ygmir wrote:I can't imagine, you not "belonging"........people love you here. You fit nicely.
Thanks ygmir! Funny that persception can be so far off from reality.
Ugly Dougly wrote:
Imagine one of us wandering around a festival in India, delightfully confused.
Sometimes that culture shock can be delicious.
Yes, absolutely! I enjoy culture shock to weird extremes
To be fair, US culture wasn't really alien to us. Some of us spent most of 1990s and 2000s watching all sort of American TV shows. The first 2 years in the US was a breeze.
I enjoyed the culture shock, deliciously! After 3-4 years of culture watching, one is often encouraged to leave the spectator role behind. It has been a one hell of a roller coaster ride since then!
It's hard to explain some of this to myself. I catch myself struggling to make friends (which I believe shouldn't be THIS hard).
Sure, I have met great people and made acquaintances, but haven't made any real good "4 AM friends". I really miss that!
I am sure culture is only a small part of it. I might have picked up some fancy personality disorder over the years.
BBadger wrote:You? Can't seem to belong? That's crazy talk. You must've completed the transformation before I ran into you this year.
I am not shy (you know this better than anyone else), yet, something seems to be wrong... weird, huh?
I am not trying to roll in self-pity. It does feels good to admit some of these shortcomings... on the World Wide Web (it's now official!).
It's just that sometimes it's just not about wearing cool stuff and smiling. I haven't really gotten much far with that, to be honest.