Life.

DontPanic · Post by **DontPanic** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 12:47 pm

its friggin freezing...theres about two feet of snow on the ground...but thats not the bad part...all you guys that were pullin for me im sorry to let yall down...i relapsed last thursday...shot a bag of dope and got caught...but thats not the bad part...got kicked out of my halfway house thats not even the bad part...now im living at a homeless shelter...you guys this place SUCKS ...right now im seeing humanity at its worst...the lowest of the low...that small percentage of people forgotten or ignored by society...these people, in general, are worse off than any of us ever have been or ever will be...i i lay in my cot at night and ponder gods reasons for showing me these people...tomorrow i have an interview with my my house manager to see if he will let me back in...and chances are he will...but those people will still be there...and while im back at my house, in my warm bed with a nice fluffy comforter...and a stomach full of cheeseburger and french fries and warm coffee... bitching about how i have no privacy in my 6 man room and the guys having the TV turned up to loud for me to sleep...those people will be huddled on milatary surplus cots under ratty blankets...with nothing but rice, beans and lukewarm water...in a gymnasium with at least 50 others just like them...and they will say amongst themselves with all the ernestness at their command..."Thank you god for all youve given me!" .... and they'll wake up cold and hungry the next morning and say, with all the erestness at their command "thank you god for letting me live another day"...and ill wake up and there wont be enough hot water for me to take a 30 minute shower and ill curse and complain that nothings going my way...and ill try to forget about those people...or pretend it doesnt bother me...but there will always be that knowing...deep down inside...that youve seen life as it really is...without the smoke and mirrors...and it disgusts you...

joel the ornery · Post by **joel the ornery** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:13 pm

and yet you still have access to the eplaya.

go figure.

Kinetic IV · Post by **Kinetic IV** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:24 pm

joel the ornery wrote:and yet you still have access to the eplaya.

go figure.

I found that to be a bit strange myself. And I was surprised that halfway houses had internet access too... one learns the most fascinating things on here..... sometimes.

helitack · Post by **helitack** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:30 pm

Well as my Pappy used to say,

"Can't dance 'less you pay the fiddler"

Sympathy meter at zero at this time.

Cabanasprings · Post by **Cabanasprings** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:34 pm

helitack wrote:Well as my Pappy used to say,

"Can't dance 'less you pay the fiddler"

Sympathy meter at zero at this time.

What's your "Holier Than Thou" meter set at?

joel the ornery · Post by **joel the ornery** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:39 pm

Cabana, i don't believe Heli was speaking from mount, inasmuch as he was stating the blindingly obvious...

okay, blindlingly obvious to some of us.

Cabanasprings · Post by **Cabanasprings** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:47 pm

I personally don't care if DP shot a bag of dog shit or what the consequences are but I did'nt see where he asked for sympathy.

And if any of you have ever been to the Sparks library during the middle of a week day, you would understand how a derelict would have access to the internet. But I guess that would require walking around with your eyes open.

sputnik · Post by **sputnik** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:53 pm

So, whatcha gonna do about it DP? How are you going to pull your life back together and get yourself to a place that doesn't disgust you?

Post by **AntiM** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 2:09 pm

Our county library is the default daytime homeless shelter when the missions close their doors in the morning. Internet access isn't a measure of much of anything, much less truth, sympathy, or common courtesy.

joel the ornery · Post by **joel the ornery** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 2:29 pm

Cabanasprings wrote:And if any of you have ever been to the Sparks library during the middle of a week day, you would understand how a derelict would have access to the internet.

some of us have jobs.

Kinetic IV · Post by **Kinetic IV** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 2:35 pm

joel the ornery wrote:
Cabanasprings wrote:And if any of you have ever been to the Sparks library during the middle of a week day, you would understand how a derelict would have access to the internet.
some of us have jobs.

Today you do. Tomorrow...may be different. One never knows...
Sometimes it takes a post like that to knock me off my high horse and get me to thinking about how fortunate I am and how good I have it.

Isotopia · Post by **Isotopia** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 2:46 pm

But I guess that would require walking around with your eyes open.

Speaking of holier-than-thou. You fucking reek of it Cabana.

Cabanasprings · Post by **Cabanasprings** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:17 pm

Isotopia wrote:
But I guess that would require walking around with your eyes open.
Speaking of holier-than-thou. You fucking reek of it Cabana.

Any response to this statement would make me seem holier-than-thou so I will try to choose my words carefully.

Isotopia, you are the most judgemental dicktwister on the eplaya.

helitack · Post by **helitack** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:26 pm

When someone does something to themself, like break probation, parole, do an obviously illegal act in front of an officer, Ranger, deputy etc I simply have no simpathy nor do I feel the need to pat them on the back and tell them it will be OK. You dug the hole, pull yourself out.

