Social anxiety?

[Elorrum]

Yup, I know this feeling. My radical self expression tends to be an inner experience. I may look like a tourist, but given a chance, I might do some magic for you, or share in your enthusiasm for what is happenning all around us. Somebody shouted "boo! tourist!" at me last year. I danced away (on the inside) I should have just gone and given them a big hug and a smile. I made up a little jingle and song: "I need to be here more than you know.'

All this stuff might be easier with alcohol, but I punched all the dots on my lifetime drinks card 14 years ago. So this year, if I'm not up for a real costume, I am trying at least for COLOR, and a great hat with lots of lights on it. Also I built a chopper bicycle. It's a work in progress, and I'm willing to practice practice practice. I went solo last year, me and my stuff. This year I am meeting my neighbors from last year. Really nice people.

Go and let go. You might wonder why you didn't go sooner.

[gyre]

Burners should be able to do the same things with or without alcohol.
Isn't that why we are who we are?

[xanaxfairy]

Thanks, everyone, for your encouraging words. I am much looking forward to the event, looking at different costumes and fun things. : P
Hopefully, there is chance to wander and explore alone. : )

[bonafide]

You know what you are xanafairy? Pure Grace. Remember that when you feel separate and remember it is absolutely so for every other person - even if they aren't acting "right" in your estimation. Grace. Of course judging is a losing proposition so stop that if you find yourself doing it, especially judging yourself harshly...that never works out. See all the Universe as Grace and you fit right in! I like you already just for being vulnerable enough to talk about it .
Bonafide

[xanaxfairy]

Thank you so much for the wonderful advice! That makes me so very very happy...big, bug hugs!

[Elorrum]

So...how'd it go?

[xanaxfairy]

I had a great burn all in all. At some points, yes, I felt as though I were about to have a seizure from overstimulation (blinky lights and all)...but it was an amazing experience and one hell of a camping trip. : )
But one burner gave me the best advice which was "Wherever you go, there you are." And that's true....especially on the playa.

[hsdavis]

But one burner gave me the best advice which was "Wherever you go, there you are." And that's true....especially on the playa.

That is the best quote I have ever heard from the playa. Thank you for sharing that, you made my day!

[gyre]

It is best known as the line by Buckaroo Banzai, which starts out..tadada..on the playa, though I think Sun Tzu or SÅ«n ZÇ