my mind begins to hum...

[the fire elf]

pre-burningman-conscious:

[the fire elf]

post-burningman-contact:

[the fire elf]

on the streets
your own ears are the ones most oft to hear your voice, and as you've gove round the sun a few times you surely identify with it more than mine.

in her own ears a woman yesterday lay down this meaning with her voice:

"how would you feel if your mom and dad were killed? how much do you love them?
you're evil!"

blah, blah, death threats


i couldn't help smilling impishly as i said:

"you sit there acting like you know me, but you don't know me."

and i repeated "you don't know me" untill she left


if i pop up dead, i request that you strap my body to the burningman

http://www.burningman.com/

~me

[the fire elf]

acculturation of the context of social dynamism

This first shogunate had a number of lasting effects.
It was an unusually militant government, leading to a rise
in the warrior classes, which the previous regime of aristrocratic
clans had considered distinctly subordinate and inferior. Bushido
would emerge from developments in this time period. Also during
this period, Zen, Nichiren, and True Pure Land Buddhism gained
more adherents than ever before. Popular literature changed in
this period, with monogatari shifting from depicting almost exclusively
tragic romantic relationships among nobles to tragically doomed,
romantic epics about samurai.

"an unusually artistic government, leading to a rise in the artisan
classes, which the previous regime of aristrocratic clans had
considered distinctly subordinate and inferior. Firedance would
emerge from developments in this time period. Also during this
period Consciousness Unfoldment gained more adherants than
ever before. Popular literature changed in this period, with a
shift in the epic unfoldment of relationships."

[the fire elf]

[skygod]

I have been trying to live just in the moment.
But this moment is too large.
I'm having to split some of it off into yesterday, and tomorrow.

[the fire elf]

auM---NEWSFLASH
IN APARALEL UNIVERSE
THERE IS A THREE HEADED DRAGON WHO JUST SAID:

"IT SEEMS AS THOUGH I'M ALWAYS IN
SOMEONE'S NEIGHBOR - HOOD
'CEPT WHEN I'M ON THE SAND

THEN IT'S JUST ME AND MY GUESTS

PLAYA"

[the fire elf]

Haplo dies peacefully, as Xar, Lord of the Nexus, the most powerful human being in the universe, weeps silently over his surrogate son, whom, despite everything, he still loves.

Haplo dies peacefully, as Xar, Lord of the Nexus, the most powerful human being in the universe, weeps silently over his surrogate son, whom, despite everything, he still loves.

But when the time for necromancy comes, it doesn't work. Xar realizes suddenly: the dog! Haplo never owned a dog until his last few moments in the Labyrinth—he had fought well and bravely, but just a few steps from the Final Gate, his injuries overtook him. Because he longed to rest and let death claim him, Haplo instilled all his instincts of loyalty, love and optimism into an external form: the dog. In doing so, though, he gave it his soul. The dog is still very much alive, and escapes into the catacombs under the capitol city, bringing Xar's plans to a screeching halt.

[the fire elf]

In this chaos, a mutant strain of humans emerged who were once again able to feel the Wave—

that which maintains balance and order in the universe.

Recognizing its potential for magic, they developed runes to harness it.

Originally, there was only one group, the Sartan.

The Sartan used magic by drawing runes on the ground and in the air, augmented by singing and spoken word;

they believed that their power gave them responsibility and stewardship over the lesser races, whom they called mensch (German for "people", both the Sartan and the Patryns use "mensch" to refer to humans, elves, and dwarves equally).

The Sartan believed in community, unity, and family.

Fundamentally: Order.

However, in their self conceitedness, they forgot about the Wave's tendency to balance everything.

As the Sartan became too powerful, the Wave shifted and the Patryns came to be.

Unlike the Sartan, the Patryns were loners, volatile and destructive;

they believed that their powers gave them the right to do as they would.

Generally a chaotic version of the Sartan.

Patryns tattooed the runes on themselves and chose their name

("Those Who Return to Darkness")

to mock the word Sartan

("Those Who Bring Back Light").

These two races came into conflict over control and influence of the mensch.

The Sartan in a "we know whats best for you" way, the Patryns more in line of simple personal power.

Both came to think of themselves as gods, though Sartan believed themselves rather self righteously to be the "good guys".

