Shoot!FaeTora wrote:
Can I ask an odd question?
The Bar... Volume#2
Someone told me that the burn changed me. That life hadnt changed, just me. But then again everything unravelng faster than I can mend it.
So when you went to your first burn, did it all unravel? or did it clear up? or did it just become again what it had been before?
So when you went to your first burn, did it all unravel? or did it clear up? or did it just become again what it had been before?
We break to remind us how to mend.
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sputnik
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The answer is yes. I was changed by going. I suddenly realized that there were thousands of other people like me out there. That I was not alone.FaeTora wrote:Someone told me that the burn changed me. That life hadnt changed, just me. But then again everything unravelng faster than I can mend it.
So when you went to your first burn, did it all unravel? or did it clear up? or did it just become again what it had been before?
Despite how well I dress up in a tux and can put on the show when needed, I really have never felt that I fit in with the 'normal' crowd. I really felt I fit in with the people I have met at the burn.
Did things unravel...some things yes, some things no.
It's going to be alright.
I just... don't know. I have never felt a part of anything in my life. BRC... BM... awh gawd it was amazing. And there were thousand, literaly, thousands of people like me. but back in defaultia, none of the lessons which mean so much to me are doing me any good. Maybe they aren't supposed to make the changes that I thought would happen. Maybe my job is supposed to go to shit. I don't know.
it just feels.... i don;t know. I guess I just feel even more seperated from all the others. I didn't think I would. When I was at BM, I thought I would take this feeling home to my freinds. It turns out none of them like it except for my burner friends.
I just don't know.
I guess I have a lot of work to do.
it just feels.... i don;t know. I guess I just feel even more seperated from all the others. I didn't think I would. When I was at BM, I thought I would take this feeling home to my freinds. It turns out none of them like it except for my burner friends.
I just don't know.
I guess I have a lot of work to do.
We break to remind us how to mend.
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ygmir
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hi gang.............sorry, I was posting a little snark on another thread.
dang, FT.............you know, decom. can be tougher on some, than others........but, remember, steel can be tempered by fire..........
you came to TTITD, raw,
and oh, the things you saw,
the things that you said,
the things that you did,
will forever be in your craw.
Sometimes, we have to "burn" to renew........you may be doing just that.
let it fall, and regain the order you wish.
you,
can manifest this.
But, it's like pushing a rope............
instead, grab the knot at the end, and, enjoy the ride...........
dang, how's that for cryptic (and not from the sea)?
dang, FT.............you know, decom. can be tougher on some, than others........but, remember, steel can be tempered by fire..........
you came to TTITD, raw,
and oh, the things you saw,
the things that you said,
the things that you did,
will forever be in your craw.
Sometimes, we have to "burn" to renew........you may be doing just that.
let it fall, and regain the order you wish.
you,
can manifest this.
But, it's like pushing a rope............
instead, grab the knot at the end, and, enjoy the ride...........
dang, how's that for cryptic (and not from the sea)?
YGMIR
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The CO
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FaeTora, welcome to a whole new perspective on things. Sputnik nailed it well with his statements. It can be really overwhelming to come back to Camp Reality and realize that not everyone has the viewpoint you now posses. YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT! Try to be satisfied with the fact that you know all those other nutjobs are out there with you. Take solace in the fact that every time you see the man on a sticker, a car, a shirt, you just found someone else that shares our strange addiction to playa dust.
One thing that took me several years and a couple unfun lessons to figure out, that I try to pass on to recent burgins: No matter how much you want everyone cool you know to go to BRC, don't push it. Some people are Burners & just don't know it yet. But they have to get there on their own.
Carry on darlin', and when non-burners say "Burning Man? Isn't that the hippie festival/rave/orgy/drug fest/art thing in the desert?", just smile, nod, and say "Yep. That's exactly what it is."
One thing that took me several years and a couple unfun lessons to figure out, that I try to pass on to recent burgins: No matter how much you want everyone cool you know to go to BRC, don't push it. Some people are Burners & just don't know it yet. But they have to get there on their own.
Carry on darlin', and when non-burners say "Burning Man? Isn't that the hippie festival/rave/orgy/drug fest/art thing in the desert?", just smile, nod, and say "Yep. That's exactly what it is."
M*A*S*H 4207th: An army of fun.
I don't care what the borg says: feather-wearers will NOT be served in Rosie's Bar.
When I ask how many burns, I mean at BRC.
I don't care what the borg says: feather-wearers will NOT be served in Rosie's Bar.
When I ask how many burns, I mean at BRC.
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The CO
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Well.... Fuck 'em then. Their problem, not yours.FaeTora wrote:Most of them cant stand the way I came back
"The only person you can be better than is yourself right now. No sense in worrying what others think."
-Col. Sherman T. Potter (paraphrased)
Some of the only people I like in Texas are Burners. I bet you can find one or two or 20 of them.
M*A*S*H 4207th: An army of fun.
I don't care what the borg says: feather-wearers will NOT be served in Rosie's Bar.
When I ask how many burns, I mean at BRC.
I don't care what the borg says: feather-wearers will NOT be served in Rosie's Bar.
When I ask how many burns, I mean at BRC.
The lesson isn't about "how to" fit in anywhere really. There are 51 other weeks in the year. The lesson (my own experience) is to just be who you are and to know there are people who see you, and appreciate you out in the world and at Burning Man. I'm trying to bring the level of comfort in my own skin I have at TTITD back with me.
I just sang and played guitar all night, and I'm HIGH from it. I rarely have this feeling of being alright in my heart. I cherish it, and will try to nurture the wee little beast.
I just sang and played guitar all night, and I'm HIGH from it. I rarely have this feeling of being alright in my heart. I cherish it, and will try to nurture the wee little beast.
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ygmir
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*wanders in*
wow, the place looks deserted.........when, it should look "desert" ed........
*chucks 3 lbs of playa dust into fan, on high*
there..........well, it fits my sense of propriety, anyway.
*heads outside for some landscaping*
How's that?
*strokes Juke on the way by*
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wow, the place looks deserted.........when, it should look "desert" ed........
*chucks 3 lbs of playa dust into fan, on high*
there..........well, it fits my sense of propriety, anyway.
*heads outside for some landscaping*
How's that?
*strokes Juke on the way by*
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YGMIR
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What a joy!
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Elorrum wrote:The lesson isn't about "how to" fit in anywhere really. There are 51 other weeks in the year. The lesson (my own experience) is to just be who you are and to know there are people who see you, and appreciate you out in the world and at Burning Man. I'm trying to bring the level of comfort in my own skin I have at TTITD back with me.
I just sang and played guitar all night, and I'm HIGH from it. I rarely have this feeling of being alright in my heart. I cherish it, and will try to nurture the wee little beast.
BRAVO!
so very well said....
Frida Be You & Me