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:28 pm

Cabanasprings wrote:a derelict would have access to the internet

if you got beef with the jobless, 0 income, homeless layer in society...

well, put me on your shit list...probably the top...at least the top three...

community centers have internet access...libraries have internet access...developing mutually beneficial relationships with house-holders will get you access...

i've been in the situation don'tpanic finds most disgusting...and if you haven't, i won't hold it against you...

society throws a lot of things away...sometimes people...

don't be surprised if they come back to haunt...

even through the internet

still...i do have a bit of disdain for those with jobs that support a society destroying my planet...

so i guess we're even

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:30 pm

helitack wrote:You dug the hole, pull yourself out.

i plan on tunnelling around till you're capitalist society falls down around your ears

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:34 pm

helitack wrote:I simply have no simpathy nor do I feel the need to pat them on the back and tell them it will be OK.

i wouldn't accept it from you if you did

Kinetic IV · Post by **Kinetic IV** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:38 pm

Just trying to lighten it up a tiny bit around here.....

edit: This is another angle of the digital divide problem...at least some people are finding their way over it.

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:38 pm

DontPanic wrote:its friggin freezing...theres about two feet of snow on the ground...

complaining about the environment you chose to be in (there's always a choice) won't get you where you want to be

mojo · Post by **mojo** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:50 pm

DP - we're still pulling for you. You have not let us down. My thoughts and prayers are with you. You have the compassion to see the suffering of others and to let it make you humble.

helitack · Post by **helitack** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:51 pm

the fire elf wrote:
helitack wrote:I simply have no simpathy nor do I feel the need to pat them on the back and tell them it will be OK.
i wouldn't accept it from you if you did

OK.

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 3:53 pm

helitack wrote: OK.

*pats helitack on the back, and grins*

Isotopia · Post by **Isotopia** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 4:14 pm

Isotopia, you are the most judgemental dicktwister on the eplaya.

Thanks sweetie. Coming from you I'll take that compliment and wear it like a new wig.

DVD Burner · Post by **DVD Burner** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 4:50 pm

Uuuummmm,

I dont know about all this DP.

Seems to me if you have internet access you can still make the best of things by making money via the internet.
There are places online where you can make your own website for free and you can put something up for sale or learn some tricks using your free website as a tester. Go out and find people that need websites and charge 100.00 or so.
Corner store, non-profit place, there are tons of ways to make it happen. Just put your mind to it. Create your own life.

Just my 0000000.86%

Keep ya chin up.

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 4:57 pm

you can still make the best of things by making money

what if making money wasn't really the best of things?

is that a possibility in your realm?

it's fundamental to mine...

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 5:05 pm

the fire elf · Post by **the fire elf** » Mon Feb 13, 2006 5:19 pm

know your parameters in life...

be willing to look beyond them...

and respect...

ravenluv · Post by **ravenluv** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 2:41 pm

i always did badly in the comprehension portion of standardized tests. i missed the point i was supposed to be programmed to see. bearing that in mind...

i thought DP was saying: i messed up, i've fallen even further than i did before, i realize how good i have (or had) it compared to those who fell further still.

then i saw that people who are obviously better off decided to criticize him for what he said. maybe they were right to do so. after all, he seemed to be saying 'be happy for what you have'. those who feel the need to heap derision on others are rarely happy. more successful, yes - but not any happier in light of that success.

DP. your failure is in not being happy with who and where you are and your punishment is to be derided by those who have also failed in this regard.

it's so damned funny, i forget to laugh.

Love and Indifference : The Genetic Code

BigCock · Post by **BigCock** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 3:09 pm

Damn Panic, I feel bad for you. You're seeing the dark side and taking a beating in the process.
But I have to say, I sure appreciate your posts. You're thoughtful and funny as heck. I look for your posts every time I'm on 'cause they're real 'cause you're real. Thanks for that.
PM me any time buddy if you think I can help in any way.
~Rick aka BC

p.s.: I heard the umpa lumpas got inspired and joined the candy worker's union!

PlayaPetal · Post by **PlayaPetal** » Tue Feb 14, 2006 3:19 pm

i always did badly in the comprehension portion of standardized tests. i missed the point i was supposed to be programmed to see. bearing that in mind...

i thought DP was saying: i messed up, i've fallen even further than i did before, i realize how good i have (or had) it compared to those who fell further still.

then i saw that people who are obviously better off decided to criticize him for what he said. maybe they were right to do so. after all, he seemed to be saying 'be happy for what you have'. those who feel the need to heap derision on others are rarely happy. more successful, yes - but not any happier in light of that success.

DP. your failure is in not being happy with who and where you are and your punishment is to be derided by those who have also failed in this regard.

it's so damned funny, i forget to laugh.

Love and Indifference : The Genetic Code

I concur and I like your insight.

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