Fuck!

[Ugly Dougly]

Fuck you cancer! We'll take turns, Yggy.

[ibdave]

{{{{{{{{{{{{YG}}}}}}}}}}}}



fuck cancer, fuck trusted family that fucks ya......

[MyDearFriend]

(((Ygmir)))

Fuck. It sucks, really, that you, the most steadfast and trustworthy person, are given the hardest task, and will complete it, regardless of cost, for a dying friend. His path is still very hard but you have eased it.

Oh my dear...

[geospyder]

(((((YG)))))
yes - Fuck cancer!

[ygmir]

thanks everyone......fuckin just needed to vent, I suppose.

[theCryptofishist]

Fuck, ygmir. Fuck it all.
I really don't know what ot say. Maybe I can give some of the strength that that hug should have had.
(((((ygmir)))))
As for:

I'm sorry, to waste time and bandwidth on my personal stuff here.......but in many ways, you here are a very real support system, for some of us.

That's exactly what this thread is for. Go back and read a few pages. Nowhere on eplaya is the love as strong as in this thread. And if we couldn't come here and talk about our worst moments, we wouldn't be the community *drink/choke* we are.

[geospyder]

Fuck mental health issues. Our youngest daughter has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). BPD is somewhere between bipolar and full blown schizophrenic behavior. She has attempted suicide a couple times, although we were unaware of it because no one told us. Last night she may have succeeded. She is currently in ICU at a hospital in Iowa. We are in Nevada. CT scan doesn't show any brain trauma but she is unresponsive. She is hooked up to a ventilator but is breathing on her own. Her estranged husband is with her and keeping us informed. Unfortunately there is really nothing we can do except hope she pulls through - again. If she makes it to August, she'll turn 40. To make matters worse, her daughter, our granddaughter (in Texas), is in the midst of finals and graduates high school in two weeks. At this point she is unaware of what is happening. She thinks her father is in Iowa checking on a problem with a house he is buying. Again - fuck mental health issues along with cancer. I'm going to bed and hope the phone stays silent all night and that I get some sleep.

[gyre]

Fuck, Geo.

I hope you get good news.

What a way to find out.

[Box Burner]

Fuck yggy, So sad to hear. You are doing the best thing possible. You are his friend.

Sending love and stregth your way.

((((((((yggy & freind)))))))))








And fuck Cancer!

[MyDearFriend]

Fuck mental health issues. Our youngest daughter has BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). BPD is somewhere between bipolar and full blown schizophrenic behavior. She has attempted suicide a couple times, although we were unaware of it because no one told us. Last night she may have succeeded. She is currently in ICU at a hospital in Iowa. We are in Nevada. CT scan doesn't show any brain trauma but she is unresponsive. She is hooked up to a ventilator but is breathing on her own. Her estranged husband is with her and keeping us informed. Unfortunately there is really nothing we can do except hope she pulls through - again. If she makes it to August, she'll turn 40. To make matters worse, her daughter, our granddaughter (in Texas), is in the midst of finals and graduates high school in two weeks. At this point she is unaware of what is happening. She thinks her father is in Iowa checking on a problem with a house he is buying. Again - fuck mental health issues along with cancer. I'm going to bed and hope the phone stays silent all night and that I get some sleep.

Oh, Geospyder!

(((hug)))

I am so fucking sorry, I can't say. Fuck. Your poor granddaughter. I hope you did get some sleep and that the morning brings some better fucking news.

[ygmir]

awe fuck, Geo.........so sorry...........dang.

And to all you other fuckers

Thank you, so much.

for your input, and concern., you really gave me some perspective, I had not considered.

[MisaBlue]

(((Geo)))

(((YG)))

ok, well, (((eplaya)))



and because it is FUCK thread FUCK

[goathead]

Fuck, (((((yg)))))(((((geo)))))

yg, I remember something you posted a few years ago, sort of went.

May your pain be intense and burning
For he was a good friend, and deserves nothing less.

May it be short and leave nothing but good memories.
Because you are a good man and a good friend
and deserve nothing less.

there are times I hate opening this fucking thread.

