The Bar

buckethead alien · Post by **buckethead alien** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:38 pm

Hmmmm. I gotta process that for a minute. In the meantime, here comes some of that 108, see if you notice the difference.

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:40 pm

take yer time... I'll just be drinking myself into oblivion...

well, maybe not quite yet.... I still have to get together with Rian tonight...

buckethead alien · Post by **buckethead alien** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:50 pm

GE, what I am having a problem with here--other than the live-in housekeeper part--is that you could think of yourself as a "burden" to someone, anyone. Jealous, sure, it happens, but "inadequate?" No freaking way.

regynalonglank · Post by **regynalonglank** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:54 pm

hit me

and Guinivere my dear, if you want to be a burden to someone who appreciates you just let me know!

love the new avatar :)

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:56 pm

I know, and it's something I totally do to myself.

Somehow, with this particular boy, I make myself feel tiny and niave and like I can't even compare to any of the other women in his life. It's silly and stupid, and I know this, and perhaps that's what makes me more angry than anything...

but sometimes, I just can't help it...

buckethead alien · Post by **buckethead alien** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:57 pm

Two fingers o' wildbird and a pack of matches coming up.

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regynalonglank · Post by **regynalonglank** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 4:58 pm

its sure that you are not the burden
the burden comes in wanting
in my case
finding that i want to not date other people
all of a sudden
when i should be happy and single and free
and just have sex and let it be that
and not fall so hard
but i do
dammit
it's supposed to be just for fun
but somehow
that makes it worse
when i find myself blowing off
perfectly good hotties
just because
i'm not sure why
this impulse to settle
explore one person
more deeply

shit, that's getting poetic and crappy
i need another drink!

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:01 pm

not crappy at all...

I'm the same way. I fall hard, and fast. And sometimes (more often than not), even when I know better.

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:02 pm

this impulse to settle
explore one person
more deeply

This is exactly it. That's lovely, honey. thanks for putting it into words for me.

buckethead alien · Post by **buckethead alien** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:04 pm

Okay. You both are doing fine on the bourbon, so I am going to duck out for a while -- nighty night.

Zulegoona · Post by **Zulegoona** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:07 pm

So why is it this it you find it more desirable to have an open relationship?

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:07 pm

thanks BHA. See you later...

regynalonglank · Post by **regynalonglank** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:08 pm

buh bye baby boi...have a good night...

yeah...hard and fast, that's the way we like em...heh.

i dunno...there was something a girl said on the burning women tribe about loving being single and wanting to preserve the state until she found someone worth giving it up for...it sounds so good

but in practice it feels like - oops, this one's just not quite (fill in descriptor here) i'll throw it back and keep on lookin

seems cold hearted somehow

but true

i mean so what if the sex isn't all that, what if i actually like the person!

but then again, if sex is not fun and easy to start out with i don't think it tends to get any better...shouldn't have to work at it, right?

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:09 pm

z... when we entered into this particular relationship, we were both coming off some serious, exclusive relationships. We decided, mutually, that something open and less serious would be to our liking. It has since developed into something more serious, but has yet to be made into an exclusive relationship. I'm ready, but any time I've brought it up, it has been met with silence... I just don't think he's ready. I don't know.

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:11 pm

ug... I seem to have turned into that drunk at the end of the bar, spouting out about relationships to any and all who'll listen. Sorry...

regynalonglank · Post by **regynalonglank** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:12 pm

heh! yeah, me too...as it turns out.

and i'm not even drunk yet!

oh well, better here than not, i should say

Zulegoona · Post by **Zulegoona** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:14 pm

It truly is a drag, when things change faster for one person than another...

Though I wonder since he did ask you about the house keeper and was possibly willing to alter his plans for your sake if he might not be getting close.

GuinivereElise · Post by **GuinivereElise** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:15 pm

Okay, I'm heading out, guys. Thanks for listening to me whine.

Rian, I'll see you later, grrl.

BHA, I know you took off, but thanks, and I'll talk to you later.

Regynalonlank: we'll have to continue this some other time: I'd love to talk to you about it more...

Z, have a good night.

Zulegoona · Post by **Zulegoona** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:16 pm

Have a good one GE

regynalonglank · Post by **regynalonglank** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:18 pm

seems to me any time you break out of the typical mold and try to forge new templates for a relationship it makes it a lot harder to know where you stand, and you have to be a pretty strong person to pull that off.

you seem like a pretty strong person to me GE...it's ok to not know exactly. you get to make it up.

i just want to be happy

i think i'm getting smarter about what that means, what i need

the last thing i want to do is to get into another relationship with someone who isn't really my cup of tea, and then beat them over the head with it. cuz lemme tell ya, that ain't no fun

so i gotta be a bit more careful before i commit

i can feel it, but i ain't gonna say it til i'm damn sure

maybe he's feeling that way too...

regynalonglank · Post by **regynalonglank** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:19 pm

ah, well, looks like i cleared out the place! sadly i am taking off too...hate to drink and run, but i gots to go home, light a fire, and stare at it.

i'll check back in with ya'll tomorrow...

have a great night!

slante

samtzu · Post by **samtzu** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:25 pm

*walks into the bar and slumps onto the still warms stool down at the end. No bartender again.... walks behind bar.... climbs up the shelves to get a bottle of the reeeeeeeally goods stuff... thinks better of it..... slides down the firepole (did this used to be a firehouse?) to the floor, flips the hatch that leads into the celler where the dreck is stored, descends the stairs, where he finds....*

sparkletarte · Post by **sparkletarte** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:32 pm

Hey boynextdoor! Whadja find in the cellar? I'll take some.

You know, I rather like boynextdoor. I think my honey is that with some of the backrubber (not the gross mannextdoor one!). So don't get too soppy about it! It's a good thing.

cowboyangel · Post by **cowboyangel** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:35 pm

me, yes me wondering whatever happened to the 'what's your sin" theme for today.....been looking at my own dark side, and will tilt away from some potentially legal stuff...cowboy a "dark" side? well, ha ha ha,, I'm still active in the environmental movement.....nuff o that...I'll have the usuall, and Sam light the candle please, it's dark down here...

Zulegoona · Post by **Zulegoona** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:37 pm

*The hatchway above their heads slams shut. the lights go out*

cowboyangel · Post by **cowboyangel** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:39 pm

I coulda been a priest, come to think of it! nother Jäger please Sam

Zulegoona · Post by **Zulegoona** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:39 pm

The smell of sautéing scallions drifts down from above them...

cowboyangel · Post by **cowboyangel** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:40 pm

Father Cowboyangel.....ya, I like the sound of that.....

Zulegoona · Post by **Zulegoona** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:40 pm

Wonder if cowboys dark side tastes different than the rest.

cowboyangel · Post by **cowboyangel** » Mon Oct 25, 2004 5:43 pm

ya I like that so much I'll change my avatar....no need to worry, I am already corrupt, but no little boys or little girls for me......just loose women,

older women.....

The Bar

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