So, this will be my first year out at BRC. My boyfriend went last year and came home and kept telling me how I need to go and how much I would love it. After hearing some of his stories and pictures (not to mention watching the live feed from home) I can't lie I got totally excited and agreed to go with him this year.
We spent the year prepping and talking about what needs to be done to the point we even decided to get Married this year out there. We have two children and have been together for over 12 years and seeing as to how I decided I want this to be a new me experience I thought it's perfect.
How am I feeling now??? Scared. I am obviously super excited to go and have been letting my mind race with both ideas and check lists. My fingers have been plucked my the mighty sewing needle so many times I believe I am secretly a pin cushion ... But there is one thing that keeps sneaking into my mind...
My weight. I want so badly to have fun and to let go of what society deems me as but I think I struggle deep down with my own fears of appearance with my weight. I am 280 pound chica. I love me, and I want to be a healthier me, but even through my many layers of flab I do think I'm fab... Most days.
Sadly I am a victim to that horrid little devil... You know the one that sneaks into our heads and makes us second guess ourselves and worry about what others think.... Yeah he's such a dick.
See this year I want to go and make a vow to live more and worry less. I have had a hard past and its time I put it all behind me. When I give myself this pep talk I worry less but then I hush and the brain ticks. So here I am a girl who is ready to go home for the first time ever. Waiting to wash her old away in some dust, and start new letting the hard times burn away.
I am hoping as the days go on I think or worry less about how I look, what someone else thinks, and just be there 110% in the moment. Living.
Here's to a New Day.
~ Cahndi ~
Ohio Virgin
Ohio Virgin
The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance.
- ARISTOTLE,c. 350 BC
- ARISTOTLE,c. 350 BC
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ChanceFlashLightning
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- Location: Portland, OR
Re: Ohio Virgin
Hi Cahndi! Welcome to eplaya!
Sounds like you are doing some great prep! (Obligatory reminder: Read the Survival Guide! Already read it? Great! Read it again!)
Where in OH are you? I lived in Cincinnati last year, but moved back to the West Coast in June, and will be returning to the playa this year after a several year absence. Probably coming to Cincy for a wedding in October.
One great way to get involved in the community is to check out your regionals. I went to Mosaic last year and had a great time. Another is to volunteer on playa. I usually tell virgins not to overwhelm themselves with volunteering (but try to do a shift or two). Many camps etc continually look for volunteers (Center Camp Coffee, Arctica, Lamplighters) or you can stop by Playa Info. Either there or close by you can find a board with volunteer opportunities. I see that you have experience with ASL. That's great! I sign some too! Not sure if there are any ASL focused camps out there this year, but if you are comfortable doing it, offering your skills in interpretation would be awesome!
Remember that not all Burners are the people whose pictures you see on the internet. For those of us with body issues, being in an environment where so many folks are less than clothed, among other things, can be tough. But there are plenty of people out there who will be appreciative of you for you, no matter what you look like or what you're wearing. And if someone says anything different, just tell them "fuck your burn" and move on! Your body is yours!
Oh, and if you haven't in the last 5 minutes, drink water! Start now! "If you think, drink!" (Anytime you even halfway conceptualize water, take a drink!)
Sounds like you are doing some great prep! (Obligatory reminder: Read the Survival Guide! Already read it? Great! Read it again!)
Where in OH are you? I lived in Cincinnati last year, but moved back to the West Coast in June, and will be returning to the playa this year after a several year absence. Probably coming to Cincy for a wedding in October.
One great way to get involved in the community is to check out your regionals. I went to Mosaic last year and had a great time. Another is to volunteer on playa. I usually tell virgins not to overwhelm themselves with volunteering (but try to do a shift or two). Many camps etc continually look for volunteers (Center Camp Coffee, Arctica, Lamplighters) or you can stop by Playa Info. Either there or close by you can find a board with volunteer opportunities. I see that you have experience with ASL. That's great! I sign some too! Not sure if there are any ASL focused camps out there this year, but if you are comfortable doing it, offering your skills in interpretation would be awesome!
Remember that not all Burners are the people whose pictures you see on the internet. For those of us with body issues, being in an environment where so many folks are less than clothed, among other things, can be tough. But there are plenty of people out there who will be appreciative of you for you, no matter what you look like or what you're wearing. And if someone says anything different, just tell them "fuck your burn" and move on! Your body is yours!
Oh, and if you haven't in the last 5 minutes, drink water! Start now! "If you think, drink!" (Anytime you even halfway conceptualize water, take a drink!)
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt--marvelous error!--
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures
-- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
I dreamt--marvelous error!--
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures
-- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
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ChanceFlashLightning
- Posts: 25
- Joined: Mon Feb 25, 2008 2:47 pm
- Location: Portland, OR
Re: Ohio Virgin
Oh, and if you are near Cleveland, looks like there is a Meet and Greet tomorrow...
Sat August 12th, 3 to 8pm EDT
Cleveland sign at Edgewater Park
Upper Edgewater Drive
Cleveland, Ohio 44102
Sat August 12th, 3 to 8pm EDT
Cleveland sign at Edgewater Park
Upper Edgewater Drive
Cleveland, Ohio 44102
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt--marvelous error!--
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures
-- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
I dreamt--marvelous error!--
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures
-- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
Re: Ohio Virgin
Haha, thankfully thats about all i drink with the exception of some coffee and tea.... ooh and some wine... or cocktail oooooo beer... ok maybe not all i drink but i did like that saying, Think Drink.
I am actually from Cincinnati myself. I'm also staying in Stag camp and will be volenteering for a beer swap on Tuesday. Though... i have put some thought into lamp lighting.
