Fuck!

[theCryptofishist]

(((Misa)))
(((Jax)))
(((Simon)))
(((Wh..sh)))
I fcuking love the lot of you. and I'm willing to toss some dollars your way, too, Jax

[Sail Man]

Oh Misa, I'm so sorry......

fuck.....

((((Jax))))

[maryanimal]

Fucking count me in Jax. Send me the info! *hugsss for you and you son*

[Elorrum]

Hugs Misa. I'm sorry about your friend. Fuck.
Jax, pm me contact info too. I owe it to somebody who did the same for me once. Simon, you are a fucking star to step up the way you do and get things rolling, every damn time.
AntiM, minifucks add up, so here's a big hug, and keep the change. ((((((AntiM))))))

[MyDearFriend]

Hugs Misa. I'm sorry about your friend. Fuck.
Jax, pm me contact info too. I owe it to somebody who did the same for me once. Simon, you are a fucking star to step up the way you do and get things rolling, every damn time.
AntiM, minifucks add up, so here's a big hug, and keep the change. ((((((AntiM))))))

Ditto on the fucking cash thing, don't be proud, we have all hit that rock sometime or other and been graciously helped over it by a friend.

[Simon of the Playa]

im still waiting for a PM....dont make me be an East Coaster....

and what she said...

pride dont eat, i learned that the hard way, and there is nothing shameful in accepting help.

it's almost shameful not to because we actually DO care, and are sitting here thousands or hundreds or just around the corner miles wondering if you're ok and if you're not how can we help to change that.



oops...

i forgot..

right...

IM WAITING FOR MY FUCKING PM....

and so are a lot of people....many fingers make for light typing or something like that.

[Roberto Dobbisano]

dont forget the time you were SO poor you lived off of the box of leftover canned playa goods from Risky for a whole week.


i think the can of deviled salmon is still in your desk, BTW.

[H.G.Crosby]

that shit was FUCKING Good!

and it had playa dust to add for flavor....in the middle of winter, the smell triggers memories, and makes everything Fucking tastier.

[ygmir]

we all need some fucking help, at times..........and, it's loved ones, you go to, Jax.
know, we care.

[Jax Dee]

I'm sorry it's taken me awhile to respond. I have been out of it on pain meds and trying to pack my kid up for his camping trip. Fun day. I keep blacking out cause I'm supposed to be in bed. On the boyfriend front...he learned his lesson after not being able to do anything today, everything going wrong, and apologized to me and seriously listened to me when I asked that he finally go talk to a doc about getting on ADD meds. So, good there. He just left to go join our son on the camping trip. He felt horrible leaving me cause I kept blacking out, it was so funny. I finally convinced him to get out of here. It's almost 2am.

I called the mechanic and they told me some BS story about how much it was going to cost just to run the diagnostic. I then explained I used to work on cars and fuck him and his computer cable and 2 minute print out costing me $150. I called Geico and told them I was recovering from surgery, stuck in bed, and if they didn't tow my damn car home for free, they were gonna have a blacking out angry woman in a walker show up at their nearest office in a cab. They apologized and took it to my parent;s house. MY dad gets home tomorrow and will tell me for free what's wrong with it. Of course I still can't fix it. Which is where I guess you all come in.

I have been sitting here for an hour crying after reading the PM from MAryAnimal and all the messages from you guys. It's hard for me to aceept help which is silly, cause I help people all the time. IT just feels like lately I can't do anythign right. Including typ cause my hands are numb. But this is me swallowing my pride and saying with true gratitude and awe, thank you to everyone who thinks of me, who send me kind thoughts, who is just a DECENT fucking person these days. Cuse you are rare, nd I love you guys. My paypal is linked to my email palefenix at yahoo dot com. I typed it like that so spam bots won't get it hopefully. I do not need anything other than the wonderful kindness you have shown me here but if you must send something that's the way you can. I will be appreciative for every word and every penny. Whatever anyone can spare. Amd when I am back on my feet I will most def pay it forward. I am sick of so much taking lately. I would like to give again for once.

I am gonna go off to bed now and try to stop crying. It's good crying though. It's nice to realize you are loved and there are good people still out there. Bless you all and thank you so much.

[maryanimal]

I'm sorry it's taken me awhile to respond. I have been out of it on pain meds and trying to pack my kid up for his camping trip. Fun day. I keep blacking out cause I'm supposed to be in bed. On the boyfriend front...he learned his lesson after not being able to do anything today, everything going wrong, and apologized to me and seriously listened to me when I asked that he finally go talk to a doc about getting on ADD meds. So, good there. He just left to go join our son on the camping trip. He felt horrible leaving me cause I kept blacking out, it was so funny. I finally convinced him to get out of here. It's almost 2am.

I called the mechanic and they told me some BS story about how much it was going to cost just to run the diagnostic. I then explained I used to work on cars and fuck him and his computer cable and 2 minute print out costing me $150. I called Geico and told them I was recovering from surgery, stuck in bed, and if they didn't tow my damn car home for free, they were gonna have a blacking out angry woman in a walker show up at their nearest office in a cab. They apologized and took it to my parent;s house. MY dad gets home tomorrow and will tell me for free what's wrong with it. Of course I still can't fix it. Which is where I guess you all come in.