[the fire elf]

This cataclysmic moment of destruction and re-creation is known as the Sundering. Millions of mensch died, with only chosen populations magically isolated for resettlement.

[skygod]

I'm thinking at the Big Bang everything happenned at the same time. We create time by developing consciousness. When we are dead everything will be happenning at the same time again.

[the fire elf]

question becomes:

how to live?

[skygod]

question becomes:

how to live?

I remember a PBS series one of which featured a warm, verdant valley in the Himalayas actually called Shangri-La. The interviewer was talking to some of the buddhist monks living there and remarked how fortunate the monk was to be living in such a beautiful place. The monk answered, in so many words, "Yes. But no matter where you are you can always be here."
So I think it doesn't matter where you are it's the how you are that makes you happy. Or not.
The monk also said the challenge is to be as ethical as you can while pursuing your happiness.

[the fire elf]

i ascend to the sound of the waves...a sound that has been around since the beginning of life on the planet, as i like to imagine...

i am healing...and preparing

i challenge you to be ready when i am

[the fire elf]

"never in pride rely wholly on your own strength. Help will come when you need it, even when it is least deserved, if you but allow it." ~MSI

"Man will occasionally stumble over the truth,
but usually manages to pick himself up,
walk over or around it, and carry on." ~Winston Churchill

"I told my teacher the same thing you are saying to me now," Don Juan said. "He replied that without trusting the nagual there is no possibility of relief and thus no possibility of clearing the debris from our lives to be free." ~The art of dreaming

The word nagual derives from the Nahuatl nahualli , a term that itself has several meanings, namely: one facile with words, witch, shapeshifter, and animal co-essence.

"Inner silence works from the moment you begin to accrue it. The desired result is what the old sorcerers called stopping the world, the moment when everything around us ceases to be what it's been. It is this moment when man the slave becomes man the free being, capable of feats of perception that defy our linear imagination."

"A man of knowledge lives by acting, not by thinking about acting." ~ don Juan Matus

hallucinogenic plants or as Castaneda called them "power plants" were utilized to experience the Nagual as well as other states of awareness.

[skygod]

I would say, in general, Kosher food is better but it's not always true.

[the fire elf]

i think yeshua was onto something...

13 Yeshua said to his disciples, 'Compare me to someone and tell me whom I am like."

Simon Peter said to him, "You are like a righteous angel."

Matthew said to him, "You are like wise philosopher."

Thomas said to him, "Teacher, my mouth is unable to say whom you are like."

Yeshua said, "I am not your teacher. Because you have drunk from the bubbling spring which I have tended, you have become drunk."

And he took Thomas and withdrew and told him three things.

When Thomas returned to his friends, they asked him, "What did Yeshua say to you?"

Thomas replied to them, "if I tell you even one of the things which he told
me, you will pick up stones and stone me, and a fire will come forth from
the stones and consume you in flames."

14 Yeshua said to them, "If you fast, you cause yourself to sin,
and if you pray you will be condemned,
and if you give alms to charity, you will do harm to your spirits.
When you go into any nation and wander about the country,
if they receive you, eat what they put before you,
and heal their sick. For what goes into your mouth will not defile you,
but rather that which comes out of your mouth is what will defile you."

[skygod]

Yea, people are always asking prophets how to live, and the prophets beat them, or tell them riddles, basically letting them know that noone can answer that question for you.

[the fire elf]

you've got a narrow description that smells of bias

people aren't asking how to live

they're telling

[the fire elf]

[skygod]

you've got a narrow description.

Yes. But I can see you.

[the fire elf]

do you want a cookie?

[skygod]

do you want a cookie?

Ya sure. But I don't want to take your last one.

[the fire elf]

that would involve me no longer eating cookies, so let's hope there's never a last one

[Ugly Dougly]

Looks like you're set.

[the fire elf]

as i recall, part of the process involves taking the deepest darkest stress that comes up and places it out in front of the group to be transmuted;

she says:

> come on! Do you really think anyone wants to
> trust themselves to someone who will turn on them with
> vicious
> fangs at the slightest perception of provocation?

you see fangs when i tell you how i've felt hurt...


> couldn't reach you through the purple people hardly
> ever...I didn't know what you were doing or if you
> were ever coming back.

that wasn't a choice i was given...


