Just completed my virgin burn, now I'm... sad?

[Elorrum]

I feel pretty good. I feel inspired. I'm trying to write down the ideas and get active while it seems a pretty fertile time. I'm not sad yet, I feel like I have a fresh crush on the whole scene, and I half expect to turn the corner and see something that will make me burst out laughing, though that is a low percentage expectation, could happen. I liked waking up and having people say "good morning, and what did you see last night?" It's sort of lonely here now. People at work were surprised I wasn't pissed about all the important things that got thrown away while I was gone. "huh? they threw it away, really, oh well." That sort of thing would've sent me rocketing into a rage a month or so ago. I'm not walking around with a broody look on my face, I'm really saying hello to people still. I will try to keep it going as long as possible.

When the shit drops again, it's a motherfucker. Really good feeling lasted 10 days in defaultia... sort of a record. Now I wonder if trying to keep juggling Burning Man makes me feel better or worse.

[playa_buddha]

I'm glad I read this discussion. It's perfect for the way I'm feeling right now. I started going to Burning Man in '98 and have missed the last three years due to health and/or money issues. I MUST go next year!!
I've gotten that post-playa melancholy every year upon leaving and entering the so-called "default world". I created some rituals to segue back in easily - first by staying in Bishop on Monday night and not forcing myself to get back into Southern California on Labor Day. I don't wash my truck for the drive home so other Burners recognize where I've been and give that knowing smile and wave...I shamelessly talk my friends and families collective ears off about the weeks' experiences - and when I do get home I indulge in some gratuitous personal nudity to get that playa feelin'. I have noticed that when I don't go, I don't have that melancholy nearly as strong - and I think I miss that, too.