Fuck!

Post by **Eric** » Sun Sep 11, 2011 2:28 pm

(((((goathead)))))

Nothing fucking worse than getting off the playa & walking smack into bad news. I'm glad yours is turning out all right.

BAS · Post by **BAS** » Sun Sep 11, 2011 5:01 pm

goathead-- sorry you had to come back to news like that! I'm also glad that it seems to be turning out okay.

oh, and FUCK!

hookahdude · Post by **hookahdude** » Sun Sep 11, 2011 10:06 pm

I think watching the Burn all week via the live feed is creating its own special issues. I had tickets but Defaultia prevented me from going to the burn this year. I figured it would be great to watch and listen to BMIR. The videos on YouTube arent cutting it. I don't want to see what "happened" - I want to see it happening - I want to be there when it happens. I had big plans to go this year - none of it happened. So while I am planning again to go next year - already have the trip outlined financially, I am really struggling and trying not to think that it is 350 days away.
Had I known I was going to feel like this, I think I would have found some way to get there - sell a car, get a second job... something.
I seriously feel like crap and like I not only missed the burn, but that I also let my wife down. SHe has lost so many people in the last 10 years and I want her to be able to stand at the Temple and send her messages. I want her to feel that sense of release.. SHe has said nothing and I am usually my own harshest critic... but that doesn't help..

Now I sound like a whiney bitch...

Fuck.

Lassen Forge · Post by **Lassen Forge** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 8:03 am

So, Komrade, shall we reserve a dome for the hookahs next year? Or at least schedule some Special Heavy Interrogation Terror? We missed you last year... we have so many new and dangerous plans that you may well almost recognize the doom of which you seek... Wihtout you there it was truly Fucked.

TinkerMom · Post by **TinkerMom** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 5:20 pm

Fuck, Hookahdude!! We need to camp near by together so we can share smokey stories!! My other half is disabled, and will never
make it out to the burn. Fuck!! I know how it is not being able to make it out there. I've tried for soooo many years, and finally did it!!
You will enjoy your self!!
Take care, and see you next year!!

hookahdude wrote:I think watching the Burn all week via the live feed is creating its own special issues. I had tickets but Defaultia prevented me from going to the burn this year. I figured it would be great to watch and listen to BMIR. The videos on YouTube arent cutting it. I don't want to see what "happened" - I want to see it happening - I want to be there when it happens. I had big plans to go this year - none of it happened. So while I am planning again to go next year - already have the trip outlined financially, I am really struggling and trying not to think that it is 350 days away.
Had I known I was going to feel like this, I think I would have found some way to get there - sell a car, get a second job... something.
I seriously feel like crap and like I not only missed the burn, but that I also let my wife down. SHe has lost so many people in the last 10 years and I want her to be able to stand at the Temple and send her messages. I want her to feel that sense of release.. SHe has said nothing and I am usually my own harshest critic... but that doesn't help..

Now I sound like a whiney bitch...

Fuck.

OregonRed · Post by **OregonRed** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 8:56 pm

So, my surgery is scheduled for Wednesday at 12:30 p.m. PST. Now that it's here, I'm fucking nervous. Nah... I'm fucking scared.

Don't get me wrong, if this works then it's an end to all the fucking pain that I've been in. I can have a life that doesn't involve trying to hide or lie about the pain I'm experiencing to the people who love me. And I am fucking thrilled about this prospect. But now it's less than 48 hours away. I had my pre-op appointment today and in the packet from the hospital there is Advanced Directive paperwork that they recommend that I fill out so that my family doesn't have to second guess anything should the surgery go terribly awry. It's like I'm suddenly realizing that I'm going to have surgery and there's a chance (albeit a slim one) that I could die. What. The. Fuck.

NO cold feet! I'm doing this shit! And it's gonna go perfectly fucking fine.

Right?

FUCK.

ygmir · Post by **ygmir** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 9:03 pm

hang the fuck in there, O.R.
so many of us love you, and want the best for you..........
do it, be done, and move on.

