Hello, 43 year old dude here from Minnesota. The last year of my life has been a doozy. Recently my father died and the last time we spoke he haunted me with his words. He told me although I have been successful in the first half of my life he was concerned that I hadn't taken enough time to find out who I really was. He said the real joy comes from not dominating the world but meeting the world and loving who you are in it. I have decided the second half will be different and burning man will be the start. My father was a child of the 60's and 70's and went on many adventures throughout this country. He biked from Minneapolis to San Francisco and back, and did the same to New Orleans. He spent 10 dollars a day and slept in a tent where ever he could. He has also hiked many of the major trails in Wyoming and Montana. His stories about these adventures where the stories of my childhood.
Well I'm spending this second half the way I want and Burning Man is burned on my brain. Its all I can think about. I am on the STEP waiting list for a ticket and vehicle pass and will be doing the OMG sale for sure. Hopefully it works out. I want to go so bad I literally feel like I'm going crazy thinking about it. I need to find a ticket and meet all the great people at the burn. It will be my first burn and I have read almost everything I can. Just thinking about not having to put up a front and being who I really am sounds orgasmic. I plan on driving down alone from Minnesota and will be looking into camps if I can get a ticket. Not sure who or if this will get read but if anyone has any suggestions or feels where I'm coming from I would love your words and guidance as your time is very much appreciated.
Looking to go anyway I can.
Crossroads in my life
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Elderberry
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Re: Crossroads in my life
Hey there, welcome to ePlaya!
Good luck finding a ticket.
Good luck finding a ticket.
Elderberry
When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle.
Then I realized that the Lord doesn't work that way so I stole one and asked Him to forgive me
When I was a kid I used to pray every night for a new bicycle.
Then I realized that the Lord doesn't work that way so I stole one and asked Him to forgive me
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HarryN
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Re: Crossroads in my life
Good luck finding a ticket. I have been trying to buy one on and off for 7 years.
At this point I have more or less given up and just try to help some local groups with electrical needs when it makes sense.
At this point I have more or less given up and just try to help some local groups with electrical needs when it makes sense.
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planewalker
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Re: Crossroads in my life
Hey man - sounds like you're probably on the verge of a breakthrough.
Just keep in mind that you NEVER have to put on a front, whether you're at the burn, at work, or at home.
Yes, the burn is a place where wierdness is accepted. It's not accepted everywhere.
But the last thing you want is to find the freedom you're looking for at the burn and then be unable to integrate it into normal life afterwards.
So it's best you begin NOW and just drop that front whether you make it to the burn or not.
It's a waste of life to put up a front at ANY time, for ANY reason.
Yes, living in truth and authenticity comes with a heavy cost.
But putting up a front is even more expensive and you don't even know what it's costing you until you let go of it.
Just keep in mind that you NEVER have to put on a front, whether you're at the burn, at work, or at home.
Yes, the burn is a place where wierdness is accepted. It's not accepted everywhere.
But the last thing you want is to find the freedom you're looking for at the burn and then be unable to integrate it into normal life afterwards.
So it's best you begin NOW and just drop that front whether you make it to the burn or not.
It's a waste of life to put up a front at ANY time, for ANY reason.
Yes, living in truth and authenticity comes with a heavy cost.
But putting up a front is even more expensive and you don't even know what it's costing you until you let go of it.
Re: Crossroads in my life
Hi Dude from MN. I'm lady from FL. Sounds like good advice from those replies. The ticket concept is a real drag. Too bad we didn't know about this event last year...I just read article about it in BMJournal. I only discovered this by reading James Orocs book New Psychedelic Revolution this summer! Living under a rock or in a cave I guess. Heads in the sand but if I was 30 years younger and avoiding alcohol I would GO. I'm 63 and it just sounds like too much heat and dust, but I am an artist and theosophy study and love to have fun. YOU go out somewhere and feel freedom.Travel to another country, go deep into nature or a very different culture. YOU will get the benefits you are seeking beyond Burning Man.
Re: Crossroads in my life
I'm in the envy camp as I am watching webcam and reading alot of these posts. But with pox and covid, Haha alittle envy I have Covid too! I am vaccinated, boosted wear mask, substituted school and got sick! Not having any fun in the process! Its still here ugh.
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bicyclinghaircut
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Re: Crossroads in my life
The best way to get yourself out of that obsession is probably to relax and let your mind relax. However, to be able to do that will be difficult. Because emotions are something that we are easily influenced by, so we need to keep ourselves rational in all situations. To practice that will definitely need the help of the people around you. Hope you will experience the beauty of the other half later on drift boss