I have been sitting here for an hour crying after reading the PM from MAryAnimal and all the messages from you guys. It's hard for me to aceept help which is silly, cause I help people all the time. IT just feels like lately I can't do anythign right. Including typ cause my hands are numb. But this is me swallowing my pride and saying with true gratitude and awe, thank you to everyone who thinks of me, who send me kind thoughts, who is just a DECENT fucking person these days. Cuse you are rare, nd I love you guys. My paypal is linked to my email palefenix at yahoo dot com. I typed it like that so spam bots won't get it hopefully. I do not need anything other than the wonderful kindness you have shown me here but if you must send something that's the way you can. I will be appreciative for every word and every penny. Whatever anyone can spare. Amd when I am back on my feet I will most def pay it forward. I am sick of so much taking lately. I would like to give again for once.

I am gonna go off to bed now and try to stop crying. It's good crying though. It's nice to realize you are loved and there are good people still out there. Bless you all and thank you so much.

You are so loved Jax! *hughughug* These people in here are the best you'll ever have the good fortune to know. Just take care of you right now. Feed your soul and spirit...don't worry and don't stress. <3

[Jax Dee]

Wow, just wow. You guys are amazing. I am not going to name names or call out amounts but everyone who has helped me whether through encouragement or money, thank you so very much. I would like to express my thanks properly, you know who you are, and if you are ok with it, I would like those who sent me donations to PM your addresses. I would like to send out proper thank you cards. I don't know what is wrong yet with my car or how much it's gonna cost but even the little I've got makes so much of a difference now. Thank you again. I've spent my weekend crying thanks to you people! Good cry though. Very good cry.

[Patsh]

A quote from the Dalai Lama:

Compassion is not helpless pity,
but an awareness and determination
that demands action.

[Elorrum]

A quote from the Dalai Lama:

Compassion is not helpless pity,
but an awareness and determination
that demands action.

Big hitter, the Dalai.

[Jax Dee]

On the FUCK front: my poor father got home from his business trip a little worse for the wear, he threw up and passed out on the plane and had to be emergency removed in a wheel chair. They think now it was food poisoning. When it rains it pours. He is home and recovering. I told my Mum the wonderful news of all my eplaya friends helping me out with the car and I told her to let Dad know not to rush getting a diagnostic and to just feel better (she was blown away and said to me I was blessed and wanted me to pass on her thanks that you are all being so kind as to help out her daughter). So I still have no idea what is wrong with the car but after all the kindness and donations (that still keep pouring in, you guys amaze me) I am so just not stressed any more. I feel small, and grateful, and blessed, and like I really am part of something bigger out there. You have all restored my faith in people's goodness when it was sorely at a low point.

I would also like you to know your donations are actually helping out another disabled person in need. My best friend due to her illness has lost her license (hallucinations and confusion, actually she voluntarily gave it up not wanting to endanger herself or her daughter) and as soon as my car is fixed it will be helping her to get to her doctor appointments and her daughter to her extra-curricular stuff too. So I feel twice blessed now that I have such wonderful people in my life.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PM me your mailing addresses. I have something special to say to each one of you who sent me love and encouragement and the means to fix my car. I would also appreciate if you would let me know in your PM how you would like me to handle paying you back when I am better. Do you wish your money back? Do you wish me to donate to charity in your name? Do you just want me to pay it forward the next time one of us needs it? I would feel better about receiving these gifts if I had a plan for after I am good again.

I cannot say thank you enough.

[Box Burner]

Fuck. Hit a pothole and busted two lugbolts on the left front wheel of my car. Guess I am out of a fucking car. How am I gonna get my daughter to school now? And where are the fucking road crews? They are always blocking traffic all over the city; you would think that they could go fill potholes once in a fucking while.

[ygmir]

awe fuck BB!!
those studs are not super hard to change and or, if you can get to a Pick and pull, you might find another hub for like 10 bucks............good fucking luck!! dang.

[Simon of the Playa]

YEAH.....i got her Fucking PayPal Acct!


i am the worst at this, and am stubborn to a fault, but please people DONT BE AFRAID TO FUCKING ASK WHEN YOU REALLY NEED HELP,


thats what community is about...helping others.

[OregonRed]

I am struggling today. I went to my youngest daughter's last Youth Symphony concert. She is moving away in the next few weeks. I know that this is what she needs to do and I know that this is good for her, but JekJek moved out twenty months ago, and The CO has been gone for a month now, and now my baby is moving away. I really don't want to be selfish but I feel so fucking abandoned.

I have lots of friends, and I know that they love me and all, but they aren't my daughters or my husband. I am trying really hard to be okay with all of this but tonight, I am falling way short of the mark. I am sad and lonely and, I suspect, just a wee bit pathetic.

Fuck. Thanks for letting me ramble.

[jella]

((((((O R)))))))

Oh My dear you can Ramble at us any time day or night.

[ygmir]

awe Fuck, OR.............we love ya.......and us parents, can sympathise...........let it out.......we're here.

[theCryptofishist]

Fcuk. yggy spawned?

[Oldguy]

small fuck, last night some yahoo hit my trailer, busting the taillight and bending the license plate bracket. I'll just get a tow-light kit at wally-world.

[Ugly Dougly]

Fuck OG, does your insurance cover a trailer I wonder?
Though your repair may be less than any deductable, mixed blessing.

[Bob]

Dang cat and stuff.

Off to make popcorn.

[mgb327]

Fuck....I had a Burning Man dream again last night. I was Home for a few hours. It was awesome, it was.

[OregonRed]

Nothing quite so awesome as getting ready for a midterm and being sick. FUCK!!!

[wh..sh]

FUCK!!!!!
I wish there was a fucking way I could take control of my fucking life!

[Ugly Dougly]

Have you tried fucking karate?

[wh..sh]

I tried, but its fucking hard to kick oneself