> now, I've been single for a year Mayavin...how long
> are you hoping people will wait on someone who attacks
> and berates them before they let go and wish them well
> and move on?

i've witnessed you participating in four intimate relationships during the course of my time with you

you yourself aknowledged your impulse to enter into questionable dynamics in your efforts to fix people

i valued our dynamic, not just the cuddly tantric part...

i like that you continually want to be in relationship...

i do to

you once said i ruined you for other men... well...ditto with me and women, though it would seem that my statement holds true

i'm not into relating with poop-on-a-stick

you set a high standard that's leaving me high and dry


> I would love it if you were as happy for me,
> considering that I am a part of you and my joy is
> yours.

being apart from me; i have ever vaguer memories of your joy


> see no reason, personally, to thrash our loving
> friendship down the toilot every moment things don't
> go our own way!

don't want to thrash it... want to "jai isham" it, but it seems my voice is raspy and unpleasant




presence has much to do with what i'm up to...

the presence i would give you in person doesn't fit into the context of me using the net to transmute my stress

assholes and poop-sticks...



what is this world coming to?

>Subject: Re: para on a course
>
> Well, thank you for wanting to jai isham our love.
> Yes, your voice has been almost entirely raspy and
> unpleasant...not to mention bitter and torturously
> murderous.
> Not providing much of a call to awaken to anything
> that I would want.
> But...that's ok...because my love has always been
> awake in there...I just haven't heard much of the
> voice that I remember as always kind, gentle, and
> supportive.
>
> (And by the way...you wittnessed several relationships
> BEFORE you and only one after over the last several
> years to be more prescise...and had you been in a more
> peaceful, loving, full of heart place inside
> yourself...who knows what would have happened between
> us during any of the many breakups Aaron and I have
> had....so no need for any more continuous stress about
> bugaboo rejections that don't exist.)
>
> I'm sorry you were hurt. How was I to know? You most
> often complain about me and talk about non-attatchment
> and philosophies...not a good indicator of interest,
> love, or self-fullfillment, I must say.
>
> But anyway,
> Thanks for not being a total asshole in your reply.
> Love,
> Parasakti

[the fire elf]

LATIMES
SATURDAY, DECEMBER 9, 2006
THE DALAI LAMA HAS IT - BUT JUST WHAT IS 'IT'?

"maybe science will figure these things out,
which would be very nice.
maybe it won't." ~ DALAI LAMA


it was an artful dodge to a mundane question.

to request understanding and receive an
oversimplification of the nicety of
scientific paradigms; well, if it were
a drive-thru i would probably pull a
u-turn

though, given the context, to put the
culmination of his practice in layman
terms in non-native tongue seems
quite the challenge

to fully experience the answer entails,
no doubt, a fair amount of perceptual
cultivation. "those who know don't ask;
and those who ask don't know" would
seem to apply

what's the most direct route out of
a catch 22?

<practice>

THE SPACE I'M IN, I'M LOOKING MORE FOR
ALLIES THAN ENEMIES

IF YOU'RE WILLING TO RESPECT ME, IT'S COOL

IF NOT, I'D RATHER WE DIDN'T
KNOW EACH OTHER

if you could use an elven touch, and i daresay i have been harvesting ideas from underground spaces, i would love to add what energies are available to me to further the prosperousness of your project

though i might ask for help with travel, (i.e. bus fare and the cost of an ID to travel with), i would work for room and board to begin with and adjust as necesary

does that possibility seem appealing?

[skygod]

LATIMES
SATURDAY, DECEMBER 9, 2006
THE DALAI LAMA HAS IT - BUT JUST WHAT IS 'IT'?

"maybe science will figure these things out,
which would be very nice"

Truth is beauty. Beauty is truth. That's all I know, and all I need to know.

[the fire elf]

MAKING MEALS OF PUFFER FISH

IF TEXT WERE NOURISHMENT
TO LANGUAGE LADEN SOULS;
ONE STILL DISCERNS BETWEEN
RHINE AND HUSk...

why should i shy from
laying fruit of mind
before you?

difference betwixt life
and death; the shadows
merely artistic creations
of light

Broken Upon The Dawn
Deigned By The Sound
From Wince To Be Drawn

[the fire elf]