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how do i come across?

like a freak storm, making you wonder if you tied your shit down well enough...
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like a freak storm, making you wonder if you tied your shit down well enough...
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like a benevolent stranger happy to see you exploring your human potential...
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like a benevolent stranger happy to see you exploring your human potential...
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like a malevolent observer, content with watching mankind kill itself in an ignorant stupor...
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like a malevolent observer, content with watching mankind kill itself in an ignorant stupor...
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Post by the fire elf » Thu Apr 20, 2006 10:58 am

borrowed from another thread:
levendis wrote: Event organisers and the city request a minimum 2 hour clean up by each citizen on Sunday. The fact large parts of the population exit the event with no cleanup effort and many are those who would throw trash on the ground or get in a fight expresses the huge portion of our current society who will suffer most during the post peak oil collapse. They are the mindless automatons of society oblivious to the coming collapse. The participants of Burning Man who do help with cleanup longer represent the environmentally conscious, who make a concerted effort to revert the disaster. After the event it takes at least a month or more to completely return the lake bed to its natural condition. This characterizes the struggling remainder of humanity as they try to cope with the collapse.
feels like something in my universe is trying to make a mindless automaton out of me...

i don't like that...

if i am to be a mindless automaton, i'd rather become one out of my own free will...
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Post by spectabillis » Thu Apr 20, 2006 11:06 pm

the fire elf wrote:obviously they see something i don't, so i'm fishing for some feedback and seeing if they are willing to discuss it here on eplaya...
dont know, but off the top of my head cant think of any dpw org person who posts here, at least not regularly. hope your attitude still holds out.

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Post by the fire elf » Fri Apr 21, 2006 1:52 pm

i had an issue with burners and i voiced it to burners, that's good enough for me...

felt good to vent a bit...

thanks for sharing the bandwith
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Post by spectabillis » Fri Apr 21, 2006 6:23 pm

sure, dont know much about any of it... but if i got some sort of rejection from the org/group it would help me to vent. you dont seem to be pushing any negative feelings or trying to stir up some shit so i dont think many are going to have a prob.

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Post by the fire elf » Fri Apr 21, 2006 8:56 pm

i'll be as gentle as i can
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dark inertia -- the state of delusional thinking and conf...

Post by the fire elf » Sun Apr 23, 2006 12:44 pm

Mayavi was an ogre, and was elder to Dundhubhi. Vali and Mayavi had a personal issue to settle, on account of a woman. “While he justly ruled over his ancestral kingdom, I remained submissive to him at all times and stood like his servant. There was a glorious son of the demon Maya, elder than Dundhubhi. The said Vali formerly had a bitter enmity with him on account of a woman,” says Sugriva. (Valmiki Ramayana, Kishkindha Kanda, Canto 9, Sloka 4)

Mayavi arrived at dead of night in Kishkindha and challenged Vali to a single combat. Vali accepted the challenge and soon Mayavi could resist him no further. He then ran into a cave. Vali ran after him with the intention of killing him. Sugriva followed him. Vali posted him at the mouth of the cave and asked him to stand guard there till he came back, killing Mayavi. Twenty-eight months passed from that day. There was no sign of either Vali or Mayavi coming out of the cave. Sounds of anger and pain were heard outside.

“Since I did not perceive my (elder) brother with my own eyes (all these long months) my mind began to apprehend his death. Nay concluding him to have been killed (by the demon) I for my part was overcome by a feeling of misgiving through affection. Then, on seeing after a long time blood mixed with foam emerged from the aforesaid hole, I felt extremely distressed because of that. The yell of thundering demons too reached my ears, while the noise of my elder brother, even though he was roaring while engaged in the encounter, did not fall on my ears. By recourse to reason on the strength of the aforesaid indications, I for my part, concluded my (elder) brother to have been killed. Nay, blocking up the mouth of the hole with a rock as big as a hillock, and offering water (to the spirit of deceased), stricken as I was with grief, I returned to Kishkindha, O friend! Although I concealed the truth*, the secret was learnt by the ministers with effort.”
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seed...

