BM has been a bit of an irresistible "TUG" on my heart for a little over a year now, put simply - I feel a strong calling to go. I've known about BM for years, but if you'd asked me 10-15 years ago, even 5 years ago I wouldv'e NEVER thought of going!, my eyes, heart and mind were simply pretty damn shut tight during the bulk of my life, and I wouldv'e rolled my eyes along with my fellow white, suburban, starbuck's and red wine drinking Girl Scout moms and laughed at "that weird thing with the naked people in the desert" ....
Things are different now, and I am too - isn't life weird and amazing?? Very excited to hopefully attend 2019. I am a complete newbie and honestly feel more than a bit "MOOP-y" ie...out of place haha. If you knew me you would know I do NOT fit maybe the "typical" Burner stereotype...but of course, that is one thing that appeals so much to me about BM in general - there doesn't seem to be a "typical" Burner
. But - here I am, a pretty standard suburban mom with a teenager, post - divorce and the last few years have been absolute tremendous amazing growth and change for me. I feel like BM is not just a "fun thing to do" for me, personally, it's a real calling and a necessary part of my own evolution at this stage of my life. SO exciting, and kind of scary too - as it's as far out of my previous comfort zone as you can probably get
. I've spent my life rather subconsciously setting my life up(as many women do I think) in such a way as to simply "do what everybody else does" -ie...find a man, get married, buy a house, raise some kids...it's only now occurring to me that I never lived or acted from a strong place within myself to direct my own life, make my own choices, as to what I actually WANTed!! 
...maybe cliche, but it's 100% true. I've had a great life thus far, don't get me wrong, and I have zero regrets. But I'm trying to live my life more authentically ME now, and embracing that paradigm and also learning to treasure the few people in my life who do "get" me, and love me for me. But the reality is - there are sadly, far too few of those people, surrounding me. CHANGING that!! Sooo...the gist of it is this - I'm going this Burning Man adventure alone at this point, but I'm so OPEN and eager to embrace it FULLY and find FRIENDS!! A real family
, local and otherwise, to connect with. I literally have not a SINGLE friend or person from my current/former life who would "get" BM or even want to go...crazy, but true. This is a true authentic calling for me and has ZERO connection to the life I've previously set up for myself, and so OF COURSE everyone I know now anywya, just can't relate. I'm literally starting from scratch here! Family/friends all think I'm a little (or a lot) nutty for wanting to do this (or they think it's just a stupid midlife crisis thing which is just as lame haha . As a good and real friend recently observed - I'm going through a midlife REVELATION, not a crisis . So - I'm looking for a camp to join, ways to volunteer and participate, and most of all, connections with awesome people..!!
Aaaanyway, HI!! haha and if any of the above resonates in ANY way with you or makes you laugh or whatever - please say Hi and let's chat. meet for a coffee or drink if you're local to Los Angeles, etc. Diving ALL IN here.
Much love and here's to new friendships and new experiences!
K