OregonRed · Post by **OregonRed** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 9:09 pm

Thank you, yggy.

I guess I'm just a bit freaked out today.

It fuckin' happens.

theCryptofishist · Post by **theCryptofishist** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 9:15 pm

Whatever happens, even the highly unlikely horriblest, you are leading a rich life, with people who love you, with interesting adventures, that anyone would be proud to leave*. Taking care of yourself can be hard at times, and there really isn't any gain without some risk, and I fucking say to you: You deserve to live pain-free so you can go after life with even more gusto.

Edited to add: *Lead, lead, what sort of morbid and inappropriate freudian slip idd I make? I'm so fucking sorry, Red. You didn't need to hear that. Now remember to eat lots of red jello tonight...

unjonharley · Post by **unjonharley** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 9:16 pm

It's fucking right

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[color=#FF4080]Or. Red

Another fuck

Grandfather, burner, camp mate and farther in law fell today. He is his late 80's.

He is over to the coast doing some gambeling.. Went out to get a news paper..
The curb was to high for his mobility scooter.  So he got off to bounce it over the curb.. He leaned on the throttle for a cane. The scooter bucked and through him to the ground.. Landed on his face and shoulder.. Broke his glasses.. Police and med checked him out..Then he called me. He tells me this shit, then said not worry.. He is a elder native Am. So the casino tribe will look after him..
FUCK

Post by **Eric** » Mon Sep 12, 2011 9:24 pm

theCryptofishist wrote:Whatever happens, even the highly unlikely horriblest, you are leading a rich life, with people who love you, with interesting adventures, that anyone would be proud to leave. Taking care of yourself can be hard at times, and there really isn't any gain without some risk, and I fucking say to you: You deserve to live pain-free so you can go after life with even more gusto.

I couldn't say it any better.

You will be fine, and you will be free of the fucking pain.

Have the CO let us know when you're out of surgery & in recovery.

Lassen Forge · Post by **Lassen Forge** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 5:31 am

OregonRed wrote:

NO cold feet! I'm doing this shit! And it's gonna go perfectly fucking fine.

Right?

You are fucking-a tweetie bird RIGHT sis... You get yourself pain-free, so you can muthafukkin' LIVE life, 'cuz we all HATE seeing you hurting!

We'll be prayin' on, er, for you!!!

Post by **AntiM** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 7:30 am

Fuck, Red, see you on the other side of the anesthesia. Pulling for you!

pinemom · Post by **pinemom** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 8:31 am

Oh and , Oregon REDDDDDDD, make sure you dont over do it during recoop, as the pain from recovery will be about the same as what you have been Horridly suffering with for months/yrs...DONT OVER FUCKING DO IT DURING RECOVERY!!!!!(not kidding, one day overachieving will give you 4 days laid out paying for it!!!!)

Love & healing fairey's!

pinemom · Post by **pinemom** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 10:53 am

wasnt gonna fuckin post a personal in here, but my anxiety and a couple of mean jestures has gotten the best of me today..(and fuck its too early after burn and in this morning to fucking feel this way)

My first husband is lying in a home hospice bed, riddle with inoperable/chemo stage 5 pancreatic cancer. All of is major organs are going one by one. He signed a do not resuscitation order 4 days ago. Demensia set in about 3 days ago and he is currently at the age mentally when we were married in 1985(Im at hospital having our daughter to him right now.) He lost his ability to eat/be iv fed 19 days ago when what was left of his tumor infested intestines fused shut to his stomach. He has double pneumonia and can no longer talk. She will never hear his voice again.
Im on anxiety freak everytime the phone rings and her number comes up.
She in Monterey, California. he is in Michigan.

Oh please Universe, I pray you stop the fucking suffering for him please take him to his home. And allow my daughter to grieve.

