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by regynalonglank » Tue Dec 21, 2004 8:29 pm
right on! well thank the goddess for you :) cuz you rock my world. i tried to run around my woodstove, but i kept hitting the wall, wall, wall... next year i plan for things, next year i get my ass in gear and make it happen instead of thinking about it. hopefully by then i will have figured out how not to act like a three year old while parenting one...hopefully by next year i will stop feeling like a lameass. hopefully by next week...perhaps some time in the next few minutes...ok, that might be asking for too much, but hey, you never know, it could happen. sudden unassholeishment - i'm not asking for enlightenment here, not in the next few seconds anyways, but just some kind of sign that i am not simply perpetuating the same shit into the next generation would be fabulous, if that's not too much to ask. i know the universe doesn't really do double negatives, i'm trying to be clear...please, if its at all possible, i would like to stop acting like an idiot. ok, still negative. let's see...dear great good thing in the sky, help me to realize that - crap, this is hard! i want to be a better parent. i want to know how to be serious and make myself understood as meaning what i say without having to lose my temper. dang, still negative. ok, i want to find a way to express myself to my child around safety and other important issues so that she will get that i mean what i say while still allowing me to be loving and showing her that i respect her as a human being. there, now that wasn't so hard, now was it :) make it so! i wish peace for our hearts...love for our arms...and depth for our character. dreaming...loving...ever yours, me
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