Fuck!

[Ugly Dougly]

(I want to keep the brass pipe as a reminder-- I doubt it has enough resin in it to do anything for me. It breaks down for easier cleaning, and I think the sewage treatment plant has pretty much all the resin which was in it.)

It sounds like a Proto-Pipe!

[BAS]

(I want to keep the brass pipe as a reminder-- I doubt it has enough resin in it to do anything for me. It breaks down for easier cleaning, and I think the sewage treatment plant has pretty much all the resin which was in it.)

It sounds like a Proto-Pipe!

Actually, it was the cheapest brass pipe on the website I ordered the glass pipe from. (They don't take orders under US$10. So I had to fucking order TWO pipes. Then shipping more than doubled the price, so I wound up spending US$24.something.) It would work great for sneaking a pipe in somewhere-- probably what whoever designed it had in mind.

Fuck! Mention to your doctor you were abusing drugs and are quitting now, and he forgets the rest of the exam! I did get to meet a cute psychiatrist, though. (Who was just back from her honeymoon, darn it!) If this d---ed cough doesn't go away, I might be back there before the week is out. Good thing that one of the remaining benefits of working for the State is health insurance, even if the new Governor wants to take that and our retirement benefits away. (I think he wants to privatize everything, like Arizona... ...the idiot!)

[LoveLight]

BAS..Im a virgin Burner ..but i have something to say..
Im 36 and up till 2008 I was a drug pig..day in day out,,started when I was 17...I barely even left the house,all my $$ money went to drugs..
I was one fucked up girl..so fucked up..when I gave up I lost my friggin mind,,for a months I was a scared fucked up weirdo..paraniod, wanting to die and wanting to kill.all really crazy fucked up shit..

Now, when I look back I sometimes get angry with myself for wasting so much time and fucking my mind like that...

I occasionally think of getting stoned,but thats when Im bored...so I do things like go online or go for a walk....Its easy to say 'you can do it mate'..but in reality its really hard to quit....but you know that when you do everything will be better..$$ means shit if your 'fucked up' ,,so you gotta find in yourself WHY you prefer being stoned..and sort that out...

[Ugly Dougly]

I did get to meet a cute psychiatrist, though. (Who was just back from her honeymoon, darn it!)

...And how does that make you feel?



Fuck, just smoke dope like the rest of us. Can you do that?

[Artemis]

Fuck, BAS, that's some hard shit you're struggling with. But it looks like you're on the fucking path to admitting there's a problem and that you want to face it.

Kinetic - I'm glad to fucking hear that you had the opportunity to talk with your Mom. Fuck! sorry to hear that you have to move to Vegas. Sounded like you really enjoy CO.

[BAS]

Well, right now my allergies were so bad I went to the doctor's office thinking I had bronchitis. The good thing, I guess, is that I think I am beginning to associate the fucking allergies with the fucking JWH drugs.

I got to meet a fairly good looking doctor, but "Well, I am coughing up sticky yellow phlegm, and my nose keeps filling with snot" is not exactly the best pick up line (except maybe in a porn movie.)

I don't know where to get pot locally, and the JWH's are still legal and cheaper around here. I've decided that inhaling any kind of fucking smoke just isn't good for your lungs! Humans were designed to run away from smoke and fire, not inhale it!

Ugh. Does anyone know if I want to eat something or just go back to bed?

[lucky420]

physically it sounds like you need sleep right now. get yourself rested and it will help with the mental. Fuck

[Elorrum]

I did get to meet a cute psychiatrist, though. (Who was just back from her honeymoon, darn it!)

...And how does that make you feel?



Fuck, just smoke dope like the rest of us. Can you do that?

Dougly.

stop helping.

I'm a little bit kidding, and a larger potion quite serious. For many with addiction issues, or substance abuse issues, a teeny bit altered is never enough. It's hard to just do life without any softeners, but it gets easier over time. That's the fucking good news.

BAS, way to go... seeing a doctor and laying it out was a big step. I suggest you throw out the pipe, or give it to a nice home if it means that much to you. It won't be a good reminder, it will be a long lost buddy who wants to play with you.

[LeChatNoir]

BAS fucking hang on and fucking fight and we'll fucking help how we can.

I wanted to voice my agreement with Fishy and everyone else. You can do this. I had a friend who over came a severe addition about ten years ago. It took a lot of effort, but he did it and having friends around, even from a distance, was crucial in his success. It's a team effort really, and we're on your team.

[Ugly Dougly]

I did get to meet a cute psychiatrist, though. (Who was just back from her honeymoon, darn it!)

...And how does that make you feel?



Fuck, just smoke dope like the rest of us. Can you do that?