It's getting to be crunch time and I'm still sewing & bleaching things lol. Before we head out to BRC I'll be volenteering at a folk festival in Indiana and it's 10 th anniversary so busy busy bee. I am getting the nervous jitters though lol.
As for regionals I've liked into some but sadly times didn't work for me this year ( insert sad panda face here)
Thank you so much for your awesome kind words.
I am actually from Cincinnati myself. I'm also staying in Stag camp and will be volenteering for a beer swap on Tuesday. Though... i have put some thought into lamp lighting.
It's getting to be crunch time and I'm still sewing & bleaching things lol. Before we head out to BRC I'll be volenteering at a folk festival in Indiana and it's 10 th anniversary so busy busy bee. I am getting the nervous jitters though lol.
As for regionals I've liked into some but sadly times didn't work for me this year ( insert sad panda face here)
Thank you so much for your awesome kind words.
The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance.
- ARISTOTLE,c. 350 BC
- ARISTOTLE,c. 350 BC
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AntiM
- Moderator
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- Location: Wild, Wild West
Re: Ohio Virgin
Welcome Aboard!
The playa is a terrific place to just relax and be you. Very freeing to just get naked and have no one care. I don't go out in the sun and dust while bare, but it is nice to know I can if I want to!
The playa is a terrific place to just relax and be you. Very freeing to just get naked and have no one care. I don't go out in the sun and dust while bare, but it is nice to know I can if I want to!
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Popeye
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- Camp Name: Camp Beaverton
- Location: Where the east wind blows
Re: Ohio Virgin
You can walk down the street naked (if you want to) and the most anyone will think is "Good for her, she got past all the shit she learned from TV and magazines." You'll be just another Burner.
Look at this link, not just the first post but at all the shit everyone gave Casanova. BTW he came back from the Burn with his prejudices discarded. viewtopic.php?t=34239
Look at this link, not just the first post but at all the shit everyone gave Casanova. BTW he came back from the Burn with his prejudices discarded. viewtopic.php?t=34239
Everyone is so politically fucked up that they're segregating themselves in the name of equal rights and liberation.
Re: Ohio Virgin
Just to clarify, "Fuck ye'r Burn" is not a put-down like a simple "fuck off" or some-such.ChanceFlashLightning wrote:
... just tell them "fuck your burn" and move on!
It's more of a "go have fun doing crazy shit that violates societal norms in the real world, and have a fuck ton of crazy adventures" between a couple old salts with lots of playa wear and tear between em.
At least that was the origin way back when in DPW lore.
Re: Ohio Virgin
STAG CAMP?!! I love me some Stag Camp. You're in the right place.Cahndi wrote:Haha, thankfully thats about all i drink with the exception of some coffee and tea.... ooh and some wine... or cocktail oooooo beer... ok maybe not all i drink but i did like that saying, Think Drink.
I am actually from Cincinnati myself. I'm also staying in Stag camp and will be volenteering for a beer swap on Tuesday. Though... i have put some thought into lamp lighting.
It's getting to be crunch time and I'm still sewing & bleaching things lol. Before we head out to BRC I'll be volenteering at a folk festival in Indiana and it's 10 th anniversary so busy busy bee. I am getting the nervous jitters though lol.
As for regionals I've liked into some but sadly times didn't work for me this year ( insert sad panda face here)
Thank you so much for your awesome kind words.
I've been a neighbor/stalker/camper there many times. Don't be too scared; you'll be surrounded by kindness, silliness and expertise. Are you one of Bells' acquaintances, by any chance? She's from the same area.
Welcome!
*** The Burning Man Survival Guide ***
"I must've lost it when I was twerking at the trash fence." -- BBadger
"Snark away, ePlaya, you magnificent bastards." -- McStrangle
"I must've lost it when I was twerking at the trash fence." -- BBadger
"Snark away, ePlaya, you magnificent bastards." -- McStrangle
Re: Ohio Virgin
I am not though my Boyfriend knows her from stag last year. I am excited to get to meet her this year.Savannah wrote:
Are you one of Bells' acquaintances, by any chance? She's from the same area.
Welcome!
The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance.
- ARISTOTLE,c. 350 BC
- ARISTOTLE,c. 350 BC
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ChanceFlashLightning
- Posts: 25
- Joined: Mon Feb 25, 2008 2:47 pm
- Location: Portland, OR
Re: Ohio Virgin
What Token said, above. After posting, I realized I could have been clearer on that point. One year on Esplanade at dawn I watched a beautiful demonstration of "Fuck your Day!" that really brought me new understanding.
If you want to decompress over coffee in October, drop me a PM... looks like I'll be passing through Cincy during Blink. (Going to be on playa for a long time, don't expect immediate response).
If you want to decompress over coffee in October, drop me a PM... looks like I'll be passing through Cincy during Blink. (Going to be on playa for a long time, don't expect immediate response).
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt--marvelous error!--
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures
-- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
I dreamt--marvelous error!--
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures
-- Antonio Machado, translated by Robert Bly
Re: Ohio Virgin
She's wonderful, as are the rest of the Staggers . . . . (okay, I'll admit I don't know all of the newest ones).Cahndi wrote:I am not though my Boyfriend knows her from stag last year. I am excited to get to meet her this year.Savannah wrote:
Are you one of Bells' acquaintances, by any chance? She's from the same area.
Welcome!
*** The Burning Man Survival Guide ***
"I must've lost it when I was twerking at the trash fence." -- BBadger
"Snark away, ePlaya, you magnificent bastards." -- McStrangle
"I must've lost it when I was twerking at the trash fence." -- BBadger
"Snark away, ePlaya, you magnificent bastards." -- McStrangle