Fuck!

[wh..sh]

Elorrum, that is just a big fuck!

Hmm TG... it's always good to remember that whatever goes on facebook is for world to see.

[Sail Man]

(((((Elorum))))) We sit with you, in spirit. Giving you strength.



Little fuck added because sometimes it's not as appropriate to scream it out loud

[ygmir]

awe fuck...........((((((((((Elorrum))))))))))...........those of us who've done it, know, and are with ya!

[Mojojita]

awe fuck...........((((((((((Elorrum))))))))))...........those of us who've done it, know, and are with ya!

Yes, yes - what he said. I feel so fucking humble and lucky to have had the honor to care for my Mother and both of my in-laws during their final illnesses. I cherish the ability to have been an example to my sons. You are a fucking hero Elorrum.

MA - I think you should kick him in the vagina. Can't wait to hug the stuffing out of you.

TG - holy fucking batshit!

BB - you have had a hard fucking year buddy - we love you.

[Mojojita]

awe fuck...........((((((((((Elorrum))))))))))...........those of us who've done it, know, and are with ya!

Yes, yes - what he said. I feel so fucking humble and lucky to have had the honor to care for my Mother and both of my in-laws during their final illnesses. I cherish the opportunity to have been an example to my sons. You are a fucking hero Elorrum.

MA - I think you should kick him in the vagina. Can't wait to hug the stuffing out of you.

TG - holy fucking batshit!

BB - you have had a hard fucking year buddy - we love you.

[littleflower]

fuck!

has anyone ever been pulled over by a cop for speeding and reckless driving on a citizens arrest???

no ticket - but i have to go to court to fight it out with the creep who reported me.

i want to see his face ............ he certainly did lie, as i was not going the speed he reported, or weaving through traffic ....

has anyone had this happen?

[Oldguy]

Fuck! 2 weeks before I depart and I finally get my low income ticket confirmation. What a long fucking desperate wait. I am super happy the wait is over. Yay, I'm coming home!

[gyre]

fuck!

has anyone ever been pulled over by a cop for speeding and reckless driving on a citizens arrest???

no ticket - but i have to go to court to fight it out with the creep who reported me.

i want to see his face ............ he certainly did lie, as i was not going the speed he reported, or weaving through traffic ....

has anyone had this happen?

Sounds like some weird small town shit.

There is a lot of advice out there for tickets on the better forums and some organizations for this, even books.

This sounds like some weird shit.
I bet you find some strange background stuff with this guy.

[Jax Dee]

Well I have been busting my ass to help my best friend get her shit together, driving her to doc appt., helping her with money, always believing in her, never giving her shit for her behavior, never asking for anything back, putting my own health in jeopardy to assist her (to the point my boyfriend is worried and angry about the whole situation)...she gets angry at me b/c I am disabled and needed help around the house and wonders why I didn't call her for help...I was tired and angry and just rolled my eyes and said I couldn't ask her for help. I should have kept my mouth shut cause this set off an argument where she wanted to know what was so wrong with her that I couldn't have called her a month ago to help me. I tell her I don't want to do this in front of her 9 year old daughter and drop it. She gets nasty with me and I tell her to get out of my house. She pushes until I finally say to her that of course I didn't call her junkie ass for help, she wasn't capable of taking care of herself at the time much less me, I didn't want her or her abusive junkie boyfriend in my home near my kid, my boyfriend didn't want her around, and what did she want from me? I always support her ass but I am not going to lie and pretend she hasn't royally fucked her life up recently. So she has nothing to argue back at that point b/c I am right so she goes self-righteous on me, stalks out of my home on crutches saying she doesn't need any help from anyone and now prolly won't talk to me. And the worst part? The only thing I feel right now is relief her shit is out of my life right now and regret I won't be able to be there for her daughter anymore whom I consider my niece. Fuck.

Also, boxburner, ((hugs)) I sent you something through paypal and I hope it gets better. I'll send more when I can. People here helped me out when I needed it and only asked me to pass it on. So that is what I am doing.

[delle]

Jax!!!