She's not handling this well at all and 9 days ago her Roomate and great friend suffered a fatal heart attack(pace maker did not kick in as its designed too) at age 22, rolled his car 6 times and killed both he and his boss.(also Dtrs husbands boss).
So ya, Its been a fucking day already and its not even fucking noon.

well, just fuck.

theCryptofishist · Post by **theCryptofishist** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 11:20 am

Fuck, indeed.
(((((Piney)))))

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 11:57 am

Ok OR, when you get to the hospital, walk in like you own the fucking place, have a big smile on your face and say,"ok guys and gals, let's roll! ". Soon you'll be in recovery healing and on your way to a pain-free life. And CO, keep updates coming!

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 12:12 pm

(((((((pinemom)))))))

I'm sorry about all you're going through and my thoughts are with you, your daughter, and your husband. I pray he has a peaceful and painless transition from this earth to his next journey,

deutlich · Post by **deutlich** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 12:19 pm

No you don't.

And for what it's worth? I understand that feeling quite a bit, having had to miss out on some grand events in the past that I *needed* to be at but couldn't (not quite like BM, though).

I think that with time it may be more clear why it wasn't in the stars for you to go this year. And this could very well mean that next year's will be even more awesome. I am sure that your wife understands why it couldn't happen this year.

I've got a slightly different issue in that I am a total Birgin and am KICKING myself for not doing more to be there this year. With that said, since I WILL be going in 2012 I've got all this time to properly plan the finances...which for me is a HUGE deal. But that's a whole other story ...

hookahdude wrote:I think watching the Burn all week via the live feed is creating its own special issues. I had tickets but Defaultia prevented me from going to the burn this year. I figured it would be great to watch and listen to BMIR. The videos on YouTube arent cutting it. I don't want to see what "happened" - I want to see it happening - I want to be there when it happens. I had big plans to go this year - none of it happened. So while I am planning again to go next year - already have the trip outlined financially, I am really struggling and trying not to think that it is 350 days away.
Had I known I was going to feel like this, I think I would have found some way to get there - sell a car, get a second job... something.
I seriously feel like crap and like I not only missed the burn, but that I also let my wife down. SHe has lost so many people in the last 10 years and I want her to be able to stand at the Temple and send her messages. I want her to feel that sense of release.. SHe has said nothing and I am usually my own harshest critic... but that doesn't help..

Now I sound like a whiney bitch...

Fuck.

deutlich · Post by **deutlich** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 12:21 pm

Sending EVERY bit of positive energey I can your way!

Please keep us posted post-op (whenever it is that you can, of course).

OregonRed wrote:So, my surgery is scheduled for Wednesday at 12:30 p.m. PST. Now that it's here, I'm fucking nervous. Nah... I'm fucking scared.

Don't get me wrong, if this works then it's an end to all the fucking pain that I've been in. I can have a life that doesn't involve trying to hide or lie about the pain I'm experiencing to the people who love me. And I am fucking thrilled about this prospect. But now it's less than 48 hours away. I had my pre-op appointment today and in the packet from the hospital there is Advanced Directive paperwork that they recommend that I fill out so that my family doesn't have to second guess anything should the surgery go terribly awry. It's like I'm suddenly realizing that I'm going to have surgery and there's a chance (albeit a slim one) that I could die. What. The. Fuck.

NO cold feet! I'm doing this shit! And it's gonna go perfectly fucking fine.

Right?

FUCK.

ibdave · Post by **ibdave** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 12:47 pm

deutlich wrote:No you don't.

And for what it's worth? I understand that feeling quite a bit, having had to miss out on some grand events in the past that I *needed* to be at but couldn't (not quite like BM, though).

I think that with time it may be more clear why it wasn't in the stars for you to go this year. And this could very well mean that next year's will be even more awesome. I am sure that your wife understands why it couldn't happen this year.

I've got a slightly different issue in that I am a total Birgin and am KICKING myself for not doing more to be there this year. With that said, since I WILL be going in 2012 I've got all this time to properly plan the finances...which for me is a HUGE deal. But that's a whole other story ...