Post by the fire elf » Mon May 01, 2006 4:18 pm

all you could become
made so by destiny
heart beats, organic drum
dancing through my eternity

well placed; naked/sly
wisdom destroy passion build
words tumble through eye
weave together ignorance killed

at peace near war
lies sanctuary self-made
collecting perceptions: spirit core
while insignificant delusions fade
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Post by the fire elf » Mon May 01, 2006 4:20 pm

some display disdain
demand control injust
cause becomes solution

habits like prisons
tastes of deamons
even pigeons strut
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Post by the fire elf » Mon May 01, 2006 4:25 pm

i would rather be desired than needed; soo many people have already decided what they need...

desire is where passion springs forth; soo many people desire to continue as they are...

truth tastes like validation or poison, depending on your aquired taste; soo many people live in ego, it's like going down the highway in rush-hour traffic going the wrong way: people get pissed...
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namesake

Post by the fire elf » Tue May 02, 2006 6:51 pm

dropping names of divinity
means little these days
rampant psycho-spiritual identities
misconstrued in all ways

a name given to self
is convoluted at best
"step aside, wait your turn!"
says the namer, at rest

make a joke, tell a lie
play pretend, fantasy
you may find it hard
to fill shoes and be
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situate

Post by the fire elf » Tue May 02, 2006 6:52 pm

wind, water, earth & fire
poised like molar and incisor
mutated babylon (auto 'tire')
inside which i inspire her

like a djinn devoid of wishes
no bonds on wrists like these
christ saw people as fishes
no wonder he hid the keys

which door holds you out?
which door holds you in?
they don't open with a shout
so what's up with the din?
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growth

Post by the fire elf » Tue May 02, 2006 6:53 pm

i once was a child
who saw shadow and light
tormented by passions
most suited for night

i once was a son
with aspirations untold
nutured by myths
to become strange and bold

i once was a student
learning body/spirit/mind
from crayons to altars
my footsteps do not bind
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paths

Post by the fire elf » Wed May 03, 2006 2:18 pm

aum satyavin maya
shuffled sanskrit, no doubt
speaks of power & wisdom
generated inside to out

mayavin rules of magic
reconfigured to suit deeds
in modern twisted eden
choked with human weeds

anti-human, i am not
yet soo many choose
obstruction of my path
them, not i, shall lose
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footprints

Post by the fire elf » Wed May 03, 2006 2:19 pm

i dream with deamon
i wake with success
my vision realm continues
to fulfil subtle purpose

each quest i grow
each trial i pass
allows me time off:
smokin' dope, chasing ass

"contrary" some might say
"contrary to the quest!"
to me it's the same
as beast-buddha jest
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interactivity

Post by the fire elf » Wed May 03, 2006 2:20 pm

sure, i'll get ugly
i'll get pretty too
i shift so they love me
in this human petting zoo

all shapes and colors
like 'box-a-chocolates' sweet
preferring some over others
indicated by placement of feet

some make me smile
some make me laugh
sometimes there's that one
makes me wish for a bath
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Post by the fire elf » Thu May 04, 2006 2:13 pm

one dream i saw angst
living with quarrel and fear
in a disrepaired house
useless things to the ear

chaos reigned with junk
on levels and stair
people strangely familiar
wandered here and there

two dogs i once knew
the leash for a walk
was kept in un-findable space
grumpy keeper wouldn't talk

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Post by the fire elf » Thu May 04, 2006 2:16 pm

in my dreams i can fly
once upon a time it was tough
these days i don't try
it comes natural enough

people don't seem to notice
too busy to ask how or why
i've stopped trying to entice
them to jump into the sky

the ask of me things
to do what they cannot
making servants of kings
well, this one they ain't caught
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Post by the fire elf » Thu May 04, 2006 2:18 pm

some dreams i am quarry
of the wicked and mean
still, very little i worry
still, search out my queen

strong as i, none doubt
as this drama will unfold
will her and i bout?
it's yet to be told

strange overlap of environ
from my waking and sleep
does same sun shine on
both surface skin and deep?

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dream poetry...

Post by the fire elf » Fri May 05, 2006 3:53 pm

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one dream in a room
first place of my design
the mechanisms wouldn't function
one by one they resign

privacy is what's sought
by my first love and i
the house was my grandma's
we were wary of prying eye

as we strive for space
to touch and excite
there's peace on her face
when she said "i couldn't quite..."

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she speaks of masturbation
"not quite" to full orgasm
i had stepped outta sight
seeking glimpse of her chasm

two doors tied with string
close one the other'd open
the left string i ripped
closed two doors; closed in

we move to embrace
under the cover she wore
then came a great noise
broken fan fell to the floor

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i wake and interpret
my dreams into poetry
holding true to the spirit
helps to recall easily

with my visions as muse
and a style all my own
it feels like a lit fuse
my apathy to be blown

what i find is voice
in this world of self
now i've made the choice:
take mySelf off the shelf
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dream poetry2...