First of all, I'll say it again: You are phenomenal. Inspiring. Just plain "makes me feel like being a better person" kinda folks.

Thank you again, just for being who you are, every single fucking day!!!

Second of all, hopefully this person will at some point discard her defensiveness to a point where she'll let you back in... (and hopefully do something about it). The thing about Telling The Truth after long bouts of Not Telling The Truth, is that it can sometimes sting harder than others, as you are speaking these truths from the trusted non-judging seat.

The thing about the trusted non-judging seat is that the person who sits in it can often be tested to the point of being abused. Usually to the point of cracking. Hopefully all of this will come back around to a better place for everyone.

And lastly, BB got Paypal? Could you share that address please? Seems to me that even if many of us can't afford much, a bunch of little bits is way better than nothing, and every little bit helps. Could this be made public?

(totally missed it if it was already posted.... I don't see as much as I used to)

And again, You fucking ROCK, Jax!!! I really hope to meet you in person one day. Really.

[theCryptofishist]

Junkies are really difficult to deal with. The need for whatever flavor of junk supersedes anything else... I'm usually all for supporting those who need; but sometimes addicts really do need to fall flat on their faces in order to realize how fucked up they are.
I'm sorry that that happened to someone you're close to and you've known for a long time. Giving up that kind of investment is hard...

[maryanimal]

Well, fuck me...I was walking up the stairs to get something to eat when I hear Les' son Christian going off on me to someone, probably one of his brothers. He was telling them how I don't do shit around the house. I leave the lights on, and the doors open when the air conditioner's on, and how I don't pay anything to live here. That miserable fuck...I raised, fed, clothed the motherfucker for 12 years. I may have not paid the $400 a month Les wanted to screw me out of, but I've cleaned this fucking filthy house, washed the moldy bathroom so I can take a shower, I've cooked, shared my food, looked the other way when they'd all eat my food and didn't replace it. I've endured more stress than anyone would want to endure. My health is not too good these days. And I have to hear that ungrated bastard bashing me to whomever will listen. I'm not going to the burn, how can I. I have to get a fucking apartment hoping it won't cost me an arm and a fucking leg. I told the asshole fucking ex that I can't move out until the first of October when I'll have the money. I've never been appreciated for anything!! Not a FUCKING thing!! I was just a paycheck, the moneymaker who kept a roof over everyones head. And the goddamned shiteater has the nerve to talk shit about me.

I feel like I've been raped again...all the life has been sucked out of...just a shell. I know, once again, I'll get through this, but as soon as I get the fuck out of here, I NEVER want to see any of them again, or I should say Fuckhead (Les) or Fuckface (Christian), the apple doesn't fall far from the fucking tree. I sound like a bitter person, and I'm sorry, I've wasted 15 years of my life.

[catinthefunnyhat]

Fuck, {{{MA}}}, what a fucking ungrateful sot he is. You ARE coming to the burn, you must, to refill your tanks with the love and warmth of friends and the absolute freedom of BRC. Every minute you spend with those fuckers must feel like an eternity, but those minutes will be over soon. And please don't think you've wasted those years. You've spent them paying dues, building strength, preparing for all the good things that are coming.

[maryanimal]

I have to move out cat, My cat's won't be taken care of, they'll go through my room and take all my stuff. Except for what I have in storage, it's all I have. I can put a lock on my bedroom door, but they'll just take it off. I think I'll just move my sutff out, put it in storage, and go to the burn and worry about things later. I just don't fucking know...

[ygmir]

jeebus fucking cripes, MA...........dang..............I hope you can pull it off............and get in a good space.......Burning, may be the first step? yes?

and damnfuck........Jax..........hang in..........yer doing good work!!!

[Sham]

Maryanimal, you're gonna let that little fuckwad take this important part of your life away. If you do, then they won. This is the thing that recharges your soul and gives you the strength to carry on.
I'm sure you can work on getting an apartment, but what the hell good does that do you if you gave your soul away for that little ungrateful dickhead? Hmmm, answer me that, wouldya?
I'll see you in a few weeks!