Fuck deutlich, seeing that your a fucking burgin and all. may I fucking welcome you to the fuck thread.. We fucking bitch, fucking cry, fucking hug but most of all we type the word FUCK alot here.. So, fucking welcome and fuck yer day.....

edit, is Fishy fucking rubbing off on me??? fuck.....

deutlich · Post by **deutlich** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 12:56 pm

ibdave wrote: Fuck deutlich, seeing that your a fucking burgin and all. may I fucking welcome you to the fuck thread.. We fucking bitch, fucking cry, fucking hug but most of all we type the word FUCK alot here.. So, fucking welcome and fuck yer day.....

edit, is Fishy fucking rubbing off on me??? fuck.....

Uhm. You're fucking fantastic. And thank you for that fucking warm welcome. I'm smilin' pretty fuckin' hard on this end.

Post by **Eric** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 1:00 pm

((((((((((piney)))))))))

Fuck. That's pretty much all I can say.

graidawg · Post by **graidawg** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 1:24 pm

I FUCKING HATE THIS THREAD REALLY FUCKING HATE IT

piney- how fucking really fucking shit i mean thats as shit as it gets. i actually couldnt finish reading that post because it was just the worst. FUCK THAT i wouldnt be able to cope with that at all, but you are stronger and it wont beat you. (((((piney ant titwi))))

OR oh thats crap, i loved chatting with you and CO in the bar it was great to see 2 people in love an having fun, cant wait to see you two again hale and hearty and having more fun next year. ((((((or co)))))

my fuck? you are just all to far away too fucking far by far i miss you all too much and too soon.

ibdave · Post by **ibdave** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 2:00 pm

deutlich wrote:
ibdave wrote: Fuck deutlich, seeing that your a fucking burgin and all. may I fucking welcome you to the fuck thread.. We fucking bitch, fucking cry, fucking hug but most of all we type the word FUCK alot here.. So, fucking welcome and fuck yer day.....

edit, is Fishy fucking rubbing off on me??? fuck.....
Uhm. You're fucking fantastic. And thank you for that fucking warm welcome. I'm smilin' pretty fuckin' hard on this end.

My wife and I love your fucking city.
Last Nov. we hung out instead of going to BRC..
Great Fucking Choice....

OregonRed · Post by **OregonRed** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 2:16 pm

(((((piney)))) If I was there with you I would hug your neck so hard. From one strong woman to another, there is nothing wring with saying "I don't fucking know if I can deal with this" right before you take a deep breath and deal with it as best you can. I love you so much. Wish I was closer to be there for you (LOL and I bet you wish you were closer to me to help me thru my shit).

((((Unjon)))) Let us know if there's anything we can do. I'll be laid up for a few days, but The CO is hale and hearty and we're happy to help if we can.

Grai, you live to fuckin' far away. But I am so happy that I got to meet you and cannot wait to see you in the dust next year!

Thank you all for your well wishes. I know it'll be okay, but I am scared. And I feel (somewhat) okay about admitting that because I know y'all accept me for me.

I love you all so fuckin' much.

marck · Post by **marck** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 2:58 pm

Fuck.
Take care Piney, no matter how the curtains close, it is hard to watch your folks move on to the next stage.
But we all have to move on, I hope he is remembering better times, happier times.

Fuck, it still hurts.

lazerfox · Post by **lazerfox** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 3:08 pm

Fuck fuck fuck

(((Piney)))
(((OR)))
(((Unjon)))
(((hookahdude)))

FUCK IT
((((((Everybody))))))

maryanimal · Post by **maryanimal** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 3:31 pm

(((((Unjon)))) keep us updated!

unjonharley · Post by **unjonharley** » Tue Sep 13, 2011 4:19 pm

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Grandfather came home today.. It's hard to look at him.. He looks like he had been in a fucking Rocky film.. Two black eyes almost swollen closed. and a nose full of dry blood..

Didn't let him get away with "Oh I'm alright".. I stayed on his ass until he agreed to go to the clinic..

He traded scooters with me until I can put a thumb throttle on his.. Have one laying around here some place. I want him to use the power chair but it wont fit in his little camper.. It would take an act of dog to put a bumper hauler on that camper.

The fucker can't hardly move but he's going to the Elks meeting tonight..

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