Post by the fire elf » Fri May 05, 2006 3:54 pm

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one dream in an ashram
militant with 3rd grade feel
i was the odd one out
consistant refusal to heel

my troup was called out
to pompousness in the yard
on the way down the hall
stack of pots, slightly marred

i grabbed one i liked
stole it confident and quick
'cause in my earthly life
i had good use for it

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(i hand-wash in trashbags
in tent on a mountain
dream pot seemed better
then risking dirty fountain)

outside we watched speech
where speaker was killed
the knifeman glanced and laughed
none disturbed by blood spilled

consensus was reached
by those rule-making souls
killer had followed some rules
he balanced out in the polls

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back to the classroom
i carried my stolen pot
under the front of my hoody
so i wouldn't get caught

tv was playing with audience
had to walk between those
to deliver pot to my bed;
back to my seat for shows

i pulled off my top
to break a uniformity rule
marvelled at my shape:
stuck out my belly soo full
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Post by the fire elf » Sun May 07, 2006 11:02 am

"Maitreya is typically pictured seated, with both feet on the ground, indicating that he has not yet completed ascending his throne, which is believed to be a style of western throne, not Indian as previously believed."
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Post by the fire elf » Sun May 07, 2006 11:06 am

"The name Maitreya or Metteyya is derived from the word maitrī (Sanskrit) or mettā (Pāli) meaning "loving-kindness", which is in turn derived from the noun mitra (Pāli: mitta) in the sense of "friend"."h
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Post by the fire elf » Tue May 16, 2006 12:40 pm

could you take salt from the ocean to mask the sweetness uf breath upon my skin?

something really must be done, lest my detachable passions catch wind of the more formidable configurations they might assume, given adequate understanding of themselves.
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Post by the fire elf » Thu May 18, 2006 12:46 pm

[her-response]

could the sweetness of breath taste the salt on my thighs?
concupiscence grasps moments that engulf ones being...

to not challenge,
what seems insurmountable,
is to question,
the rhyme of existence,
caution not being thrown...
to the wily power
of an element unseen.

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The Handless Maiden

Post by the fire elf » Sat May 20, 2006 4:50 pm

Once upon a time a few days ago, the man down the road still owned a large stone that ground the villagers' grain to flour. The miller had fallen on hard times and had nothing left but the great rough millstone in a shed, and the large flowering apple tree behind it.

One day, as he carried his silver-lipped ax into the forest to cut deadwood, a strange old man stepped from behind a tree. "There's no need for you to torture yourself by cleaving wood," wheedled the old man. "I shall dress you in riches if you will but give me what stands behind your mill."

"What is there behind my mill but the flowering apple tree?" thought the miller, and agreed to the old man's bargain.

"In three years' time, I'll come take what's mine," chortled the stranger, and he limped away, disappearing between the staves of trees.

The miller met his wife on the path. She had run from their house, apron flying, hair askew. "Husband, husband, at the stroke of the hour, into our house came a finer clock upon the wall, our rustic chairs were replaced by those hung in velvet, and the paltry cupboard abounds now with game, our trunks and boxes are overflowing. Pray tell, how has this happened?" And even at that moment, golden rings appeared on her fingers and her hair was drawn up with a golden circlet.

"Ah," said the miller, looking in awe as his own doublet turned to satin. Before his eyes his wooden shoes with the heels worn to nothing so he walked tilted backward, they too turned into fine shoes. "Well, it is from a stranger," he gasped. "I came upon an odd man in a dark frock coat in the forest and he promised great wealth if I gave him what is behind our mill. Surely, wife, we can plant another apple tree."

"Oh, my husband!" wailed the woman, and she looked as though she had been struck dead. "The man in the black coat was the Devil, and what stands behind the mill is the tree, yes, but our daughter is also there sweeping the yard with a willow broom."

And so the parents stumbled home, weeping tears on all their finery. Their daughter stayed without husband for three years and had a temperment like the first sweet apples of spring. The day the Devil came to fetch her she bathed and put on a white gown and stood in a circle of chalk she'd drawn around herself. When the Devil reached out to grab her, an unseen force threw him across the yard.

The Devil screamed, "She must not bathe any more else I cannot come near her." The parents were terrified and so some weeks went by and she did not bathe until her hair was matted, her fingernails like black crescents, her skin grey, her clothes darkened and stiff with dirt.
Then, with the maiden every day resembling a beast, the Devil came again. But the girl wept and her tears ran through her palms and down her arms. Now her hands and arms where pure white and clean. The Devil was enraged. "Chop off her hands, otherwise I cannot come near her." The father was horrified. "You want me to sever the hands of my own child?" The Devil bellowed, "Everything here will die, including you, your wife, and all the fields for as far as you can see."

The father was so frightened he obeyed, and begging his daughter's forgiveness he began to sharpen his silver-lipped ax. The daughter submitted, saying, "I am your child, do as you must."

And this he did, and in the end no one could say who cried out the louder, the daughter or the father. Thus ended the girl's life as she had known it.