[Elorrum]

Jax, holding up a stop sign and telling an addict they are not trustworthy, and not reliable is a gift to them. Sometimes a good honest mirror is all you can give, even if they deny it's s themselves they are seeing. When it comes from their last go-to friend or family member saying "Here is what you lose, my friend. I don't trust you around my child." It might make her take notice. Hopefully the ground they stand on gets smaller, and their path narrower, until they see stopping as what they will do anything for. I pray she can thank you one day, because she fucking should. Hold the line, because addicts are so fucking confusing to kids.
Fuck. MA, change something. Go burn, get recharged, or do what you have to do to get free. I'm cheering for you. Go Go Go!

[maryanimal]

Cat--thank you for your support and kind words. they mean so very much. *hugs*

Yggy-- I'll pull it off mister!! I had a weak moment earlier! Thank you my friend! *hugs*

Sham--I'll see you and your rubber stamps in the dust!! *hugs*

[lucky420]

((ma)) you need this you need us! Please get the fuck out here.

Jax-sorry you and your friend had to come to this but maybe it is for the best. The truth came out, maybe not in the way you wanted but it's out there now and you are better off for it. Can't wait to see you at my new house. heehee you guys will be my first visitors. YAY!

[Jax Dee]

Thank you everyone for the kind words. It's what I needed. I just feel like shit for abandoning her, but literally EVERYONE in my life said I did the right thing and I need to take care of myself. So I am gonna do my best to not worry and just concentrate on the burn, so happy to go and get to see you all!

MA ((Hugs)) I know how that feels and I wish you the best. Pls make it to the burn, like me, you need it this year. It will be healing.

In regards to BB, yes he has a paypal now, if you would like to help PM me and I wil PM you his addy. Delle, check your messages

[yurtgirl]

Being somewhat the anal type, I about went fucking postal on the beau for NOT picking up the tickets at the PO when he got a pink slip in the mail A MONTH AGO. I found out by asking last night if tix were will call like last year and he says "I think they're supposed to be mailed." now, I knew mailed tix went out in July so I grabbed his phone and searched his email and found the confirmation. Yep, to be mailed. So I asked him about the pink slip from the PO and he'd been carrying it with him for A MONTH. When asked why he didn't get it he said, he didn't know who it was from. IM GONNA FUCKING KILL HIM! The tracking number is no longer valid so I can only assume they went back to the BM office and we will have to get them at will call. I'm telling him today he has to sort this out TODAY. He's so fucking lucky to have me. I do all the planning and packing so he can have a good burn and he does something like this. ACK!

[lucky420]

FUCK yurtgirl!! omg I applaud your restraint.

[FIGJAM]

This is why you don't let the crash dummy drive your car!!!

[yurtgirl]

The worst part? He giggled and I said "what the hell are you laughing at?" and he said I was cute when Im mad. Arrrrrgh.

[lucky420]

you just might have to "choke a bitch"

fuck

[Zhust]

The worst part? He giggled and I said "what the hell are you laughing at?" and he said I was cute when Im mad. Arrrrrgh.

Not picking up the tickets is somewhere between stupid and sabotage. But this?: DTMFA. I hate to pass judgement on just one thing, but I can't see a scenario where he's anything other than a manipulative abuser. I guess, unless you're into that kind of shit, at which point I'd say get some help and self-esteem. Alas, who am I to tell someone how to run jeir life.

[theCryptofishist]

yurtgirl--he's not a prize.
ma--you're in Seattle? What do you need? a place to move to and uhaul rental (or budget, whatever) and a place for the cats?
Anyone in Seattle that can help with the physical details? And those of us further away can offer other logistics?

[lucky420]

I think ma is in Spokane

[Box Burner]

Well the fucking car is dead. Fuck. Don't know what I will do now. cheaper to buy another car than to fix this one. Fuck.

[wh..sh]

A big fuck for you BB! When things begin to go wrong, it's almost like a domino effect.
Do you have any friends from whom you can borrow a car until you figure your stuff out?

A little Fuck for myself. Horrible, horrible day!