[geospyder]

Fucking good news. Doc says medically she is OK, no damage to liver or kidneys, she is responding a bit more to the docs. They are trying to get her to pass a test so they can remove the tube out of her throat. Not quite up to it yet. Unsure what other drugs were involved but she overloaded on Tylenol PM. I'll be off the grid starting tomorrow morning for a week or two. Thanks for the hugs and support. Eplayans are fucking great.

[ygmir]

good fuckn news Geo!!!!
now, we'll hope she can move forward, and get the help and support she needs...............

[unjonharley]

good fuckn news Geo!!!!
now, we'll hope she can move forward, and get the help and support she needs...............

Come back and tell us more when you can..


+fuck

[delle]

Fuck cancer
Fuck suicide
A huge fucking pox on the fuckhole soulless cousins

and an enormous fucking hug for everyone in here.

[Simon of the Playa]

fuck...i just got around to reading the fuck thread.

Yggy, your heart is as big as all outdoors....you are a man of compassion and honor.

i can proudly say i fucking love you, man...

fuck, i was gonna bitch and moan about the shit water covering my photos and paperwork and other nonsense.

it's just paper and sewage, i'll be fine. it fucking smells bad, but fuck....

again Yggy, As a thoughtful Man, i'm sure you did the right thing, and fuckiness like this does make one question the whole fucking thing we call life.

putting it out there is fucking cathartic, and the process of turning emotions into type is part of the healing.

i dont necessarily believe in Karma, but i do appreciate the almost disney-esque ways that real fucknuts get their comeuppance...call it providence, god, karma, cosmic vigilante-ism or justice, in the case of the cousins, i'd have to bet that someday they will get served up a hot steaming slice of "Fuck You"....

Now Have A Fucking Great Fucking Day....this thread gave me a new fucking outlook as far as this fucking day is concerned...

suddenly it aint so fucking bad.

[Ugly Dougly]

BPD is a motherfucker. My mother in law had it and I think my estranged best friend did too. So many confused and lonely souls out there...

[Simon of the Playa]

fuck...i skipped right to the reply when i read yggy's shit, and now i just read about geo.


FUCK!



geo, i dont know any words that could possibly help, but i sincerely hope that things get better.


fucking friday the thirteenth.....fucks my shit right up every fucking time...

i'm going to take "war & peace" to the bathroom with me and fucking hide all fucking day...

[wedeliver]

FUCK

well, fuck...........seems here is better than spilling this in DA Bar.........

I went to my friends house today.......the one with multiple myloma cancer........
Fuckin such a good man. Good friend.
He's almost (was) 6' tall, but now weighs about 120 lbs.
he's in a wheelchair, because his pelvis broke just from standing.
his vertebrates have cracked in several locations........
He's lost (they'll take it soon) his home.
His "family" bankrupted his business, his dream, just so they could start their own, exact same business in Santa Rosa.
(not his whole family, just two cousins he trusted while getting treatments in Arizona).

He wanted to talk "business"......because, he owes me a shit ton of money.

How the fuck, do you go to a (very well may be dying) friend and talk of a debt?
FUCK!!
He feels so bad he can't pay me back.......and, it's so obvious.
He has no options.
I just said "fuck it", you, and being alive and my friend, are more important than money......

we cried.

But then, he insists, I take "all his stuff", since, soon, he'll have no use for it anyway.........

How the fuck to I refuse?
I don't want his fucking stuff, I want my friend.

But, steadfastly, he is insisting it's the only way he can feel, he's done his best to repay, my investment, in his "dream" (that will now not come true).
And to honor our friendship.

His plan, this year, was to come to Burning Man........to celebrate his dream/business...........
And, he had to say "well, I guess that won't happen" and to "shush" me , when I started to say "next year.....". We both know there will be no "next year".

fuck.

So, he has me, and his helper, load all his tools and stuff, into his trailer and truck. Then, signs the papers to give me said trailer and truck........His whole life and dreams on wheels.........signing it to me,,,,,,,,,who the fuck am I?

