desire still strong

kristina · Post by **kristina** » Fri Aug 04, 2006 7:15 am

I'm Kristina, the sining cavewoman, and I'm posting my introductory rant here... my life unfolded this year where it appears I will not be able to go the Burn... I'm sure there's a section just for Burners who can't make it...

However, I have one crazy hope in my spirit... that I can find a pilot who wants to fly out there for labor day weekend, from somewhere near Boulder, where I live.

So if you are that pilot, please respond to me!

Apart from that, I realized that I MUST start making my year round life more like what I love about the Playa... the physical environment and huge art projects I can't really create in Boulder, being able to walk around wearing whatever I want and a general sense of people being friendly, open and self expressed without having to wear a phony mask...that might be somewhat possible.

Last year I didn't have so much fun, because I brought my kids and a bunch of virgins and became the Camp Mom, which was just too grounding. I didn't even go to the temple burn, I was just burned out. So I didn't quite prioritize going this year, would be my 5th year....

Anyway, I write music and have 2 kids, and used to be more radical but now I am kind of trying to fit into society in some ways, which pisses me off, but I haven't been able to figure out successfully how to create a new one yet. And I became tired of feeling marginal.

My desire for a miracle is still strong this year! I know there's someone out there who could help make my dream come true, and I could help them!

But if I don't make it, I will be with you all in in spirit!

Oh, I auditioned for a play, Marat/Sade, and doing the play is part of why I can't go that week... I guess I'm creating art to contribute to my community. Right now it doesn't seem worth it though. Boohoo.

Kristina

unjonharley · Post by **unjonharley** » Fri Aug 04, 2006 7:39 am

I will burn something and chant some shit in hope of your arrival.

skygod · Post by **skygod** » Fri Aug 04, 2006 8:25 am

I've been twice, and I have heard people say that the week before the burn night is the best part, and the burn itself is no big deal.
Maybe you can look at the year leading up to BM week as the best part, and the actual week of the burn as no big deal.
It's a stretch I know but I feel bad you can't go.

CagedKitty · Post by **CagedKitty** » Fri Aug 04, 2006 12:17 pm

Look around you at the society that has been created over hundreds of years and pretend it sprung up overnight. Pretend everyone is happy to be here. Pretend the storekeepers are talking to you because they're fellow human beings and not because they're being paid to. Pretend everyone is different because they're trying to be different, not because they're trying to be the same. Even though I AM going to make it to bm this year, I still have to survive the rest of the year, so I understand. I hope you find your ride. Maybe you can find someone locally who wasn't going to go, but could be convinced.

kristina · Post by **kristina** » Fri Aug 04, 2006 1:56 pm

Wow,

I never expected to get so many sweet replies and words of encouragement and wisdom so quickly...

I think i'm over it.... still open to miracles, but becoming less attached, beause of course Burning Man is just one possible expression of creativity and community....

it really is the creativity I bring to each day, wherever I am, that counts.

Hope you all have an amazing Burn, and if I get there then I will too!

Love,

Kristina the Singing Cavewoman

desire still strong

desire still strong

thankyou