough decision, Yggy, having to decide when to kill someone you love, because otherwise he will suffer. And at least I know with my parents, as they have spoken their desires to us kids, and we have it in documents and everything. With a dog, you have only your love as a guide. Not to minimize Caffineslinger's pain, but it's not a competition. You both get to feel as bad as you feel.

Caffineslinger, I'm so fucking sorry. Go easy with yourself. Expect to be missing a big chunk of brain for six months or so. You'll be okay, just noodle along the best you can.

[unjonharley]

Word are not easy when a pet-person has to go.. (( ))

[msj2u]

Yiggy,

Your story has touched me a lot tonight....May Clyde find peace...

And may you find somewhere somehow the strength to do what it is you need.

I have tears in my eyes tonight, and look forward to finally meeting and hugging you as much as you need/want.

Until paths meet, (((((( yiggy))))))

MSJ

[Savannah]

((((((((((((Ygmir)))))))))))))

[FIGJAM]

I fear to speak, that I might find the wrong words, but I KNOW you will do what's best.

[MyDearFriend]

(((Ygmir))) fuck, so sorry, Clyde is such a good dog and a wonderful companion.

A really hard decision for you.

*remembers rubbing a sock-foot over Clyde's fur*

*remembers those big eyes beside me at the table*

*puts plate on the floor*

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

[Martiansky]

(((((((Ygmir&Clyde))))))))))))

[AntiM]

Fuck, hugs.

[pink]

Hugs & more fucking hugs. I'm so sorry for you both.

[Elorrum]

Fuck. Oh, poor Clyde. A real champ. I hope for you strength, wisdom, and grace. I don't know what I'd do. Fuck.

Caffeineslinger, fuck, so sorry for your loss.

[mgb327]

I fear to speak, that I might find the wrong words, but I KNOW you will do what's best.

Exactly. Brings my own pain back. See you in a week, with a hug. fuck.

[ygmir]

thanks all..........gonna be a tough fucking day, that's for sure.
Sittin here petting him, looking at those trusting eyes.......he seems like he feels good, but, the vet said it won't last, and be bad when it gets there......so it seems kindness would be to "sleep" while it's a good day.........but looking into those trusting, loving eyes and knowing what I'm going to do is killin' me..........

[Thecatman]

((((caffeineslinger)))) Words can't say enough

((((ygmir))))Can't say I know how you feel but I know what you're going through

[^Rhino!]

Hugs, yggy......we're here for you.


Hugs caffieneslinger.

[unjonharley]

Ygmir, lets go over to the E bar and slam down a few..

Our old (15) house cat has cancer but is hanging in.. Good for now.. Lily the yard dog wont be with us when I return from BM.. She stopped eating yesterday and sleeping 23 hours a day.. Very weak.. Both are my good friends..

[Dr. Pyro]

Our old (15) house has cancer but is hanging in.

How does a house get cancer?

[unjonharley]

Our old (15) house has cancer but is hanging in.

How does a house get cancer?

What the hell have you been sniffing

[jella]

Yggy I know the day well ..I'm so sorry
Unjon Love em while ya have em and cherish the time

so many fucks

[Jovankat]

((((caffeineslinger))))

((((ygmir))))

((((unjonharley))))

[Thecatman]

((((uj))))

This past May we had to play God with our white cat Casper. He had cancer on his spine.
He was lying on the table at the vet. His head was resting in my left hand and I was petting him near his left shoulder with my right hand when the vet started administering the cocktail.
He picked his head up and gave me sugar five times on my right hand and put his head back in my left hand and that was it. I still get emotional when I tell this....four months later.

[unjonharley]

Well fuck, Kids at the vet with the older cat.. She text: the vet said the kitty has to go to sleep..fuck.. And the dog look real bad today.. She will be next..fuck again.

[unjonharley]

Fuck, The dog is so thin she looks like Wile e coyote

[Ratty]

Cafeineslinger, Sorry, Fuck, sorry. I think I know what you're going through. Been there many times. Cry as much as you want, pull up your socks, chin up and march on back to life. Hugs and nice thoughts for you.

((Unjohn))

((Ygmir))

[tattoogoddess]

Two major fucks today
Had to go to the ER tonight. Had a super weird "headache" today at work. Kinda felt like someone had blown up a ballon really quick under my skull then deflated it. Lasted all of 5 seconds. This happened 3 times in an hour at work then once after. It was just in one place on my head right by my crown and to the left. After work I got these felt like light night strikes in the same spot that lasted the same time but hurt something horrible. So went to the er and had some
More. They said they think it is vascular spasams. But they are a little worried it may be the start of an anurism. They said if I lose feeling in my hands,
My eye sight changes or my head feels like it is going to burst to come right in.
I this continues they want to do a cat scan. I'm super tired right now and want to go to sleep but have to stay awake for another hour till johns gets home to keep and eye on me to make sure nothing dose happen.

While at the hospital my mom blew up on me for givingy sister some advice about her wanting to move to Portland. She was very unkind and out relationship is most likely done after some of the stuff she said to me. Pretty much said all the choices I have made in my life have been bad an because of that I have no right to give her daughter advice. Ya. So looks like I won't be talking to her or a very long time being as in so many words I'm a pos daughter.

[Bless]

Fucking socks.

I hope you feel better, TG.