Fuck this.

I can't say no, and insult his attempt at "doing the right thing", and, I can't bear to drive off, steering his "life's work" down the road.

He's a good man, a kind man, and someone who always tries to do the right thing.
He'd have loved "the Burn"...........we both know it.
But, instead, we look at each other, and shed a tear, knowing it's not to be.

WTF?!!!!

I hugged him..........he could barely stand from his chair, and I was afraid to hug him much, for fear of "breaking something"......

I came home, and now, really, have no ambition for much of anything.

Except, to write this.

And, really, I'm not sure why I'm even doing that.......except to say maybe it helps, to just "put it out there".......and, all that.
I'm sorry, to waste time and bandwidth on my personal stuff here.......but in many ways, you here are a very real support system, for some of us.

So, I guess that's it. I'm sure there's more to say, but, I have not the will to say it.

I know, IPBA.........but still, fuck..............

and may I stand, tears streaming and shaking an angry fist, one that if it could grab cancer by the nuts, would rip them off and shove them down it's throat to watch with glee as it choked on
them.









....................................................................FUCK YOU, cancer

wow, thanks for sharing, I am sure it was not easy. I can't think of a thing to say other then, the sun will come up tomorrow. I know that sounds really dumb but it's all I got.

I also wish to offer all my friends a place to find some peace. My spot here on earth is very peaceful, no sounds of sirens, helecopters, trucks on the road, just the sound of birds and the faraway whistle of a train.

You can camp in a tent, or bring an RV of some type and again let me emphasize that it is really peaceful. If you, anyone who reads this, wants to come here for the above reasons, you need to find some peace, your stay here will be free. my gift.

[geospyder]

...fucking friday the thirteenth.....fucks my shit right up every fucking time...

We were married on Friday the 13th many, many years ago. Any time the 13th falls on a Friday we make it a point to go out. Tonight it will be with a group of friends at the Reno Mi Casa Too.

Fucking update (had to get the fuck in there somehow) - Vent is out and she is moving around a bit. Can't talk yet and still very tired but seems more animated. Text messaging sure is coming in handy.

[theCryptofishist]

Fcuk, geo. Talk about being put on the rack. The multilevel horror that spreads out from her epicenter like a tsunami. (I know, mixed metaphor. Oh well.)
I hate the way depression steals us from ourselves.
fcuk, fcuk, fcuk...

[The Hustler]

FUCK

well, fuck...........seems here is better than spilling this in DA Bar.........

I went to my friends house today.......the one with multiple myloma cancer........
Fuckin such a good man. Good friend.
He's almost (was) 6' tall, but now weighs about 120 lbs.
he's in a wheelchair, because his pelvis broke just from standing.
his vertebrates have cracked in several locations........
He's lost (they'll take it soon) his home.
His "family" bankrupted his business, his dream, just so they could start their own, exact same business in Santa Rosa.
(not his whole family, just two cousins he trusted while getting treatments in Arizona).

He wanted to talk "business"......because, he owes me a shit ton of money.

How the fuck, do you go to a (very well may be dying) friend and talk of a debt?
FUCK!!
He feels so bad he can't pay me back.......and, it's so obvious.
He has no options.
I just said "fuck it", you, and being alive and my friend, are more important than money......

we cried.

But then, he insists, I take "all his stuff", since, soon, he'll have no use for it anyway.........

How the fuck to I refuse?
I don't want his fucking stuff, I want my friend.

But, steadfastly, he is insisting it's the only way he can feel, he's done his best to repay, my investment, in his "dream" (that will now not come true).
And to honor our friendship.

His plan, this year, was to come to Burning Man........to celebrate his dream/business...........
And, he had to say "well, I guess that won't happen" and to "shush" me , when I started to say "next year.....". We both know there will be no "next year".

fuck.

So, he has me, and his helper, load all his tools and stuff, into his trailer and truck. Then, signs the papers to give me said trailer and truck........His whole life and dreams on wheels.........signing it to me,,,,,,,,,who the fuck am I?

Fuck this.