Dougly.

stop helping.

I'm a little bit kidding, and a larger potion quite serious. For many with addiction issues, or substance abuse issues, a teeny bit altered is never enough. It's hard to just do life without any softeners, but it gets easier over time. That's the fucking good news.

BAS, way to go... seeing a doctor and laying it out was a big step. I suggest you throw out the pipe, or give it to a nice home if it means that much to you. It won't be a good reminder, it will be a long lost buddy who wants to play with you.

Sorry, I guess I don't know enough about the situation.

[theCryptofishist]

Humans were designed to run away from smoke and fire, not inhale it!

Ugh. Does anyone know if I want to eat something or just go back to bed?

So fcuking true. And it's a huge problem with air pollution--we put all these particles in the atmosphere that we were never meant to breathe, and we're defenceless against them.
Oh well. fcuk.

[unjonharley]

Doughter inlaw stopped drinking couple of weeks ago without help.. Three days later she spazed out and did the fish on the floor.. Bit her tung bad and was hualed off to the hospital.. She has been there for 14 days now. Has some kind of low grade infection they can;'t find.. My son is a recovering(20yr), had a roll away brought in so he can be with her.. I'm looking in at the house and feeding the dogs..

Doctor said: No more drinking or die.. she is 43..

[BAS]

Sorry to hear about that, unjonharley! That's pretty harsh (and, with the lack of a health care system in this country, expensive.) I wish her good luck.

Oh, and "fuck."

[AntiM]

Fuck, unjon, hope she does okay.

My niece's guy started drinking again. Acute alcohol poisoning, pissed and shit himself, even got bedsores from lying in his own filth. Now he;s in the hospital and she thinks she will be homeless if she leaves him. Fuck. At least she can see a doc for her own problems, but if she blows up at work again, she's jobless.

BAS, when in doubt, have some milk and cookies and a nap. Seems reasonable to me.

[BAS]

Fuck! I'm out of cookies!

I am feeling a lot better today. I spent most of yesterday in bed due to allergies. I think that the JWH was at least in part to blame, since 073 attaches to the immune system. (As far as my immune system was concerned everything was just dandy, until whatever pollen it was knocked me flat on my back.) I woke up a few times last night drenched in sweat and today seem to be doing a lot better. (More like the way my allergies normally act this time of year-- slight stuffy nose, eyes itching a little, etc.)

I don't think I mentioned that both my doctor and the (good looking) psychiatrist had me schedule follow up appointments in two weeks.

OKAY! OKAY! Every(fucking)one kept telling me to get rid of the brass pipe! It is now in a plant in a fast food restaurant's Mens rest room! I'll check on it but leave it there when I leave.


AntiM-- I hope things turn out right for your niece, and I hope her guy gets his life straightened out. Good luck!

[Mojojita]

Good luck BAS - will be thinking of you.

The pipe does not need to be "checked on" . Give it to the universe and let it go........

Love U

[Eric]

Fuck- if unemployment benefits don't get extended by Congress I am completely fucked in just a few weeks. No savings, no job offers, we've already cut pretty much to the bone.....aaarrgh (or, more appropriately, "fuck").

At least the manager I gave a resume today actually looked at it & was impressed. He doesn't have openings at his location, but I think my application might go up the food chain- finally.

[unjonharley]

Fuck- if unemployment benefits don't get extended by Congress I am completely fucked in just a few weeks. No savings, no job offers, we've already cut pretty much to the bone.....aaarrgh (or, more appropriately, "fuck").

At least the manager I gave a resume today actually looked at it & was impressed. He doesn't have openings at his location, but I think my application might go up the food chain- finally.

Latest news.. The GOP blocked the extention this afternoon. Many fucks..

[Eric]

Fuck- if unemployment benefits don't get extended by Congress I am completely fucked in just a few weeks. No savings, no job offers, we've already cut pretty much to the bone.....aaarrgh (or, more appropriately, "fuck").

At least the manager I gave a resume today actually looked at it & was impressed. He doesn't have openings at his location, but I think my application might go up the food chain- finally.

Latest news.. The GOP blocked the extention this afternoon. Many fucks..

That's what prompted my post. I'm having a little bit of a panic attack right now. I'm just upper-poor when times are good, this has just got me extremely fucked. We'll get December rent paid, but food? Utilities? And then what happens in January? FuckFuckFuck We're already down by $600+ a month from what I was making just 3 years ago, $400 from what I was making 6 months ago- and I wasn't making a lot to begin with.

So glad the TeapubliFuckers care about the deficit when it affects the poor & middle class, but have no problem extending it by hundreds of billions so the rich can have a tax cut. Real fucking winners there.