(to be continued,
courtesy of 'Women Who Run With the Wolves', myths an stories of the wild woman archetype, Clarissa Pinkola Estes, Ph.D.)
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The Handless Maiden (...)

Post by the fire elf » Sat May 20, 2006 4:52 pm

When the Devil came again, the girl had cried so much the stumps that were left of her limbs were again clean, and the Devil, was again thrown across the yard when he attempted to seize her. Cursing in words that set small fires in the forest, he disappeared forever, for he had lost all claim to her.

The father had aged one hundred years, and his wife also. Like true people of the forest, they continued as best they could. The old father offered to keep his daughter in a castle in great beauty and riches for life, but the daughter said she felt it more fitting she become a beggar girl and depend on the goodness of others for sustenance. And so she had her arms bound in a clean gauze, and at daybreak she walked away from her life as she had known it.

She walked and walked. High noon caused her sweat to streak the dirt on her face. The wind disheveled her hair until it was like a stork's nest of twigs all tangled this way and that. In the midst of the night she came to a royal orchard where the moon had put a gleam on the fruit that hung from the trees.

She could not enter because the orchard was surrounded by a moat. She fell to her knees, for she was starved. A ghostly spirit in white appeared and shut the sluice gate so the moat was emptied.

The maiden walked among the pear trees and somehow she knew that each perfect pear had been counted and numbered, and that they were gaurded as well. Nevertheless, a bough bent itself low so she could reach it, it's branches creaking. She put her lips to the golden skin of a pear and ate while standing there in the moonlight, her arms bound in gauze, her hair afright, appearing like a mud woman, the handless maiden.

The gardener saw it all, but recognized the magic of the spirit who gaurded the maiden, and did not interfere. After the girl finished eating the single pear, she withdrew across the moat and slept in the shelter of the wood.

The next morning the king came to count his pears. He found one missing, and looking high and low, he could not find the vanished fruit. When asked, the gardener explained: "Last night two spirits drained the moat, entered the garden at high moon, and one without hands ate the pear that offered itself to her."

The king said he would keep watch that night. At dark he came with his gardener and his magician, who knew how to speak with spirits. The three sat beneath a tree and watched. At midnight, the maiden came floating through the forest, her clothes dirty rags, her hair awry, her face streaked, her arms without hands, and the spirit in white beside her.

They entered the orchard the same way as before. Again, a tree gracefully bent itself to her reach and she supped on the pear at its bough's end.

The magician came close, but not too close, the them and asked, "Are you of this world or not of this world?" And the girl answered, "I was once of 'the' world, and yet I am not of 'this' world."

The king questioned the magician. "Is she human or spirit?" The magician answered that she was both. The king's heart leapt and he rushed to her and cried, "I shall not forsake you. From this day forward, I shall care for you." At his castle he had made for her a pair of silver hands, which were fastened to her arms. And so it was that the kind married the handless maiden.


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The Handless Maiden (...)

Post by the fire elf » Sat May 20, 2006 4:53 pm

In time, the king had to wage war in a far-off kingdom, and he asked his mother to care for his young queen, for he loved her with all his heart. "If she gives birth to a child, send me a message right away."

The young queen gave birth to a happy babe and the king's mother sent a messenger to the king telling him the good news. But on the way the messenger tired, and coming to a river, felt sleepier and sleepier and finally fell entirely asleep by the river's edge. The Devil came from behind a tree and switched the message to say the queen had given birth to a child that was half dog.

The king was horrified at the message, yet sent back a message saying to love the queen and care for her in this terrible time. The lad who ran with the message again came to the river, and feeling heavy as though he had eaten a feast, soon fell asleep by the side of the water. Whereupon the Devil again stepped out and changed the message to "Kill the queen and her child."

The old mother was shaken by this request and sent a messenger to confirm. Back and forth the messengers ran, each one falling asleep at the river and the Devil changing messages that became increasingly terrible, the last being "Keep the tongue and eyes of the queen to prove that she has been killed."

The old mother could not stand to kill the sweet young queen. Instead she sacrificed a doe, took its tongue and eyes, and hid them away. Then she helped the young queen bind her infant to her breast, and veiling her, said she must flee for her life. The women wept and kissed each other good-bye.

The young queen wandered till she came to the largest, wildest forest she had ever seen. She picked her way over and through and around trying to find a path. Near dark, the same spirit in white as before appeared and guided her to a poor inn run by kindly woodspeople. Another maiden in a white gown took the queen inside and knew her by name. The child was laid down.

"How do you know I am a queen?" asked the maiden.

"We who are of the forest follow these matters, my queen. Rest now."


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