I can't say no, and insult his attempt at "doing the right thing", and, I can't bear to drive off, steering his "life's work" down the road.

He's a good man, a kind man, and someone who always tries to do the right thing.
He'd have loved "the Burn"...........we both know it.
But, instead, we look at each other, and shed a tear, knowing it's not to be.

WTF?!!!!

I hugged him..........he could barely stand from his chair, and I was afraid to hug him much, for fear of "breaking something"......

I came home, and now, really, have no ambition for much of anything.

Except, to write this.

And, really, I'm not sure why I'm even doing that.......except to say maybe it helps, to just "put it out there".......and, all that.
I'm sorry, to waste time and bandwidth on my personal stuff here.......but in many ways, you here are a very real support system, for some of us.

So, I guess that's it. I'm sure there's more to say, but, I have not the will to say it.

I know, IPBA.........but still, fuck..............

and may I stand, tears streaming and shaking an angry fist, one that if it could grab cancer by the nuts, would rip them off and shove them down it's throat to watch with glee as it choked on
them.









....................................................................FUCK YOU, cancer

wow, thanks for sharing, I am sure it was not easy. I can't think of a thing to say other then, the sun will come up tomorrow. I know that sounds really dumb but it's all I got.

I also wish to offer all my friends a place to find some peace. My spot here on earth is very peaceful, no sounds of sirens, helecopters, trucks on the road, just the sound of birds and the faraway whistle of a train.

You can camp in a tent, or bring an RV of some type and again let me emphasize that it is really peaceful. If you, anyone who reads this, wants to come here for the above reasons, you need to find some peace, your stay here will be free. my gift.

Wel ... how can anyone follow that? I can only add more cliche, things like "live your friend's dream for him."

Use his tools to build something awesome, or something worthy of the steel which also bares his fingerprints -- do good, give back, make kids laugh. Maybe keep him in mind when you have a down day or need a little encouragement.

I'm sorry for your loss, really, I am. Just remember not to get bogged down in being sad, you have to make something of it or it was all for nothing.

[Mojojita]

(((((Geo)))))) I think there may be no worse FUCKING pain in life than to see your child suffer. I know I would rather shoulder it myself than see one of my kids so afflicted. But it sounds like you have blessings to count - HAPPY FUCKING ANNIVERSARY!

[Kinetik V]

I can't come anywhere near what's already been posted.....damn.

I'm posting because I'm worried about the Mississippi River flooding and the opening of the Morganza Floodway here in the next 72 hours. While the floodway is getting the spotlight...there's a structure very close by called the Old River Control....

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Old_River_ ... _Structure

Long story short they came very close to losing it in 1973. 40 years have passed with minimum maintenance and now here comes an EPIC flood that makes 73 look like someone was pissing off a bridge in comparison...

In short...if I was a betting man....and I do live in Vegas after all...my bet would be on Old Man River kicking the Corps of Engineers asses and this is where they will lose it at.

And if this comes to pass...a whole lot of people are really going to be fucked.

This will be something to look for in the news media in the week ahead.

[MisaBlue]

Very very very big FUCK

My friend is in coma...1,5 year ago she was healthy beautiful woman...year ago we had to help her with zipper (and we made fun about that), but she was still able to walk and drink beer using both her hands...5 months ago she was on wheelchair, but still could do something by herself (and we still laughed about jokes)...3 weeks ago, she wasnt able even sit straight unless we set her in the position...she only wished to die because her brain is working perfectly, she even asked her husband to help her from this misery, he couldnt, loves her so much...she died on Saturday for few minutes, but her husband panicked and called ambulance...she is in coma now...I only wish she never wakes up and dies soon, how cruel is that, I feel like monster...fuck this!

[Bin Noddin]

Its tough to make good decisions in such a fucking situation, Misa. I hope your friend has an easy passage.

[MyDearFriend]

(((Misa)))

what a fucking shame

I wish for her a beautiful dream, to carry her to the other side

for her husband, consolation for his terrible loss

for you, another drink

[AntiM]

Hugs, fucking hugs, MB, for you, and her, and her husband and friends.