[lucky420]

Fuck! This happened last June/July, hope it doesn't take as long to pass this time. Sure hope things work out for you...

[BAS]

Good luck, Eric! I can sympathize, having been in similar situations myself, more often than I like to recall.

Oh, and for what it is fucking worth, the pipe was still in the plant when I left. I don't know when I will visit that Culver's again-- I can't fucking afford eating out too often, and Culver's is a bit more expensive than McDonald's, and a little more out of my way. At this point it is a game to see how long before someone notices and removes the thing-- i.e. it is more entertaining to leave it there than take it. (Yeah, there was/is a method to my madness.)

FUCK! it is after 4:00AM, and I need to get up before noon! G'night folks!

[BAS]

Fuck, I want a 40' school bus so bad I can TASTE it! er, wait, that doesn't sound right...

[Eric]

If you are currently collecting on a regular UI claim that provides up to 26 weeks of benefits, and you run out of those benefits anytime after the week ending November 20, 2010, you will not be eligible for a first tier of federal extension benefits or any other extension benefits unless Congress takes further action.

Guess what fucking day was literally the last day of my benefits.

Fucking right- November 20th. I'm waiting to hear if I slipped under the deadline or not- the state is taking their sweet fucking time notifying me like they're supposed to.

If not, I'm so fucked. I haven't gotten an offer (or even a fucking interview), it's not like I'm being picky.

Fuck fuck fuck.

[Kinetik V]

Eric, the slow response is not just a Cali thing. It's a Kansas and Colorado thing too. Slow response is actually a nationwide issue right now as unemployment agencies are being slammed....it got so bad over here that I had to send emails to the Governor's office and complain and in one case I had to contact local media and CC the Gov's office in order to get someone to make contact with me. I've had to do that for both CO and KS. I hope you or anyone else for that matter doesn't have to get so drastic to get a response.

Going a bit further.... I'm one of the 99'ers. My benefits ran out, my savings got wiped out to the point we had $125 left and a food bank giving us donations and we ended up on public assistance. It's a place I never thought I'd be but I was there. And at the last minute by the grace of a higher authority I landed a job (out of the blue I ended up going from no work to getting two choices. I told Sports Authority's Corp office that I would pass and went back to the field I know and love in telecom. It's a significant pay cut from what I had before but a job is a job and it was doing something I liked doing...so I jumped. I've been working now for 2 1/2 months...and I'm glad to have the job. My point here...is don't give up hope. Things do break loose....and they will for you too.

One other thing... my mother will be coming home from the hospital if the schedule holds on Friday. They basically fucking killed her...the way the oncologist said it on the conference call is they screwed up on the dosages for her chemo and it took her about as close to death as you can get and modern medicine was barely able to get her back from the edge. The strange thing...her lymphoma...the swollen nodes are gone. They think they wiped it out...so instead of 3 months of treatments 3 days worth kicked it's ass. She is still having trouble walking and there's other troubles but they are minor...she's just happy to be alive and that's all that matters.

I know I'm running very long here...but to all those who offered up thoughts and well wishes during this ordeal.....I WANT TO OFFER MY MOST SINCERE THANK YOU.

[ygmir]

dang.........sometime FUCK is about all we got.

I got home from a week in Washington state, drove 700 miles in horrid weather, to arrive (at midnight) to an 80' black oak laying across, and in, my house, finding the neighbor, (who's tree it is) has no insurance or way to pay for damage.
In the morning, I'm notified my dear aunt lost her battle with cancer that night, one friend is in the hospital, perhaps with end stages of his cancer, and another friends cancer treatments seem not to have worked as hoped........

And, reading about the trials here...........Dang Eric, I'm pullin for ya.
BAS, KV, all you folks.

I suppose, I'd firstly say, though:
........................................................................ FUCK CANCER

[pinemom]

FUCK CANCER!

[lonestoner916]

Fuuuuuuuuck CANCER!

Damn Ygmir, that is really shitty man...

Eric, KV, I'm with you, and we are not alone, millions of people have nothing better to do on a Wednesday afternoon than watch a rerun of The Steve Wilkos show. Okay, maybe that's just me, but you know what I mean. I have been reduced to writing papers for middle aged college students just to earn a few extra bucks so I can take the bus into Sac and get myself laid. Sad state of affairs.[/code]

[BAS]

Ygmir, that's got to be about the worst run of luck I have ever heard of! I really hope things improve and fast.

And, you're right:

FUCK CANCER!!!

[goathead]

Fuck it

only a couple of bright spots today

finally made it home

fucking got cold enough to freeze the mud solid.

[Sail Man]

Fuck Cancer!

And fuck neighbor's tree's that fall on our houses.