ranger magnum wrote:I think its pretty cool you can write about what is going on in your head.
Yeah, exactly.That's exactly where it's going on.
The rules for if you have voices...(not auditory hallucinations, but real people voices)...
1. Realize that if you have voices from Burning Man (or real people voices - you'd know what I mean otherwise this OBVIOUSLY doesn't apply or mean a thing to you... You have rules that you have to follow.
2. Don't do drugs. Realize that the voices don't go away just cause you stop. There's a punishment period accruing while using. After you stop doing drugs, the punishment is equal to the time you were doing drugs.. the earlier you stop, the shorter the punishment period after you stop. If you have a partner, come clean as soon as possible.
3. If you stop using and relapse, you need to stop your relapse and tell your partner, if you have one, that you relapsed. The punishment period equals the time of your total relapse plus the time it takes you to come clean with your partner (to tell them you relapsed). You could get clean but wait months to tell your partner that you had a relapse and all during that time, you are accruing punishment time which only starts when you tell on yourself.
4. Don't lie about important things. If you lie about something important and voices come in, figure out what you need to tell the truth about as soon as possible because your punishment time is the time from the lie until you tell the truth and the punishment time starts after you tell the truth.
So, those are the rules (in my head, if you will). Some will understand. However, the stupidest thing about all this is how fucking narrow and closed-minded the voices are. They are robots who simply do what they are told to do whether it is right or wrong. I got punishment because I made $3,000 in micro-loans to the working poor but told my wife I had only made $1,000. I had $40,000 in my business PayPal account at the time and this was considered an important lie, so they came in brutally for about six months while I worked on my business and worked on starting a non-profit. The closed and narrow minded voices pushed me to a suicide attempt in which I nearly died (in a coma for 30 days)... all over $2,000 in loans to the working poor around the world which, in the end, where all paid back to me and returned to my bank account.
The intricacies of punishment are not fully understood by myself - how could they be - the voices confirm everything so everything is also a lie. There's no denying they tried to kill me because I was making $2,000 worth of loans that my wife didn't know about for a short time, as far as I remember. This is the ultimate in stupidity. It shows they do not have any clue whatsoever as to what's going on with a client, in reality. Anything can happen because they do not take care to be aware themselves. They lost their ability to reason and I don't yet see that they have it back or even want any ability to reason - they are rules followers which disgusts me. Everything for the rules. Don't do anything to lose your job even if it's wrong. In the end, I do more right than they do in their lives because they do something so wrong and just go along with it.
You can write this off as a crazy ass post from someone with mental issues. But I wanted to put the rules down so someone who understands what I am talking about has a chance to minimize the ridiculous punishment by knowing the rules behind it. Oh, and I guess what it also says is, don't go doing something good without telling your partner even if it has absolutely no effect on them whatsoever... and if you get to the point where you've got more punishment than you can see past, screw the voices anyway and just live your life - appreciate what you have and tell them to fuck off because they are the least principled people and they know it. I know another group of guards that just followed orders without questioning them and who didn't want to lose their jobs too. So when the voices tell you "Wrongest Answer", you can tell them they represent the "Wrongest Answer" themselves.